What Does Wanting Know?

God is dependent on us for bringing God forth and establishing God’s reality within the physical world. And we are dependent on God for bringing ourselves forth and establishing our reality within the physical world. Denying our dependency, and living as though we are the Captains of Our Own Ship, the Masters of Our Destiny, disrupts the natural flow, and creates the illusion that we can do whatever we want.

Apart from God, we have no idea of who we are, or what we are about, and are stuck with only our wants to guide us. The Will to Good is not fueled by the desire of the moment, and without a connection with the core of Life and Being within us, we are left with being blown about by the winds of attraction and repulsion.

We know what we want and what we do not want, but what does wanting know? How resilient, determined and disciplined in the service of what needs to happen is wanting? How long before we are disenchanted by, and bored with, what we wanted—and cast it aside to take up the chase for next must-have piece of technological innovation that comes along, with its shiny plastic housing and promise of lasting satisfaction? Or the next true love? Or the next hit of whatever box of smoke is handy?

Wanting must be sat aside in favor of Eros—not understood as sexual love, but as love of life and destiny that pulls us beyond ourselves into ourselves in fidelity and service to the life that is our life to live, regardless of anything that might challenge or threaten that life or our allegiance to it. This is compatible with the idea of courtly love between a medieval knight and his lady, where loyalty and devotion were foundational aspects of service and work.

It is this kind of dedication to the life that is our life to live that aligns us with The Will to Good (Which has always been experienced as God), and opens us to aspects of ourselves that were secret to us and had been hidden from us as long as we were off track and lost in a world based on having what we want.

Published by jimwdollar

I'm retired, and still finding my way--but now, I don't have to pretend that I know what I'm doing. I retired after 40.5 years as a minister in the Presbyterian Church USA, serving churches in Louisiana, Mississippi and North Carolina. I graduated from Austin Presbyterian Theological Seminary, in Austin, Texas, and Northwestern State University in Natchitoches, Louisiana. My wife, Judy, and I have three daughters and five granddaughters within about twenty minutes from where we live--and are enjoying our retirement as much as we have ever enjoyed anything.

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