Ten Short Thoughts

1. The “Other World”

Primal peoples always believed that the visible world is grounded upon the invisible world. The invisible world is the world of the unconscious (because we are not conscious of it), and it is the source of consciousness and life. It is the spiritual world, and the ground of the physical world. Of course, I have no factual, rational, basis for alleging these things. I cannot prove it. Nothing we say about the invisible world can be ruled valid or invalid. We don’t know if such a world exists. It has always been thought to exist. But it is easy to start with the fact that the invisible world has always been thought to exist, and move into fantasy in an “if then, therefore” kind of way.

The unconscious world does not operate according to the laws of reason and logic, but we treat it as though it is just like this world of normal, apparent, reality. Motives that operate here, operate there. All of the emotions that hold sway here, hold sway there (God is a jealous God, you know, wrathful, angry and loving). We simply will not have a world we cannot see, hear, touch, taste, smell, understand or comprehend. We will make one up and say that’s it.

People talk about “extrasensory perception,” and say they talk regularly with the dead. Well, maybe. I know fooling ourselves is what we do best, and we can imagine the realest kinds of things. Whether anyone has ever actually talked with the dead, or had a legitimate out of the body experience—where they were able to read the title of a book, say, on a slip of paper placed on the top bookshelf by one of their friends—I don’t know. For all the reports of telepathy, and telekinesis, and teleportation, there are a greater number of studies debunking each one. As long as people have been claiming to have talked with the dead, they haven’t heard anything that has made much difference for the good in the way the world works, so we have to say, at the very least, that the dead aren’t much to talk to. They don’t appear to know any more than the rest of us, and if they do, they keep it to themselves.

If there is another world beyond this one, or another entire universe of worlds beyond this one, there is nothing in this world that would allow us to know anything about it. That hasn’t stopped us. We’ve been imagining worlds beyond this one for as long as we’ve been here. We generally populate those worlds, or that world, with supernatural beings, with gods, who have an unaccountably intense interest in this world—an irrepressibly compulsive stake in our lives—and who seem to be a lot like we are, only bigger, and, sometimes better, sometimes worse.

It may be supernatural, and God may be Omni-everything, but everything in that world seems to hinge on how things go in this world. God can’t be happy and at peace if we aren’t minding our P’s and Q’s. God’s mirth depends upon our obedient and faithful service. We may be little squirmy nothings, but we have the power to make God boil, seethe, and punish us with lakes of lava, and fire and brimstone everlasting—or reward us with blessings and glories beyond imagining in a world without end amen.

So go the stories.

Is there a bit of compensation going on here, in these stories we’ve made up about the other world, to console ourselves about the life that is forced on us by this world? Quite possibly. What we do know is that we have always told ourselves stories about the world, or worlds, beyond this one, and in those stories, we always play the central role. The gods revolve around us. They can’t get us out of their minds. We are the sole focus of their lives.

Which leads one to wonder, what would the other world be like without us, without this world? We are always looking to the other world as an escape from this world, but if this world is the primary concern of the powers that hold sway in the other world, what’s in the other world for us except more of this world? And, what exactly is it about this world that rankles us so? That warrants escape? That lends itself to fantasies about UFO’s, and the internal structure of the spiritual realm? From what are we trying to save ourselves? From what do we need to be delivered? What is so bad about this life in this world that we have to distract ourselves with imaginative speculations about life in the other world? What does thinking about that world keep us from thinking about in this world?

What do we not like about our lives in this world? Suffering and pain and things not going our way? Except for that, is everything fine? Life on terms not our own sends us right up the wall. You would think that we would be better adjusted to that by now. Better adjusted to the idea that this is it. Why hasn’t time developed a peace and tranquility gene? What’s the evolutionary advantage to maladjustment, to discontent? Could it be that Neanderthal had a knack for settling for the way things are, and lacked the internal dissatisfaction, the resistance, the “No!” that pushed Cro-Magnon out of the caves and into the high rises? Is a too-easy acceptance of “the facts,” death to the species? Is the curse of disgruntlement the secret to our success? We’ll probably never get to the bottom of it.

Suffice it to say that the other world has a remarkable degree of entertainment value for those of us eking out an existence in this world. We have no idea if any of the stories we have concocted have any correlation with what, if anything, lies beyond. But, if we are going to make up something, if we are going to believe something, it may as well be helpful. We may as well believe the other side is interested in helping us. We may as well believe that the idea, the organizing principle behind all of it, is something like integrity, or alignment-of-being, and that the interest of the other world, the investment of the other world, is in the expression of beauty, goodness, and truth in this world—that this world exists to give tangible existence to the intangible spiritual values of the other world, and that our cooperation is essential in that enterprise.

I don’t know if it’s true, of course, but it does no harm to think so, and it is a comfort to me to believe it—much more so than thinking that the other world is about revenge and vindictiveness. There is enough of that just down the road.

2. Help With Our Life

Where is chaos erupting in your life? Where has change become unmanageable? Where are the barriers protecting you against the forces of turbulence and upheaval beginning to crumble ? Not to worry. It’s nothing we haven’t seen before. It all starts with chaos, you know.

Carl Jung said, “There is no coming to consciousness without pain.” We do not grow up in a life that is exactly like we want it to be. The path through “the heaving waves of the wine-dark sea” is laid out nicely for us in all of the myths and legends of the ages.

All of the old creation stories begin with a chaotic, unstructured, unformed, swirl. None of them start with nothing. “Creation out of nothing” was a uniquely Christian, and late, formulation. The Bible never says there was nothing. Nothingness was not a concept the ancient ones could entertain. “In the beginning, the earth was without form, and void, and darkness covered the face of the deep.” That’s the way the Bible describes it. There is always something. And, it’s a mess.

The creative act is not bringing something out of nothing. The creative act is bringing order to chaos. The creative act is structuring the mess. It is what every newborn has to do upon entering the world. We meet chaos, and have to make sense of it, have to order it. We are greeted by a terrifying swirl of colors and sounds. It’s up to us to do something with it. We have to find the patterns, impose structure, separate foreground from background, create order, and discover ways of making our experience meaningful. That remains the task of life throughout life.

We are always coming upon something that throws everything out of kilter. The harmonious pulsation of the womb is shattered by lights, action, cameras, nurses, blankets and someone saying, “I’m your mommy.” Home is gone forever, and we have to make our peace with that—and find our way in a new world that we hate, and want nothing to do with. About the time we get comfortable there, it happens all over again. “This” is snatched away, and “that” is handed to us. Chaos is always “right there,” ready to break into our lives and destroy everything, laughing.

To make it bearable, we structure our lives in ways to keep chaos at bay. We develop systems, rituals, and routines so we don’t have to wake up every morning and start the day with what we are going to do to maintain life that day. Of course, this only gives chaos something else to play with, and “like that,” a hurricane, earthquake, or tsunami comes along to destroy our routines and regimen—and, we are lost, undone, traumatized and disoriented, and have to reorder our lives, again.

“The whole catastrophe,” to quote Zorba the Greek, amounts to intrusions into our ordered universe. Tornadoes, death, marriage, divorce, disease, job loss, the baby going to kindergarten, or graduating from college, or marrying and moving away from home, or divorcing and moving back home, are all places where it seems as though “the rug has been yanked from under our lives.” Some of us never recover.

Recovery is a matter of coming to terms emotionally with our loss, and finding the wherewithal to impose new patterns on our lives. In order to regain our stability, we have to regroup, revive our sense of purpose, reorient our lives, and reorder our world. The creative act of structuring chaos is ongoing and unending. We live, you might say, to create small islands of stability and sanity within a great sea of rolling madness—and the work is never done.

When the dike that is holding back the chaotic forces begins to leak, and the turbulence becomes unbearable, and the forces of upheaval and destruction sweep over the landscape, where do you go to breathe, regain your composure and your perspective, and map out a plan, in order to step back into the action? What are your resources for dealing with the turmoil? What do you rely on when you have nowhere to turn?

In order to tackle chaos, it helps to have a community of the right kind of people—people who understand—or, at least, understand that they don’t understand—and care about each other. Creation is a team sport. Artists talk with fellow artists. Poets have coffee with other poets. Inventors call up inventors. Scientists hang out with scientists. Composers have lunch with composers. We cannot manage our lives alone. People who are working to be awake, aware and alive have to spend time in conversation with people who are working to be awake, aware and alive—about the things that are essential to their work.

We need a community of like-minded people who recognize and embrace the importance of listening one another to the truth of who each is. We need a community that makes understanding each other the core of their life together—in the belief that being understood is all we need to understand ourselves, know who we are, and live in ways that align us with ourselves and put us in accord with our life, in service to our life.

We need a community for dialogue, for conversation, that comes out of an affiliation for, and time spent regularly and routinely with the right kind of emptiness, stillness and silence. The noisiest place in the world is where we are sitting quietly, and all the noise is in our heads! The right kind of emptiness, stillness and silence empties all the noise out, and is empty even of the desire to be empty.

When we clear out the noise and reduce the complexity, we open ourselves to the presence of the resources of the unconscious world, which is the source of all of out dreams and visions, and is that “very present help in time of trouble” upon which we all depend, whether we know it or not.

3. Blurring the Line Between Ourselves and God

Jesus had a unique perspective of God which stood apart from the quid pro quo, tit for tat, “you scratch my back and I’ll scratch yours,” way of thinking about God that was the prevailing view among the people and the religious authorities of his day—and is quite the rage in our own day. Before the Babylonian Captivity (when the army of Israel was defeated and all of the people who mattered were led along their “trail of tears” to Babylon, where they lived for about 70 years), the popular view was that of God as Champion and Deliverer who rescued Israel from oppression in Egypt, and established them in an everlasting covenant as the Chosen People of God in the never to be repossessed Land of Promise.

Babylon put an end to that happy fantasy, and the people and priests had to re-think some very fundamental matters. After their release from captivity, and in the process of rebuilding the destroyed temple in Jerusalem, an old text containing the Law of Moses was discovered (Or planted, and “discovered”), and an “Aha! Moment” occurred. “Of course!” they said, “That’s it! Now we see!”

What they saw was that they hadn’t properly kept the Law all those years, and Babylon was the result of their failure to walk the straight and narrow! Their idea of God then evolved to allow God’s Covenant with Israel to be contingent upon their faithful obedience to the divine commandments and ordinances! In order to get something from God, they had to give something to God. If they wanted God to protect and defend them, they had to be really, really good. From Babylon on, God becomes Watcher and Judge, and the people have to live carefully pleasing lives, in every respect, or else.

Jesus stepped into this framework and trashed it. He healed on the Sabbath, associated with the disenfranchised, the outcast, and the unclean. He presumed to speak for God, but said the most outlandish things, and greatly offended the religious sensibilities of practically everyone who mattered. His behavior was seen as a threat to the people. If they didn’t deal quickly with him, God would surely be incensed. How they responded to Jesus’ blasphemy and irreverence was a test of their own faith. If they didn’t shut Jesus up the whole nation would be obliterated: “It’s better for one man to die than for the whole nation to be destroyed!” said the High Priest, as they consulted one another about the “Jesus Problem.”

Jesus’ crucifixion was nothing personal. The Jewish authorities were simply acting out their idea of God—in accordance with their deeply held beliefs about God, and what it took to please God. They were certain that if they didn’t keep God Very Happy with them, a repeat of Babylon, or worse, would follow. Even in Christian circles, in the Book of Revelation, Rome was considered to be the modern—for those times—equivalent of Babylon. The Jews knew they had to be ever so careful.

Jesus, of course, didn’t see it that way, and that is the reason for his death. Jesus saw God, not as a vengeful, revengeful, Killer God, but as compassionate as the prodigal’s father, or a kind Samaritan. God, from Jesus’ viewpoint, was gracious, generous, and very present for good in the lives of the people, all people, no matter what. Jesus saw himself as an extension of the qualities of God in his own relationships, and lived with the people as God would live in his place. Jesus reflected his idea of God—his understanding of God—to the people, and said, boldly enough, “The Father and I are one,” and “If you have seen me, you have seen the Father.”

That’s what we all should be saying, “The Father and I are one.” We all should be living so that the line between God and us is blurred—so that no one can be sure where we stop and God starts. It isn’t a morally pure kind of life that blurs the line, but a compassionate life, a kind life, a gracious life, a generously loving life that sees into the heart of things, and offers exactly what is needed to each moment as it unfolds. This is the Categorical Imperative: If we have what is needed in the situation as it arises, we must offer it, no matter what, or, to put it a bit differently: Those who can help must help, and whose who need help must be helped!

Our lives have a way of asking for exactly what we have to give. What is needed is always the gift—the genius, the art—that is latent within us waiting for an opportunity to come forth and grace the world. It is our place to offer ourselves to the moment, to the time of our living, to each other, to the situation as it arises—when and where our gift, and the need of that here and now, meet.

It’s easier to hide out in the Law and the Prophets than to put ourselves on the line in each moment, bringing forth what is ours to give for the good of the moment. We can do that only out of an orientation of heart and soul that cares about other people, and the world in which we live, as God would in our place, so that it could be said of each of us: “The Father and I are one.”

4. The Quest for God

The quest for God requires specific things of us. We don’t just roll over, and there’s God. Well, actually, we do just roll over, and there’s God, but in order to recognize God when we roll over, we have to be at the place of readiness to recognize God. Readiness comes about mostly through our handing over (or having stripped away) our ideas about how life should be, and who God is. This reflects another of the 10,000 Spiritual Laws: “The only thing standing between us and God is us.”

Our ideas about how life should be, and who God is, keep us from perceiving God. We cannot know the God Who Is as long as we are attached to Who We Think God Ought To Be. One of the functions of the cross in the lives of the disciples (And in our own lives, if we could step away from everything we’ve ever heard about the cross, and confront in it the vulnerability and helplessness of God) was to separate them from their idea of God and of the Messiah. This is the “scandal of the cross.” The Coming One is not supposed to die at the hands of his enemies! What kind of sense does that make? None whatsoever. And, that’s exactly the point.

The God Who Is makes no sense. It’s utter nonsense to think God is the way God is. God, by our definition, is bigger, better, finer than anything we can imagine, but somehow always manages to be exactly what we imagine. God is Almighty, Omnipotent, Omniscient, Thoroughly In Charge, and Completely In Control. We will not have it any other way! We must have a universe in which everything that happens, happens for a reason—happens because God makes it happen, or, because God allows it to happen as a part of the Plan. Our God has a Plan, and a fine Plan it will prove to be! We are convinced of it. We believe more in the Plan than in the Planner.

This is the idea of God, or one of them, that we have to hand over (or have stripped away), if we are going to perceive God, apprehend God, know God. Our idea of God disintegrates in one of two ways. Life can take it from us by exposing its inadequacy, or we can recognize its shortcomings by thinking about it until it becomes absurd. I recommend thinking about it.

Thinking about our idea of God immediately places some distance between God and our idea of God. Once we recognize that everything we hear about God, including what I’m suggesting here and now, is just someone’s idea of God, and not God, we put a bit of space between what is said about God, and God. Or, to come at this another way, we might say that everyone knows what they are supposed to think about God, and everyone knows what they do, in fact, think about God, but, not everyone knows what to do with the discrepancy. It is when we think about the discrepancy that new ideas of God come into being. Among those new ideas is the idea that the ideas are only ideas—they have nothing to do with the God beyond all ideas of God.

At the point of knowing that God is beyond knowing, we enter a level of openness to the paradoxical nature of truth, which includes what is true to our experience, and what is also true to our experience (which might contradict what is true to our experience), and what is beyond our experience. This reflects another of the 10,000 Spiritual Laws: “Truth is found between the hands,” that is, “On the one hand, this, and, on the other hand, that and on some other hand that over there!”

This openness to the paradoxical nature of truth lends itself to a state of mindfulness, and playfulness, that is more intuitive than rational—that knows without knowing how it knows—without being able to articulate what it knows. Sheldon Kopp said, “Some things can be experienced, but not understood; and some things can be understood, but not explained.”

God is everywhere. There is no distinction between sacred and secular, between holy and profane, between God and Not-God. God is all, and in all, and through all, and beyond all. God simply IS. Everything is a doorway into God, an avenue to God, a path to God. Or, can be if approached in the proper frame of mind. That which is Not-God can lead to God. So, there is a sense in which Not-God is God.

But. Even though God is everywhere, it takes a unique perspective to see God anywhere—a peculiar openness, a radically present presence. We have to be God to see God, or on our way to being God. We cannot sit back, looking for God at a distance, through binoculars and telescopes, concepts, doctrines and discussions. We know God by living Godly lives. And, we are back to the fundamental spiritual law, “In order to know God, we have to live in certain ways.”

We cannot know God if we do not live compassionately. Association with God, awareness of God, leads to, is exhibited in, is expressed by, and flows from, a life which radiates the high (or deep) values, such as love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, generosity, gentleness, mercy, justice, hospitality, grace, etc. Association with God does not lead to careless, reckless, dispassionate living. God is everywhere, yet, the only life that leads to God is lived toward goodness, love, kindness and peace—toward the best we can imagine. We cannot expect to find our way to God by living just any life at all—The wedding guest is cast out of the banquet because he wasn’t dressed appropriately, and the “Evil doers” are turned away because “In as much as you did, or did not do, it to one of the least of my brothers and sisters, you did it, or did not do it, unto me.”

The way we live is of God, or not. The quest for God that finds God is the life of God. We have to be what we seek. The life of godliness, of goodness, of compassion and peace cultivates godliness, goodness, compassion and peace. It enhances life, deepens our connection with God, and honors the reality of God within us and all people. Joseph Campbell said, “The influence of a vital person vitalizes.”

We honor the reality of God when we exhibit the high/deep values, treating one another, and all people, with honor and respect—loving one another, and all people, for who we/they are—and creating a community of presence, the membership of which is not based upon agreement, or conformity, or mutual allegiance to a common creed, or system of beliefs, but upon mutual esteem and reverence for the person of the other, for the perspective of the other, for the aspects of God that are hidden in, and revealed by, the other.

We create the God we seek in the way we live while seeking. And Zen is like a man sitting on his ox, looking for his ox—like a woman holding her car keys, looking for her car keys. And heaven is where we laugh at all of the things we thought were important that kept us from seeing and doing what was important.

5. God is the Stream of Life

The most recent old idea of God has carried us as far as it can. We are at the point—and have been for some time—of re-imagining God, of understanding “God” in a way that squares with all that we know about the physical universe, and what we can intuit of the spiritual/invisible/unconscious (Because we are not conscious of it) universe. We can take up the process of re-imagining God from within the Bible itself, and carry it forward in ways that are compatible with what else we can know, and intuit.

In the Bible, we find a wonderful old hint about the nature of God in a text that is lost in the mass of texts with a different, more Godly view of God in mind. In that ancient passage, the Israelites are making good progress in their conquest of the Promised Land, when they come upon a group of Philistines who have chariots and horsemen. The text (in Judges 1:19) reads, “The Lord was with Judah, and he took possession of the hill country, but (he) could not drive out the inhabitants of the plain, because they had chariots of iron.”

As the story plays out, God comes up with something, and sends the rain which creates the mud, which mires the wheels of the chariots, removing them from the equation and making victory possible. But, the opening has been created. God can be, at least, temporarily, stumped. Even God has to find a way. God cannot merely will iron chariots out of existence. But. What kind of God is that?

We are always having to come up with a God we can believe in.

The destruction of Jerusalem in 586 BCE by the Babylonians, and the deportation of a large portion of the Jewish population to Babylon, resulted in a theological crisis typical of all encounters with a devastating reality: What can we believe now that our beliefs have been invalidated, and our God has let us down? The religious leaders of the Jews in Babylon put together an idea of God that took the defeat of the nation into account, and saved the religion by giving it a foundation that could withstand any shock.

They said, in essence, that the God of Abraham, Isaac, Jacob and Moses was not defeated by the army of Babylon, but used Babylon to punish the people of God who had been shamefully faithless and disobedient. If the nation repented, good things would come its way again. But, if it persisted in its pattern of behavior, it would be lost forever.

The idea of God as “a very present help in time of trouble” that was operative prior to the fall of Jerusalem, had to be re-imagined by those whose task was to give the people a God they could believe in—and they gave them the God we are at the point of re-imagining today.

The God who came out of the Babylonian Captivity, was very different from the God who went into Captivity. The spin doctors took the experience of God’s failure to be the God the people believed God to be, and said, “God is Almighty, Omnipotent and Stupendously Awesome Beyond Measure, but. Only in the service of those who are utterly obedient in every way.

This is the same theory of God that resurfaces following the crucifixion of Jesus to declare that Jesus lives, and that God blesses those who believe it with life that will never die. God, it was said, used the Romans and the Jewish authorities as pawns in the Almighty’s Plan of Salvation, so that Jesus could die as a sacrifice acceptable to God, and all the world could be saved if it repents and believes. If it doesn’t, then, just like the theorists in Babylon suggested, there is going to be hell to pay—and the Book of Revelation emphasizes just how terrible hell will be.

Missing both in Babylon, and in the aftermath of Jesus’ death, is the idea that God is as vulnerable and helpless as a stream on parched ground. The text in Judges hints at this possibility, and the birth and death of Jesus shout it from the housetops.

The Messiah, the Coming One, the Christ, the Anointed One, is born in a stable, wrapped in swaddling cloths, and laid in a manger. God, we are told, comes to us as a baby in a manger and dies as a man on a cross. The Babylonian theorists would have been appalled at this turn of events, but, in Jesus, we get an image of God that is quite compatible with that of the God who is confounded by iron chariots.

In Jesus, God is impotent, powerless, “up against it,” and dependent upon us for sustenance and support. God is not powerfully apart from us, but one-with-us, one-of-us, in the work toward the good. God is a partner with us in doing what needs to be done—and needs our total participation and collaboration in effecting God’s will upon the earth. It is a full partnership, a joint effort, a coalition of mutual support from start to finish.

God is the Stream of Life flowing through us, around us, within us, calling us to wake up, and live in accord with the Stream of Life.

God is the Stream of Life flowing downhill, dealing with beaver dams, landslides, fallen trees and droughts—finding a way to deal with everything that comes its way—flowing on, drying up, and flowing on again, without ever losing its “stream-ness,” giving up or forgetting its purpose.

God is the Stream of Life, as helpless and vulnerable, yet as unrelenting and eternal, as water flowing downhill in its search for a way to the sea.

The Stream finds a way. The Stream is one with us, one of us, in the mutually dependent dance of life with life. The Stream needs our willing participation, cooperation and collaboration to deal with iron chariots, crosses, and the harsh facts of life in the world of physical reality.

The Stream flows through us and with us to help us imagine the way forward—to encourage us and sustain us in the work of preparing its way in the wilderness, in the work of serving and establishing the high values of Life upon the earth, and is the expression and exhibition of the art of life, living and being alive.

6. Good Faith Is the Best Kind of Faith

You have heard this already, and, you are likely to hear it again: Truth is found between the hands. On the one hand, it’s like this. On the other hand, it’s like that. Socrates said at his trial, “The unexamined life is not worth living.” That is certainly true as far as it goes. Sheldon Kopp said, “The unlived life is not worth examining.” The circle is complete. There is the way things are. And there is the way things also are. And that’s the way things are. This is symbolized neatly in the yin/yang of Taoism. Yin is the way things are. Yang is the way things also are. And the circle containing them is the way things are. Reality, you might say, is one in its duality, in its polarity.

William Blake put it beautifully: “Without Contraries, is no progression” (The Marriage of Heaven and Hell). This means our work is “working it out.” We are always and forever “working it out.” We integrate the opposites, reconcile the contradictions, live between the polarities, and maintain the tension between disparate truths. We go too far in one direction, and have to be reeled in, called back, by the forces contained in the opposite direction. This is “finding the center” or “walking the straight and narrow.” We live on the boundary—on “the razor’s edge”—between yin and yang. We have to be “rounded out” by the opposition in order to “square ourselves with” that which is true, and that which is also true. We find our way forward in a conversation with the contraries within and without. The opposites do not cancel each other out, but open each other—and ourselves—up to worlds, to possibilities, we could not imagine, or enter on the strength of one point of view alone.

This opening is enabled by the right kind of conversation with the opposites, between the opposites, among the opposites. The right kind of conversation enlarges, deepens, transforms, integrates, reconciles, unites, makes whole. The right kind of conversation is the way to the Way, individually and collectively. The kind of community that is required for living properly aligned with Inner and Outer Reality, centered, in sync, and on the Path, is a community of opposites, of polarities, where all persons take each other seriously, treat each other with the deepest respect, honor each other’s perspective, and allow conversation with one another to expand, deepen, and enlarge one’s own sense of how things are, and what needs to be done in response.

In this kind of community there is not one way of seeing, thinking, believing and doing. There is no sense of “our way” being the Right Way and “their way” being the Wrong Way. The right kind of community is not “one big happy family” in firm agreement about what to think, feel, believe and do. It is a community that values contrary views, and finds the way to the Way by taking all pertinent perspectives into account, and allowing them to inform, and guide, the development of each participant in the community, and each participant is responsible for determining, and doing what she, what he, thinks needs to be done in each situation as it arises.

The heart of the kind of community that is necessary for the development of individuals who are living lives aligned with the Way, and who are bringing forth their gifts in ways that serve and save the world is, what Rumi calls, “good faith.” He says, “If you are not here with us in good faith, you are doing terrible damage.” Good faith is the key to our life together.

“Good faith” describes our commitment, our covenant, to each other to do right by one another, to be with one another in ways that are good for the other, to offer the right kind of help in the right kind of way, and to help others help us by not being too needy or too dependent ourselves. It also recognizes the old truism that “good fences make good neighbors,” and carefully observes the Old Testament commandment (One that did not make—but should have made—the Top Ten): “Thou shalt not remove thy neighbor’s landmark!”

We do not do violence to our neighbors’ boundaries by offering them the wrong kind of help in the wrong kind of way, and we trust our neighbors to do right by us, as much as they trust us to do right by them. And we live to not let each other down.

7. The Doctrine of The Two Ways

The Doctrine of the Two Ways—the Right Way and the Wrong Way—has been the central religious view in the Near East and the West for thousands of years, and is the predominant religious outlook today. We are seeped in the Doctrine of the Two Ways. We believe deeply that the way we believe (and think, and do) is the Right Way to believe (and think, and do) and that all other ways of believing (and thinking, and doing) are the Wrong Way to believe (and think, and do).

It gets worse. We believe that if we believe the Right Beliefs, we will go to heaven when we die, and that if we believe the Wrong Beliefs, we will burn in the everlasting fires of Hell. The idea of heaven as a reward for Right Belief, and hell as a punishment for Wrong Belief is the fundamental religious curse that people carry with them throughout their life—and with which they infect all who come their way.

Because we cannot risk being wrong, and going to hell, we cannot question what we have received as Right Belief, and have to believe what has been believed unquestioned through the ages. In so doing, we create a hell on earth populated by the walking dead—empty-eyed and soulless—talking about the joys of Eternal Life as compensation for the life they are not living, and never have lived, thanks to the Doctrine of the Two Ways.

Darkness and Light, Good and Evil, Right and Wrong, Truth and Error, the Way of Life and the Way of Death, etc. are set out before us, and the wise among us choose well, and the foolish, or evil, among us choose poorly. Believers are urged to pray, therefore, that they will choose well in order to be ushered into the Kingdom of Goodness and Light with the accolade: “Well done, good and faithful servants!”

There is, of course, a different way of looking at things—if you dare!

Good, at some point, goes over into evil. Evil, at some point, goes over into good. Not only that, but from some point of view, good is evil and evil is good. Floods, for example, that destroy homes, lives and livelihoods, also fertilize the land to produce the crops that feed the people. Are floods good or evil? Both! What’s good for the fox is evil for the hen, which raises the question: Whose good is the good we call good? And, “How good id the good we call good?” As the old saying goes, “There is so much good in the worst of us, and so much bad in the best of us, it doesn’t behoove any of us to talk about the rest of us.” Absolute Good, and Absolute Evil, are theoretical concepts without precedent in the lived experience of human beings. Given the truth of the relative nature of the options set before us in the Two Ways, we can’t long avoid the realization that it is not as simple as we have been led to believe. It is nothing at all like we have been led to believe.

Think not of living a morally pure and upright life, and deserving heaven when we die. Think instead of living aligned with the Way of Life, and living the life that is our destiny–our life to live—of being properly engaged with inner and outer reality, and offering what is needed out of what is ours to give to each situation as it unfolds. It is not a matter of matching our behavior up to some ancient standard, or code, but of responding appropriately to the moment, in each moment of our life, doing what is needed there, never mind what our parents, or preachers, declare ought to be done.

If we are wrong about what needs to be done? Shake it off! Get up! Get ready! Get back in the game! The next moment is on the way!

The beauty of The Doctrine of More Than Two Ways is that getting it wrong is just a step on the way to getting it right. The meandering of the river is no threat to the sea. The roots of tomorrow’s Right are firmly grounded in yesterday’s Wrong.

Learn from your mistakes. Learn from your successes. Learn from everything. Living is the lesson and life is the teacher. We have a lifetime in which to learn what being alive is all about. Wake up! Pay attention! Be alert! Take a chance, and another one after that! There is life to be lived! We are not dead yet, and we must not live as though we are! Do not die before you are dead! Live with all that is within you for as long as life is possible no mater what! That’s the way that is the Way of Life for us all! Step into your life with your eyes open, and see where it goes! Moment-by-moment-by-moment! What’s hard about that?

8. Destiny

Destiny is not the same as fate. Our fate consists of the givens present in our life situation—the time and place of our living, our genetic make-up, who our parents were, what is available for us to work with, how things are with us across the board, around the table. Our fate is also what becomes of us, what happens to us—what we are left with—if we reject, deny, or ignore our destiny. We either embrace, and serve, our destiny, or we succumb to our fate. There is no third option.

Our destiny is what/who we are called to become within the time and place, the context and circumstances, of our living. Destiny is what we do with our fate, what we construct with the materials that are available for us to work with, who we show ourselves to be through the process of living our life. We are called to a particular destiny in exhibiting the gifts that are—the genius that is—uniquely ours within the circumstances of life, which are generally the same for a large number of our contemporaries, though our destinies are quite different.

You can think of destiny as “God’s will for our lives,” or “the way of Tao.” What is called “the will of God,” or “the way of Tao,” is the same way. It is the same as the destiny that is ours to live out within the fate that is ours to deal with.

When we live aligned with our destiny, and live to bring ourselves forth, we also bring what has always been thought of as God, or the Tao, forth in our life and into the world of normal, concrete, apparent reality.

Here’s the problem: We are conflicted at the core. Our heart’s true desire is to be one with its destiny and we have eyes for a life of our own, with lights, glamor and action. The work of maturity is connecting with, and living aligned with, our heart—and dying to our idea of what is important. We embrace our heart’s idea, our soul’s idea, of what is important, and let our idea go. This is the conscious ego becoming conscious of its role, and playing it out, exactly as it needs to be played out: “Thy will, not mine, be done!” “Those who would be my disciple must pick up their cross daily and follow me.” The conscious ego submits to a will and a Way greater than its own. Our cross is the difference between our soul’s idea of what is important and our conscious ego’s idea of what is important. Our cross the price we pay for doing what is ours to do within the context and circumstances of our life.

The heart knows its true joy/love–its destiny–and it is our place to align ourselves with the drift of heart/soul toward its sense of where it belongs, and what it needs to be about. This is going with the flow in the deepest, truest sense of the term—and going against the gain of our own idea of how things need to be.

In living this way, Jesus is the “first born of all creation,” calling everyone with his “come follow me!” and his “No one comes to the Father but by me—no one comes to the Father but by dying like me!” We have missed the point of these sayings, thinking that Jesus was talking about himself. Jesus was talking about his perspective, his orientation, his attitude, his point of view, his focus on living out his destiny within the context and circumstances of his life, his refusal to let anything deter him, untrack him, in the work to bring forth his genius, his gift, in doing what was called for by the situation as it arose before him. This is bearing our cross. This is what he calls us to do in our own life.

This is the work that always been called salvific. Salvation is restoration, being restored to, being aligned with, that which is our destiny, our true life. It is the work recognition, realization, awareness, understanding, enlightenment. It is the work of maturity—and of grace. Maturity because no one can do this work who is not growing up, and grace because no one can claim any credit for the growing up that we do.

Our life’s work is awakening to our heart’s true joy—its love for, and affiliation with, its destiny—and letting that become our life. We are here to live the life that is ours to live in serving our destiny within the context and circumstances of our life (Our fate). As we do that, we become who Jesus was, who God is, and live at one with ourselves, and with the Source of Life and Being.

9. Directing Our Lives

As things currently stand in the culture, getting, having, owning, possessing, consuming, controlling, amassing, achieving, accomplishing, succeeding, winning, defeating, conquering, and the like direct our living. We live to get these things done. We do what we do with these things in mind. Our living is governed by things outside of us which we hope to get, have, own, possess, etc., and what we do is determined by what we want our doing to do for us. We live to have our way done on the earth. Ours is a getting, owning, acquiring, having, etc., culture. We live to get what we want, and have it made, and bask in the wonder of having done it. Everything serves that end.

Education is not about knowing, thinking, comprehending, feeling, intuiting, expressing or understanding, but about positioning ourselves to succeed, basically, by being gainfully employed. A good job has nothing to do with the goodness of the job, but everything to do with how much money we are paid for doing it. Ask any child or adolescent what they want to be when they grow up, and see how many of them say “kind,” or “compassionate,” or “generous,” or even “honest.” They might say “rich,” or “independently wealthy,” but they would most likely talk about the kind of job they hope to have. The want to be doctors, lawyers, teachers, nurses, firefighters, engineers, accountants, or astronauts. They already know that what counts is “out there,” and that what really counts is how much of it we can get before we die.

A spiritual orientation calls this cultural assumption into question, and places us on a different track, a different path, than the one the culture would have us walk. Spirituality is counter-cultural. It is a radical departure from the way we think we are supposed to be. We cannot be spiritual without raising questions about the way life is being lived around us.

Jacob Bronowski said, “If you want to know the truth, you have to live in certain ways.” He said that we don’t find truth the way we find the checkbook, or Yankee Stadium. We don’t get directions to truth, or receive instructions. We don’t knock on the door of the wisest person in the neighborhood, with a pad and pencil in hand, ask questions, and take notes. We do not think our way to truth, or believe our way there. We live our way there. Knowing the truth is a matter of direct, personal experience.

You eat an apple, and you know the truth of that particular apple. The truth of a Granny Smith apple is somewhat different from the truth of a York apple, or a Red Delicious apple. There is a wide variation of apple truth, which has to take into account ripe apples, green (in both senses of the word) apples, and rotten apples. All of which you have to experience firsthand in order to have anything like a working knowledge of the truth of apples. As it is with apples, so it is with love, money and life. We live our way into the truth of all these things. How we live determines the truth we perceive, the truth we understand, the truth we know. “If you want to know the truth, you have to live in certain ways.”

We have to live with our eyes open. We have to live with our mind open. We have to live open to the experience of our life. We have to live with a little of that Missouri “show me” spirit in hand. We have to ask questions, and ask questions generated by the answers to our questions, and wonder what the questions are we haven’t asked. We have to poke, prod, investigate, wonder, imagine and explore, and we cannot ever, under any circumstances, take anyone’s word for it without asking what makes them think that they know what they are talking about. We have to know what we know, think what we think, feel what we feel, see what we see, hear what we hear, and sense what we sense—without buying into what anyone may tell us about the right way to do any of these things. We have to know what we know to be so because we have lived it, experienced it, and not because someone else told us it was so.

Got it? Then, here’s one for you: What do you know to be true about God that no one told you? That you didn’t get from the Bible? How long is your list? Live to lengthen it!

We have to understand that what we do, and how we do it, are properly directed by our being, by who we are, by who we are endeavoring to be, and not by our having or getting, or by what we are endeavoring to have or get. The question “What do you want to be when you grow up?” has to be understood in light of the qualities and characteristics we want to exhibit—in light of the life that we want to have lived—not because we expect it to pay off in some way, but because these ends are simply good in themselves.

When we fail to act in ways that are commensurate with this vision, we have to realize it, and take a deep breath, and place ourselves back into the practice of being the kind of person we want to be. Michael Jordan at his best would let himself down on the basketball court, and he would have to go back to practicing, working, striving to be the kind of basketball player he had it in him to be.

What do we want to be when we grow up? We have the rest of our lives to answer that question. We begin living toward the answer by having a vision of the kind of person we would like to become before we die—practicing every day to incarnate the vision, and become the person.

10. The What and the How

Distractions abound. I am continually amazed at, and dumbfounded by, how little it takes to switch me from the main track into the trackless wasteland. We have to be mindful of the distractions swirling around us, avoid those that can be avoided, wake up quickly to those that blindside us, and bring ourselves back to the task at hand: Being who we are, doing what we are about—what is ours to do—in the time and place of our living.

We work with the day everyday. In each day, we have to remember what is important, what we are doing, as we step into the day, and allow the day to bring us forth in meeting the day while remaining true to ourselves. The day brings us into focus. The day clarifies for us the things we need to be clear about: What are the gifts and characteristics—the qualities of heart and soul—that we are working to bring to life in our lives? The day enables us to see how we are doing, and where improvements and alterations need to be made.

The day provides a steady stream of encounters and information that we can use in making mid-course adjustments on the path to wholeness. The day shows us where we are in relation to where we have been, and where we need to be. It may start with oversleeping, or with the dog throwing up on the carpet. We come into focus in the smallest details of living.

The spiritual life is lived between the What and the How. We feel our way to What, we think our way to How. The What is about what is happening and what needs to be done about it. If we miss the bus, we may have to find a taxi. The “Now what?” brings the present moment into sharp focus, demanding that we assess the situation, and come up with a plan of action for dealing successfully with it—using, relying on, the gifts, preferences, interests, enthusiasms, aptitudes, talents, etc., that come with us into the world.

The stream feels the sea and has to think its way around the obstacles in its path, but it knows where it is going, and trusts itself to think what to do to get the job done.

We are born as a bundle of latent abilities. As we grow up, the hope is that we will gravitate toward what we do best, and that our lives will be proving grounds—where we experiment with who we are, and develop an increasingly clear notion of what is “us” and what is “not us.” We aren’t born knowing what that is, but there is a homing device, of sorts, within us, and we know “when we are on the beam, and when we are off of it,” when we are on track with our lives, and when we are off track, where we belong, and where we have no business being. We feel our way to all of these things.

Writing has always been “it” for me, and I have fought my way through a lot of internal resistance, and a pronounced lack of external encouragement, to write no matter what. I can say now, after all these years, that writing is one of my “things.” I couldn’t have said that at twenty, or thirty, or forty. I certainly couldn’t have said that at fifteen, or eighteen. I did not grow up in one of those loving, attentive spaces without answers. There was not much in the way of listening beneath the surface in my experience, of inviting to the table what else is there. If you were a boy in the deep south, you did the things boys in the deep south were supposed to do. And, you pretended to like it, because there would be something wrong with you, if you didn’t do it and like it.

So, it’s been a long and curious route that has brought me to the place of writing no matter what. The process could have been assisted, and shortened, with the proper mentors, coaches, advocates, listeners, encouragers, and friends, but the process was going to unfurl somehow, some way, over time no matter what.

Carl Jung said, “We are who we always have been, and who we will be.” Who we are born to be is always a part of who we are, and will be, and is waiting to be seen, recognized, received and loved into being. It takes a lot to block the process of our growing into the person we are to be in the world. That process is life itself. It’s the dandelion growing through the asphalt. Our lives are about being who we are no matter what. If we live long enough, we will get there. It only takes living to figure it out. We all learn to listen over time.

The What also requires us to know what behavior is being asked for in each situation that arises. “Here we are, now what?” What is called for here and now? Anger? Grace? Kindness? Willful insistence? We feel our way to the answers.

What kind of spirit, attitude, demeanor are we being asked to exhibit in doing what we do? The manner, the shape and form, the style and tone, etc., that we exhibit in doing what we do are all feeling questions–we feel our way to the answers.

We think our way to the airport, to the motel, and to home. Logistics and directions are good thinking questions. How do we treat a sprained ankle? How do we mix a proper ratio of rubbing alcohol to water in making an ice pack in a plastic freezer bag? These are thinking questions.

What now? is about the qualities and characteristics of heart and soul, and the sense of what needs to happen in the moment of our living. What here? deals with generosity and compassion; grace, mercy and peace; awareness, and mindfulness, and attention; love, joy, hospitality, kindness, gentleness, and a propensity for justice and doing what’s right, to mention a few, are essential requirements of the spiritual life–and timing is essential for all of them. We feel our way into “What here? What now?”

The work of doing what is called for in each situation as it arises requires us to go against the grain; to swim against the current; to do what’s hard; to be generous when it would be easier to be greedy and self-centered; to be compassionate when we want to tell them a thing or two. The spiritual journey is a walk toward who we are called to be. The Promised Land is a metaphor for what we are here to do, and the spirit with which we are to do it. We live toward that every day of our lives. The days are filled with opportunities to assess how well we are doing, and places to practice doing it as we work to get it down.

The Six Statements

There are six statements, which cannot be denied, yet cannot be affirmed without transforming Christianity as we know it. They are:

  1. Our Idea of God Is Not God.

This is as self-evidently obvious as any statement ever. I don’t know of anyone who would dispute it. It flows from the Bible. “My thoughts are not your thoughts,” says the Lord in Isaiah 55:8,9 “Nor are your ways my ways. For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so far are my ways higher than your ways, and my thoughts than your thoughts.” And, Paul joins in with: “O the depth of the riches and wisdom and knowledge of God! How unsearchable are his judgments and how inscrutable his ways! For who has known the mind of the Lord?” (Romans 11:33-34A).

Ah, but. What we don’t know, and cannot know, has never kept us from acting as though we know.

The church is always speaking as though it knows as much as God knows, as though it is the spokesperson for God, as though its ideas of God are God. Some church condemns homosexuality in the name of God. Some church proclaims the value of Creationism in the name of God. Some church declares this, and denounces that, and tells all comers that if they don’t do it the way that church tells them to do it they are going to hell, all in the name of God, in the place of God. It is as though the church is God. Certainly, it is as though the church’s idea of God is God.

Although the church’s actions belie its confessional stance, the church can, and does, proclaim in principle that God is beyond all concepts of God, that our idea of God is not God. However, the church will not entertain any new ideas about God. No fresh ideas about God have been allowed into the church since the Protestant Reformation. There have been a number of fresh ideas—Process Theology, Liberation Theology, and Feminist Theology, to mention three—but they haven’t found denominational sanction.

If you are going to think, and talk, about God in the church, you are going to have to stick with the concepts of the Westminster Confession of Faith, and the Apostles’ Creed—nothing more recent than that is permitted. Our idea of God may not be God, but it’s the only idea you’ll hear anything about in the church. If the church actually lived out of the realization that our idea of God is not God a number of things would change dramatically, instantly.

  1. The Church Was Before the Bible.

Abraham was before the Bible. Moses was before the Bible. The prophets were before the Bible. Jesus was before the Bible. The Apostles were before the Bible. The early Christian Church was before the Bible—and produced the Bible. The books that are not in the Bible are not in the Bible because the church decided that they should not be in the Bible. The books that are in the Bible are in the Bible because the church decided that they should be in the Bible. The Bible is what it is because the church decided that’s what it should be. The church created the Bible. The Bible did not create the church.

The Bible reflects the theology of the church—the thinking of the church—at the time the canon was closed (More on that in Statement 3). The Bible says what the church of that day thought the Bible should say. The church calls the Bible “the Word of God,” but the Bible is the word the church says God says. The church filtered the words of the Bible, and only the agreeable ones passed through. When you read the Bible, you read what the church of the fourth century wanted you to read. What the church did not, and does not, want you to read is called heretical, but that is the church’s idea, just like the Bible is the church’s idea.

The Bible is the product of the church. Without the church, there would be no Bible. We think of it in reverse. The Bible gets the credit for the church. The fact is that the church had decided how it thought things should be before it came up with the Bible. It helps to keep these things in their proper order. First the church, then the Bible.

Understanding the Bible as the creation of the church takes it out of the arena of Unquestionable Holiness and makes it accessible to our questions, our imagination and our creativity—which is exactly where it came from! And now, we can acknowledge that, examine its path through history, and come up with an entirely different assessment of the process from the one we have been handed and told to embrace.

The church writes the Bible, and what it says reflects the church’s ideas of what God would say if God were speaking. We can follow the evolution of the idea of God over the course of the 66 books that compose the Protestant Bible. Different Gods peer out at us from different parts of the Bible. We can’t square the Parable of the Prodigal, for instance, with the idea of a bloodthirsty God who requires our belief in the atoning death of Jesus before we can be received into the eternal habitations. Which way is it? The problem disappears once we understand the Bible as representative of different perspectives within the church that produced the Bible.

Understanding the Bible as the product of the church also provides us with the freedom—and offers us the invitation—to place our present-day understanding of God alongside the understandings of God that are presented in the Bible. The idea of God continues to evolve! All that can be known about God is not known! We are capable of perceiving God in ways that Paul, for instance, could not have imagined. We have a holy obligation to envision God as clearly as we are capable of envisioning God, and to live toward that vision, as we pass along the tradition of probing the Mystery of God to coming generations.

Understanding that the church was before the Bible shifts the foundation of authority from God to us. We are the authority who determines what we will believe and do! From this standpoint, when the church says, “The Bible says,” we can understand that to mean, “The church says that the Bible says.” Of course, the church will say that God was using the church to select what was to be in the Bible, just as Paul can say that God gives us the government, so we shouldn’t complain about the way we are ruled. Neither argument bears scrutiny. Crooked politicians aren’t given to us by God, and the church served its own interests in composing the Bible.

Now, when we hear, “The Bible says,” we can ask in all seriousness, “But what should the Bible say? What would the Bible say if it were being written today?” Because people much like us put the Bible together, we are fully capable of reevaluating the Bible in light of all that is known now that wasn’t known then, and choose, much like the fishermen in the parable of the net of fishes, what is to be kept and carried forward, and what is to be tossed aside and left behind. Of course, to talk like this is to dive deep into the waters of heresy, and that being the case, let’s go for a swim in the next Statement:

  1. Every Step Forward Is a Step into Heresy.

Every doctrine that we embrace with such fervor, espouse with such rhetoric, and believe with such conviction was, at one point in the history of religion, rank heresy. Jesus was called a blasphemer and a heretic by the religious authorities of his day. The Apostles, and followers of Jesus, were persecuted by the Jews in Jerusalem for continuing, and deepening, the heresy of Jesus. Rome considered early Christianity to be heretical and dangerous. The Roman Catholic Church saw the Protestant Reformation as blasphemous and heretical (and Protestantism returned the favor). Heresy is our heritage—and our hope.

We cannot think a new thought about God without thinking a heretical thought about God. We cannot deepen our understanding of God, expand our vision of God, or grow in our knowledge of God without changing how we see God—without seeing God differently. Seeing God differently is heresy. Spiritual formation and faith development are possible only for those who can be heretical, who can stand apart from the way God has always been seen, and see something different—perhaps something that calls into question everything that has been seen, as in a God who would have us love our enemies, and heal on the Sabbath, and honor the least of those who live at the margins of society.

Heresy is essential to the process of aligning our life with the Stream of Life and Being, and it was outlawed by those who committed the greatest heresy in the book of heresies when they closed the canon. The canonization of the scriptures froze the idea of God that prevailed at the time. It would be very helpful if the Bible had moved on, and included the reaction of the people to their idea of God, and the experience of their lives, at the time of the collapse of Rome, and the Crusades, and the discovery of the New World, and the World Wars, and the Holocaust, and landing on the Moon… The idea of God that was sacrosanct through all those events was the idea of God that was operative at the time of Jesus’ death. That is the idea we still have of God, two thousand years later.

But, there are a lot of us who don’t share that idea. Just as the people moved past, moved beyond, the idea of God liking the pleasing odor of the sacrifice of bulls and goats, or of God needing a Temple in order to be properly worshipped, so some of us have moved beyond first century ideas about the end of time, and angels and principalities, and God being in complete charge, and tight control, of everything that happens—just to highlight the tip of the ice berg.

Yet, where do the people who have an idea of God that is different from the popular idea go to be recognized as having the right to think the way they think of God? We cannot think differently of God without being relegated to the trash heap of religious oddity. The orthodox tradition does not permit thinking differently about God, but—to the chagrin of traditional, orthodox Christianity—the heresies will not die. The heresies persist, with modification—which is the hallmark of evolution—and that suggests to me that there is something to them. The fact that they are still with us suggests the church has been, and continues to be, remiss in dismissing heresy as without value, and a threat to true belief.

The idea of God will continue to evolve despite the church’s best effort to squelch it, kill it, stuff it, and hang it on a wall, or put it behind glass, for all to worship and adore. The heretical is not the creation of the heretics. The heretical did not burn at the stake. The heretical will not die. It represents the continuing evolution of the idea of God, and lives outside the camp, in the wilderness, ahead of the church, preparing the way of the Lord, as light in the darkness, leaven in the dough, salt in the soup—in the fine tradition of the Heretic of the Ages, Jesus of Nazareth.

  1. The Garden of Eden Did Not Have Latitude and Longitude.

The Garden of Eden was not an historic, literal, actual fact. There was no time of perfect obedience, of perfect innocence, of moral perfection. There was no before and after. There was no primordial Paradise from which we were expelled for disobeying God—and hence no Original Sin which requires the atoning death of God’s only Son Jesus Christ our Lord to patch things up with God, and get us back into God’s good graces if we confess, repent, and believe. There was no Fall. There was nothing to fall from. It’s been a mess from the start.

Even as a metaphor, the story of the Garden of Eden overstates its case. The implication in the story is that Adam and Eve are representative of men and women everywhere throughout history, and that everyone would do as Adam and Eve did, and sin by disobeying God, and eating the forbidden fruit from the Tree of the Knowledge of Good and Evil. I have two objections to this presentation. In the first place, I don’t think everyone would make that choice. Elijah wouldn’t have done it. Jesus wouldn’t have done it. The Buddha wouldn’t have done it. Gandhi wouldn’t have done it. The Dali Lama wouldn’t have done it. And my Aunt Lois most certainly would not have done it. I think a large number of us would not have done it.

In the second place, the metaphor declares that it is evil to know the difference between good and evil. That it is evil to be in position to make up our own mind; to decide for ourselves, what is good and what is evil, what is right and what is wrong. That it is better just to take God’s word for it. Better, how? Whose idea of The Good is mindless innocence, unthinkingly following instructions, and blithely taking somebody else’s word for what should be done and left undone? Eternal childhood, with no cares, no responsibilities beyond being obedient, no questions, no conflicts—who thinks that is Good? Always being cared for and taken care of, without having to choose our own course, make up our own mind, decide for ourselves, and suffer the consequences—who says that is Good? It sounds to me as though the story was crafted by someone who wanted to be taken care of, or by someone who wanted to be obeyed, as if to say, “If you people would only listen to me, and do what I tell you, things would be fine!”

Once we remove Original Sin from the picture, we remove the necessity of the atoning death of God’s only Son, and have to rethink who Jesus was, and what the meaning is for us of his death and resurrection appearances. Everything changes when our idea of Original Sin changes.

  1. We Are the Ones Who Say So.

We decide. We choose. We say. We believe what we believe because we believe what we believe is worth believing. How do we know? We take it on faith. Why do we take what we take on faith and not something else instead? We just do. We decide. We choose. We say.

We say, “The Bible is the Word of God, and the absolute authority in faith and practice.” Who says so? We do. We say so. We are the authorities who declare the Bible to be authoritative. How do we know? We take it on faith. Why do we take that on faith and not something else in stead? We just do. We decide. We choose. We say. We believe what we believe because we believe what we believe is worth believing.

That being the case, you would think that we would believe things that help, not hinder, us along the way. You would think that we would believe things that create community, deepen connections, foster compassion and justice, make for understanding and peace, and bring into being a better world. We certainly have that option. We would be wise to choose it.

And, that being the case, we are certainly free to choose it! Free to make up our own minds—or bound to! Free, or bound, to come to our own tentative conclusions about how to live our life, and free, or bound, to revise them in light of our lived experience, and come up with different tentative conclusions to carry us forward into the unfolding wonder of our life.

This approach would give us a different kind of church—one that would be able to equip us for the task of listening to ourselves, and divining the path from among all of the paths that open before us along the way from where we have been to wherever it is we are going. A community like that would be a good thing to have around!

  1. Ants Find the Picnic, Flowers Turn to the Light.

We think that without some external standard of moral rectitude we would be lost in a morass of decadence, depravity and abomination—that without being made to be good, we would be evil—never minding the fact that Christianity launched the Crusades, justified slavery, burned the heretics at the stake, drowned witches, and committed all manner of atrocity on its way through the world. We believe without hell it all goes to hell. We believe we cannot do what is good without being threatened, cajoled, and coerced into doing it.

Yet, we are perfectly capable of doing what ought to be done because it ought to be done. We only have to see the need to meet the need. Perceiving the evil, we produce the good. Perceiving the good, we serve the good. The awareness of how things truly are is the foundation of transformation. Seeing into the heart of things, we act out of our heart for the good of all.

Eyes to see, ears to hear, and hearts that understand are not the result of indoctrination, and do not flow from keeping the rules. Seeing, hearing, and understanding lead to lives that are well-lived in the fullest sense of the term. The task is not to obey without question, but to see, and hear, and understand—and live lives aligned with the deepest, truest, and best that we can perceive and imagine.

That’s it. We cannot embrace these six principles without transforming the church of our experience into the church as it ought to be. The ninety-five theses need be only six—which leaves us at the place of wondering, “What now?” When we throw six hundred years of orthodox, Protestant theology out the window—what shall we put in its place? Part of our work is discovering what shape our idea of God will take, and how our lives will develop around that idea.

The Evolution of the Idea of God

One of the 10,000 Spiritual Laws states, “Our idea of God is not God.” The Bible can be seen as the history of the evolution of the idea of God. If you read the Bible carefully noting inconsistencies, contradictions, incompatibilities, discrepancies and divergent views, you will come across a number of different ways of thinking about God—many of which are mutually exclusive, and can be squared with each other only after several rounds of single malt whiskey straight from the bottle.

Old Testament scholars have long talked about the JEDP threads in the first five books of the Bible (which is referred to as “the Documentary Hypothesis”) as a way of explaining the early differing views of God, but without squaring any of them. They are simply different ways the people of biblical times thought about God.

“J” is for the writers or compilers, who used the consonants “YHWH” (Hebrew has no vowels) for the name of God, and is called the “Yahwist” (“J” is derived from the German spelling—Jahwe—of the divine name). “E” is for the writers or compilers, who used the word “Elohim” for the name of God. “D” is for the “Deuteronomic” writers or compilers, who thought keeping the law, and living righteously, were the heart of what is pleasing to God. And, “P” is for the Priestly writers or compilers, who put stories together from a priestly perspective with the liturgy, proper worship, and right sacrifice constituting the core of what is pleasing to God.

In addition to these groups, the Prophets had their own (often divergent) views of what is pleasing to God, and called the people to look beyond the law, and beyond proper sacrifice, and to honor the idea of social justice—which includes all people, even foreigners, and widows, and those “outside the camp,” and requires everyone to live “from the heart” in “letting justice roll down like waters and righteousness like an ever-flowing stream”—as the essential foundation of relationship with God.

The Wisdom writers had their idea of what is pleasing to God, and offer a practical, down-to-earth, early version of a “self-help” orientation to achieving divine sanction. The Psalmists had their ideas (often divergent) of what is pleasing to God. In the New Testament, the Jesus Movement offered still another view of what is pleasing to God, saying, basically, “Love one another,” and “Do unto others as you would have them do unto you,” meaning, “all others,” in the prophetic tradition.

In the first century church, views of God were as different as the “Christianities” that espoused them. Things began to narrow things down with heresy trials and burnings at the stake—nothing like a few burnings at the stake to secure widespread agreement about the nature of God.

The New Testament was written and compiled by those who were either of Gentile origin, or by Jews who were sympathetic to Gentiles. These writers/compilers did not include in the New Testament writings that may have been more Jewish in scope and direction. However, for about two generations after the death of Jesus, the followers of Jesus, and the new converts to the Movement, would have gathered regularly together with worshiping Jews in the synagogues to worship—in addition to house gatherings for prayer and discussion. It is only after it became unpopular—and unwise—to associate with Jews, because of the Jewish rebellion against Rome, that Christians separated themselves from Jewish worship practices, and began to consider Christianity as a separate religion.

Jesus did not intend separation, or see himself as creating a new religion. Jesus was not the first Christian, and it is not clear that he would be a Christian today. His intent was to reform Judaism by modifying the institutional idea of God that was popular among the Jewish people of his day.

The idea of God in the mind of the people of God has continued to be modified through the centuries following the creation of the Christian Church. God’s position on war, conscientious objection, slavery, women, abortion, birth control, alcohol, science, medicine, etc. has been carefully plotted and re-plotted by the theologians and leaders of the Church. Disagreements over the idea of God has created a proliferation of churches, with each new denomination professing to possess true belief, claiming to own the Right Idea of God, and accusing all other denominations of being deluded in the service of a false gospel, or Wrong Idea about God.

Today, religious pluralism has become a dominant force in the construction of the people’s idea of God, and the prevailing trend is the “honey bee approach” to spiritual development, where individuals “visit” different “flowers,” taking what they need from each religion, or denomination, and formulating a view of God that is consistent with their own sense of what is good, true and beautiful. The questions “Who is God?” and “How can we know?” are increasingly answered with the Taoist teaching, “The Tao that can be said is not the eternal Tao.” That being the case, the question then becomes, “What can we know of God with any degree of assurance or certainty?” And, the answer seems to be, “Live toward as much as you think you know of God, and allow the path to open up before you”—with “for better or worse,” unstated but implied.

Of course, this approach is much too vague to be comfortable for large numbers of people who want to know exactly what to believe, and how to live, and what the payoff will be. Thus, religious fundamentalism is increasing in popularity, and the return to orthodoxy is experienced in all the major religions of the world. “Just tell us what to believe, and don’t ask us what we think!” is the rallying cry of those who have had their fill of options and choices, with too many brands of shampoo, orange juice, and everything else on the market—who are “decided out” by the end of the week, and simply want to sink into the blessed assurance of age-old certainty, reassurance and conviction on Sunday morning.

What this all means is that the idea of God is continuing to expand, deepen, develop, and evolve. People coalesce around an idea, or perspective, that makes sense to them. God, then, is as much a reflection of our own need and imaginative capacity as an objective other “out there,” who can be known in the way we might know a Bentwood Rocker, or a vintage T-Bird, or a humpback whale.

The God we embrace, believe in, and serve is the God we find to be embraceable, believable, serve-able. We are the doorkeepers of our brand of religion, letting in the God we approve and find to be acceptable, and worshipping that God, until we grow into another view, another version, of God. As our idea of God expands, the God we worship changes, and we find ourselves, even in fundamentalist and orthodox circles, worshipping a God Abraham, Isaac and Jacob—or Peter and Paul—would not recognize, or approve.

As we move away from the traditional, orthodox, fundamentalist view of God as a living being apart, a Person, a Thou of cosmic proportions, the Wholly Other, to a more nebulous and inconceivable Ground of Being, or Essence of Life, or Heart of the Universe, or, my fave, The Source of Life and Being, we will need to clarify for ourselves, if not for others, our understanding of the difference between Non-Theism and Atheism. If we don’t believe in a God who stands apart from us, who sits on a Heavenly Throne, and has a specific Plan, and Will, and is working God’s “purpose out as year succeeds to year,” through all the events and occurrences of historical time, do we believe in a God at all? And if we do, how do we conceive of the God we believe in? What is our particular idea of God? It is easy enough for us to talk about the God we don’t believe in. What shall we say about the God we do believe in?

The best I can come up with is to say Atheism posits no God, and Non-Theism posits an unknowable God. And the difference between God-as-such and “What has always been called ‘God’,” is impossible to pin down, or pen up. God is beyond knowing and beyond talking about. The most we can say about God is “We cannot say anything about God.” God-as-such transcends thought and is beyond experience, like a sound at too high or too low a pitch and cannot be heard.

We can posit a source for life, but there is no reason to think life has to have a source. If God can be without a beginning, life itself can be without a beginning. Life as eternal energy seeking a physical form/expression/existence, seeking consciousness, particularly self-consciousness, is a perfectly good God-alternative as far as I am concerned, and that kind of life seeking expression would not have to send anyone to hell, but would just keep recycling everyone, like a cosmic green power.

Virtues and values could be a spin-off of self-consciousness, with intelligence creating its own design for itself and brains adding levels of complexity to life over time with soulfulness and wisdom working their way into the matrix of our development and evolution taking on a life of its own, and we get an idea of soma and spirit, of body and soul, of physical and spiritual, of the material universe and the Psyche/Soul, where the boundary line is blurred and no one knows where physical ends and spiritual begins, or what may lie beyond the two. And, beyond this, the Mystery!

We recognize “The Holy” as a manifestation of heart/soul. The holy people among us are the people who have heart/soul, who live with heart/soul, and from heart/soul–and they have vitality, life. They are alive. They are much more than 98.6 and breathing, and their spirit is infectious. They bring to life those about them. They live lovingly on the earth. They know what they love, and they love it, they do it, with all their heart, mind, soul and strength. Those people exhibit the essence, and the presence, and the realness of The Holy, The Divine, and what that is, is the Mystery!

Influencing What Can Be Influenced

One of the things I like most about life is that we never know what’s coming. The universe is full of surprises. Who knows what tomorrow—or the next five minutes—will bring? Turn a corner, and life changes forever. We can’t count on anything. We spend all our time getting our ducks in a row, and they fly south for the winter. We build the Great Wall of China, and the Empire still collapses. What a world. You can’t beat it anywhere. I love it. I’m being completely serious. I love the whole show. I love not knowing from one minute to the next what will be waiting on us when we get there—what we will have to deal with—how we will deal with it—where it’s going.

Fran Tarkenton, a former NFL quarterback with the Minnesota Vikings and New York Giants said, in an interview with ESPN, that he missed everything about his career in football. The sacks, the completions, the scrambling for first downs and touchdowns, the hits, the fumbles, the rain and mud, the snow, the wins and losses. “I loved it all, and miss it so.” There you are. We have to be able to say that about our life: “We loved everything about it, and miss it so.”

Two things are true, and wonderful: “You never know what’s going to happen,” and, “The response determines (or at least, strongly influences) what follows.” The future hinges on—and flows from—how we respond to what happens in each present moment. Yet, nothing we do will control any outcome, or guarantee any result. We have no control, but we exercise considerable influence, and we don’t know where things are going, or what will happen next. Now, that is worth getting out of bed for every morning!

This is the kind of thing we go to the movies to watch: The day has a mind of its own and we can influence the day! The day has a life of its own and we can bring to life in each day things that would not be alive without us. We work with what the day gives us to guide the day toward the best we can imagine within this context, these circumstances. And, we do it again tomorrow, and the day after that, every day for as long as there are days. This is as much of a long-range plan as we can hope for! If you want a more specific plan than this for your life, the days are going to collapse in a gasping heap, laughing.

The best we can do is to be relatively clear about the best we can do. What is the best we can imagine? What do we wish for ourselves, those we love, all living beings, the entire planet, and the cosmos as a whole? What is worth our life? What would we go to hell for? Toward what are we living? These are the questions we must be answering with our lives. We cannot be too clear about them. And, we cannot arrive at clarity without thinking about, and talking about, what is happening, and what we are doing about it. We don’t engage enough in that kind of conversation.

Dialogue that enables/demands reflection is largely missing from our lives. We spend our time talking about news/weather/sports and other people. If we talk about ourselves, it is to complain about the 10,000 things. When is the last time you talked to someone about your last night’s dream? When is the last time you talked to someone about your work to find your life and live it? When has anyone ever talked to you about those things?

When do we explore together our experience of our experience and its impact on our life? When do we say where we find meaning in our life and how we live to serve it?

We all need a sounding board–NOT someone to tell us what to do, but someone to listen as we talk about what is happening in our life and what we are doing about it, and what we can imagine doing about it, and where we might find the resources for doing it. We need someone to listen us to the truth of our life, of our lived experience–not to tell us anything!

The days come at us too fast to allow reflection. We don’t have time to think about what we are doing. We’re too busy dodging, ducking and jumping out of the way to worry about anything beyond survival. The only thing we are clear about is that we need a break. We need to tag out of this round. We need help. We need someone to talk to. Who will listen us to the truth of what we have to say. And, thereby, enable us to hear it ourselves.

The bad news is it isn’t going to get easier. We only have the time between now and the next thing—which is no time at all—to “recover from the past and store up for the future,” decide what we are going to do about the future when it arrives, think about where we are going with our lives, and what we think ought to happen, and how we ought to assist its happening, and evaluate what we are doing while we are doing it.

James Hollis, the Jungian analyst and author, says his high school football experience taught him that no matter what happened on the last play, he had to get up and get ready for the next play. That’s life for you. Here it comes, ready or not. We’ll have to invent our response on the run. We don’t have time to sit for days, weighing our options.

But, we get all the practice anyone could possibly want! Our lives are proving grounds, which produce, over time, the kind of life that life is all about—if we pay attention! If we are aware! If we are awake! The good news is that we don’t have to know what we are doing. We don’t have to have it figured out. We don’t have to be clear about anything. Our lives are self-correcting, self-guided, self-propelled, learning environments. All we have to do is keep our eyes open in order to figure it out. We only have to live with our eyes open—and bear the pain!

We cannot live with our eyes open without bearing the pain. The pain is the pain of seeing how it is and also is—knowing, feeling, experiencing how it is and also is. To be aware is to be aware of the contradictions and conflicts—to be aware of living in the tension between how things are and how things ought to be, and how we wish things were. This is not easy. The more aware we are, the more we will have to manage the pain of being alive.

The human predicament is that we can imagine a better world than the world we live in. We have to bear the pain of the discrepancy between the world of our dreams and the world we wake up in every day—between the world as it could be and the world as it is—between the way things are and the way we want things to be. It is an agonizing discrepancy. We bear the pain of realization, of enlightenment. And, we do that best in the company of those who are doing it themselves.

We cannot grow toward how things ought to be without coming to terms with how things are, and how things have been, and how things can be. How things are, and how things have been, provide us with the corrective insight required to live toward how things can be. But, that means bearing the pain of knowing how things are, and how things have been, and how things can be–which includes how things cannot be!

Part of our work is to live with our eyes open, and bear the pain of living with the awareness of how things are, how things have been and can be/cannot be. Part of that pain is the pain of what has been done to us. Part of that pain is the pain of what we have done. Part of that pain is the pain of what has happened to those about us. We cannot live with our eyes open without knowing that things are not what they might be—what they should be.

The church of our experience has attempted to handle the discrepancy between how things are and how things ought to be by dismissing, discounting, denying or ignoring it. Or by saying that it’s all our fault, and that if we weren’t sinful our lives would be grand. Or by saying that it isn’t really all that bad, and it all happens for a reason, and all we have to do is have faith and everything will be fine. We can do better than any of this.

We can start by saying that our pain is real, and that it must be witnessed. We cannot bear unacknowledged pain. We can’t even be aware of it. Pain has to be recognized in order to be borne. We have to say what is true to those who can listen with understanding, acceptance and compassion to all we have to say, and we have a lot to say. What we say has to be heard, understood, received, accepted, witnessed. That’s the first thing.

The second is that we have to grieve what is to be grieved, mourn what is to be mourned, feel what is to be felt, object stoutly to what is to be stoutly objected to, and do what can be done in response to what has happened/is happening, and allow the intensity of our agony to diminish over time. If we have objected properly our agony will diminish, and it is our place to permit that. We are not here to agonize endlessly over the discrepancy between the world we can imagine, and the world we can live in, but to step into this world, and live as well as life can be lived within the context and circumstances—within the possibilities and necessities—of life as it is.

The third thing is that we have to realize that things are not right with this world, and that’s just the way it is. That is where we come in. The question is, what can we do about that—how can we work with it. We have to bear the pain of life, and do what can be done about it. And when nothing can be done about it, we have to acknowledge it, mourn it, and allow it to diminish over time. We have to bear it over time in the company of the right kind of people.

Bearing our pain in this way enables us to live with our eyes open, and practice the art of living toward the best we can imagine no matter what. What is the best we can imagine? What do we wish for ourselves, and those we love, and all living beings, and the entire planet, and the cosmos as a whole? What is worth our life? Toward what are we living? We practice answering these questions with our eyes open, living with the idea of making things more like they ought to be than they are, and making things as good as they can be for ourselves and those about us. The trick is to remember what we are about, so that we can practice being about it, and influence the world toward the good of all.

One way of thinking about the work that is before us is to call up the image of Jacob wrestling through the night by the stream called Jabbok with “the angel of the Lord.” You’ll remember that the angel had to depart before dawn, and Jacob wouldn’t let the angel go, even though the angel had dislocated Jacob’s hip, until the angel had given him a blessing.

Rachel Remem says that the trick is to take what comes as graciously as possible, and refuse to let go until we mine it for whatever good may come attached. The angel of the Lord dislocated Jacob’s hip; Jacob held on, demanding the blessing.

You know how you are rocking along, things are fine, all is well, you’re on cruise control, clicking off those personal goals and objectives, realizing those lofty ambitions, with the world on a string, sitting on a rainbow, smiling like a Cheshire cat in the cat bird’s seat, saying “Ain’t life grand,” when you hit the wall? You know how out of nowhere comes the news about the blockage, or the malignancy, or the job loss, or the divorce, or fill in the blank from your own life experience. You know how it is to be smashed between the eyes by life at its harshest and worst. You know how we can’t run far enough fast enough, and we just try to bury it, get busy, refocus, and refuse to think about the awful thing. That’s what it is like when chaos comes for a visit.

Life gives us things we don’t want, and we try our best to give them back, to give them away, to get rid of them any way we can through denial, diversion, distraction, evasion, escape, avoidance, addiction. We R-U-N-N-O-F-T any way we can, every way we can, every time we can. And we miss the blessing. Every time life whacks us a good one right in the chops, or plants a big, juicy wet one right on the kisser, the potential for a blessing exists, and we let it go because we are so busy trying to get back to normal, so busy trying to find the life we once had, so busy trying to bless ourselves by getting rid of the dreadful thing, whatever it is, and give ourselves what we want instead. It doesn’t work that way.

We aren’t in control. We don’t drive this thing called life. It’s immune to our directives, ignores our orders, and whacks us a good one ( or a big juicy wet one) from time to time, right in the chops (or the kisser). When that happens, we have to remind ourselves of Jacob, and grab the thing, whatever it is, right back, and grind our face right into its face, look it squarely in its ugly red eye, and say something on the order of, “I’ve got you now you stinking angel of the Lord! And, I’m not letting you leave without the blessing!”

Sometimes, we have to work for our blessings. Sometimes we have to wade right into what looks to be completely devoid of blessings of any variety, and slog around in the slime, until we are sure we have extracted every bit of the good that is to be found there, and come away with the blessing it brings, after what may seem to be an endless struggle through the dark night of the soul.

And, this kind of work in the service of the blessing is made possible by being in the company of the right kind of others. We come to life in the company of those who are coming to life themselves.

What Works?

We are here to grow up. This is the essence of the Spiritual Journey. It is the work of a true human being. And we grow up against our will all along the way.

Growing up is squaring up to how things are, and what is called for in response. It is facing up to the conflicts, contradictions, dichotomies, discordances, polarities and opposition that go to the very heart of life and being. We cannot do this without bearing the pain of being alive.

There is no growing up without bearing the pain of that growth, of the realization of how things are and of the way that clashes with the way we want things to be. We bear the pain of our conflicts and contradictions—and of the trials and tribulations produced by our conflicts and contradictions.

We put ourselves in accord with how things are and what that means for us, and what we need to do about it. We step into the conflicts and contradictions and all that this implies, reconciling what can be reconciled and living consciously within the tension of polarities that defy reconciliation, and must simply be borne throughout forever. We do this in each situation as it arises all our life long.

What works in one situation may not work in any other situation. What works now may not work then. What works here may not work there. The shoe that fits today may pinch in a month. We live in each situation by walking two paths at the same time. For instance, there is what we do to pay the bills and there is what we pay the bills to do. We have to live the life that is ours to live within the life we are living. How we work this out is the essence of the Spiritual Journey. Working things out, integrating opposites, bearing the pain, in the service of balance and harmony IS the Spiritual Journey!

The spiritual journey is the search for what works. For how we should live what remains of our lives. For what is important, and how we might align ourselves with it. We are looking for ways of realizing that which is truly good in our lives—both in terms of perceiving it, and in terms of embracing and expressing it. We are looking for the Good. We are seeking to serve the Good, the Good of all sentient beings, the Good of all there is.

And someone’s good is someone else’s bad. What works to make peace in the family may not work to make peace in our soul. What works in any situation will not satisfy/please everyone in the situation. We decide what “works” means in each particular situation, and do that. “Sacrifice and acquiesce, Kid. Sacrifice and acquiesce.”

We work out what works in each situation as it arises, with no eternal, absolute principles, and no abiding policies. What works is as temporary as every here and now. What works here and now may never work anywhere else. Being right about what needs to be done, and paying the price to do it is bearing the cross Jesus told us to pick up and follow him.

It seems to be a law that when something is working on one level, something is not working on another level. Conscious awareness has to recognize and reconcile the conflict—or bear consciously the agony of a conflict that cannot be reconciled. Recognizing, reconciling, conflicts and integrating opposites and working things out is not our preferred thing to do. We deny, escape, and pretend our life away. Diversion and distraction work to free us from the burden of deciding what to do about what and how, even though they do not work for anyone’s good over time.

We are seeking to serve the good of all sentient beings, the Good of all there is, but how good is the good we call good? The prime requirement of the Spiritual Journey, and the life of a true human being, is that of living transparent to ourselves and “transparent to transcendence” (Joseph Campbell). We live to be mindfully aware of what we are doing to express, or conceal, who we are at all times.

So, what is good and how do we know? We don’t know. We live by hunches, nudges and guesses—and change our mind in view of the evidence uncovered by living in light of what we determine to be good. We can be wrong. And when we are wrong, we have to realize that and make amends, “turn the light around” (A Taoist phrase) and make another choice.

Our life is a process of changing our mind about what is important. We grow in our ability to take an increasing number of things into account in discerning and doing what is important, what is good, in the time and place of our living. If we live long enough, we see things differently over time. How many life times would it take to see—and be right about—the good in every situation and circumstance? We grow in our ability to see what we look at. We cannot assume that the way we see things is the way things are.

“How do you know what is important?” I asked a friend as we walked for a bite to eat. She stopped, leaned down, and pointed to a daffodil growing by the sidewalk. “It’s like this,” she said. “You can look at this flower and either see it or not see it.”

As it is with the daffodil, so it is with our lives. We can look at life and either see it, or not see it. We can look at what is important, and either see it or not see it. Our assumptions about life, about living, about what is important, about what is good, can keep us from seeing these things. We have to see our assumptions about the thing as well as the thing. We have to see what we don’t see—what else there is to see—if we hope to see at all.

Deena Metzger says, “The response determines everything that follows.” Well. It certainly influences some of the things that follow. If we always see the same things in the same ways, our response will always be predictable, routine. A predictable, routine life is not worth living.

We have to live as Jesus did. Jesus didn’t do anything that was expected of him. He didn’t do anything by the book—or the same way he did it last week. And, what has the church done in the aftermath of Jesus? Worshiped the book! Jesus threw the book away—we enshrined it. We covered it in leather and highlighted the words of Jesus’ in red. Everybody in the church does it the way it is supposed to be done—predictably, routinely. The church is a dysfunctional family with everyone playing the part assigned to her, to him, saying only the things that are supposed to be said.

No four letter words, please. And, if one slips out, make sure it is of the mild variety, like hell, or damn, and then be quick to say, “Pardon my French,” and twitter a bit. And, no questions allowed, certainly none questioning authority—and authority in the church is not usually the minister or the governing board. It’s often a Sunday School class, or a women’s group, or those who are thought to contribute the most money.

You can’t be honest in the church. You can’t say how you feel if it isn’t the way you are supposed to feel. You can’t say what you think if it isn’t the way you are supposed to think. You can’t say what you believe if it isn’t the way you are supposed to believe. The church may say, “All are welcome,” but it has a way of making you feel as though you don’t belong if you don’t do the things that are supposed to be done the way you are supposed to do them. You can be excommunicated overnight, by common consent, with no one making a motion or leading a discussion, or taking a vote.

There is a very narrow range of acceptable responses in church, as in any dysfunctional system. “The response determines everything that follows,” but when you can only respond in certain predetermined ways, everything stays nicely in place, “as it was in the beginning, is now, and ever shall be.”

That’s exactly the situation Jesus stepped into. And he stirred things up, made waves, rocked the boat, turned over apple carts (and the tables of the money changers), radically offended everyone who could be offended, lived out of accord with every Book of Order of his day, and said what was on his mind. That’s the way to do it. We have to destabilize dysfunctional systems if there is to be any hope of things changing. We have to respond in ways that are not expected. We have to do things that have never been done. We have to shock and appall. We cannot come in on cue and read the lines as they are written in the script that is handed to us and expect things to change, ever.

Ah but. You know what is going to happen if we live like this. Drop a fully-functioning person into a dysfunctional situation, and it all goes to hell. That is what happened with Jesus. Jesus said things that weren’t supposed to be said. He did things that weren’t supposed to be done. He thought things that weren’t supposed to be thought. And, the Keepers of the Traditions did everything they could think of to get him in line. When he refused to cooperate, when he would not play the game the way the game was supposed to be played, they killed him, decently and in order.

When we live out of our heart, with as much compassion as we can muster for the way life is being lived around us, things change. They change in unpredictable ways, in ways that are out of our control, but they change. “The response determines everything that follows” in the sense that things will not be what they would have been with a different, more predictable, response. But, the response does not control anything that follows. We cannot be so smart as to live in this moment in a way that controls what happens in the moments following this one. We can influence all the other moments, but we cannot manipulate them. We cannot have life unfold according to our blueprint and design. Neither can God. Influence, not control, is the watchword of heaven. It is to be our own mantra as we fashion our responses to the events and circumstances of our lives in each situation as it arises.

We would be wise to evaluate our response before we release it onto the world. This is much better than just counting to ten. What compels us toward our initial, impulsive, reaction? Is that the best we can do? How are we seeing the situation that compels us toward this reaction and not that one? How else might we see the situation? How else might we respond to it? In light of what are we living? Toward what are we living? Whose good is served by the good we call good? Can we imagine a better Good even though it might not be good for us?

What works? “Experience and reflection, Kid. Experience and reflection.” Do something you call good. It will have an impact. Something will happen in response. See what happens. Respond to it as you think it needs to be responded to. After several rounds of this, step back and consider what has been going on. Think about it. Reflect on your experience. Sit in the silence and see what arises, emerges, “of its own accord.”

Joseph Campbell said, “Reflection on experience produces new realizations.” New ideas of the good come to light when we think about our ideas of the good in light of our experience. We see things differently with time—if we keep looking, evaluating, reflecting, experiencing. It takes a lot of looking to be able to see. And nothing shuts seeing down as quickly as thinking we see.

You have heard me talk about doing what needs to be done in each situation as it arises with the gifts of your original nature that you have to work with. You have not heard me talk about doing what is good there. The good is philosophical ideal that is rarely an option– a possibility–in our actual life, because the good is not an Absolute to be realized anywhere in the cosmos. The good is always good in relation to something that is bad. It is always better than something else. Not good forever in and of itself.

The good is always good for some things, and not so good for other things. A 747 is good for transporting you across the country, but it is not so good for mowing your lawn. And what is good for the lion is not so good for the antelope, and vice-versa.  In some situations, there are no good options. In those situations, we say “We are damned if we do and damned if we don’t.” The choice there is to be damned and be done with it, by flipping a coin, perhaps, and dealing with the outcome.

We do not get to choose our choices, and when there are no good choices to choose from, only variations of bad choices, with unwanted, or unlivable, results, we are left with going with what we consider the best of the bad, and making the best of the fallout from that choice.

In all of this, we bear the pain of being unable to do better than bad. We may bear it forever. We bear it knowing that any other choice would have been bad as well—and we look for ways of redeeming what can be redeemed by living to make all the good choices we are capable of making from that point on.

We live toward the good in every situation even though that may not be possible in all situations. This is called “living anyway, nevertheless, even so” toward the best we are capable of being and doing throughout what remains of the time left for living–even as we bear consciously the pain of being unable to do better in numerous times and places in a world where too often what we get isn’t worth having.

Prayer

I.

Prayer is where we articulate the truth of how it is with us, sometimes with “sighs too deep for words.” We rob prayer of its vitality, and of its capacity to heal and restore our souls, bind up, make well and encourage us for the task at hand when we reduce it to a list of needs and blessings. The spiritual task is to wake up, grow up, square up to the truth of how it is with us, get up and take up the work of bringing ourselves—our gift, our genius, our daemon, our art—forth in doing what needs to be done in the present moment of our living.

We do not pray to get. We pray to be. To be who we need to be, doing what needs to be done the way only we can do it, where, when and how it needs to be done, in each situation as it arises. All our life long.

Prayer puts us in sync with ourselves and our life by articulating what is important and providing us with the emptiness, stillness and silence required to pray in a manner “too deep for words,” in order to know what’s what and what needs to be done about it in each here/now of our life.

We do not pray best with words. We have ceased to pray when we translate prayer into statements. We make a mockery of the entire experience. Prayer IS experience! Is our response to experience! Is the experience of life, living, being alive to the time and place of our living!

II

We hear “pray without ceasing,” and we think, “How in the world would we do that?” We have to do our taxes, pay the bills, get the cat to the vet, water the lawn, change the diapers, do all the things that need to be done in a day! We have a life to live with all the responsibilities that come with it! We have to fit prayer in as we are able!

But. If we hear, “Live without ceasing!” We would think, “Yeah, sure. What do you think I do?” We would have no problem with that. We don’t cease living until we are dead. Except, of course, we do cease living long before we are dead. We go through the motions of life without being alive to what we are doing. We live out our lives without being alive anywhere along the way.

Prayer is life lived as it should be lived—life lived the right way—alive to what is happening and what is called for in response in each moment of every situation, all our life long–in tune with yin and yang (Pronounced “Yong”), the “right order,” doing the right thing at the right time in the right way. Life is prayer when it is lived this way, in alignment with the Tao, with ma’at, with the flow of life and being.

A life well-lived is a life lived in this way and is prayer without ceasing. Is being here, now, to integrate opposites and dance with the contradictions, balance Yin and Yang. Harmonize Mythos (Instinct/intuition/imagination/creativity) and Logos (Reason/Logic/Intellect/Analytics). And do what needs to be done all the way along The Way. To live like this is to pray without ceasing!

III.

Prayer is what we feel and how we respond to that—not what we say. Prayer is beyond words, a felt communion with experience, with life.

Prayer is integrity. Sincerity. Spontaneity.

Prayer is a way of being, a way of being in the world, a way of being at-one with the world, of recognizing and acknowledging our oneness with the world, with all that is in the world, living with “Namaste” to the world!

Prayer is recognizing and acknowledging our helplessness, vulnerability, gratitude, thanksgiving, dependence, pathos, sadness, joy, sorrow… On a feeling level, with no words involved.

Prayer is knowing what we know and responding appropriately to what is called for. Prayer is an attitude, a perspective, a way of being in the world, with the world. Prayer is a frame of mind—a good faith connection with all living things. Prayer is the spirit with which we go about being alive.

We pray with “Sighs too deep for words.” When we try to put that into words, we break the spell, and cannot get it back, with an entire dictionary/thesaurus in hand.

Prayer is what we feel, not what we think, but. Our experience has to be made conscious, for there is more to us than with the spiders and flying squirrels, squid and bison. Our place is to be lights in the darkness of being (In the words of Carl Jung and Jesus of Nazareth), to make the unconscious conscious, to think about what we feel, to live with a foot in two worlds—the unconscious and invisible world and the conscious visible world—and make the connection between worlds–by articulating what we “apprehend that cannot be comprehended” (Abraham Heschel).

We think with words. We talk about experience. We reflect on experience. We interpret experience. We create new realizations and imagine new possibilities and transform the world we experience through experiencing the world we experience.

Experiencing our experience is our gift to the world and it is the greatest gift the world has ever known. Experiencing our experience is the way of deepening, expanding, enlarging our experience to take more than our experience into account. When we think about our experience, we bring contrary experiences to mind, and see how disparate experiences are similar, related, and not so different after all—and how seemingly identical experiences are nothing at all alike.

Thinking about our experience opens up worlds upon worlds of additional experiences, and, like that, we are onto something never thought of, never realized, never known—and that leads to something else, and creation leaps forward, evolving as it goes, and the world is transformed overnight, day-by-day, all because we think about our experience. And this, too, is prayer.

Prayer is where we articulate the truth of how it is with us—the truth of how things are—and where we realize what that means, and what that calls for, and what we are being asked to do in response. As we “pray without ceasing,” we live prayerfully/truthfully, and make all things new by the way we respond to the experience of being alive.

IV.

The work prayer requires of us is to wake up, grow up, square up to the truth of how things are, get up and take up the call to bring forth our gifts, our nature and our virtues, our art, our daemon, our genius in doing what needs to be done in each situation as it arises.

Prayer is at the heart of the work to be awake, aware, and alive. The work of self-realization, of  individuation, to use Carl Jung’s term, which is the work of articulation—of prayer—saying who we are and also are, how it is with us, what is important to us, and what we need in order to do what is ours to do within the context and circumstances of our lives. We pray ourselves into being. The word of creation is a prayerful word, a truthful word. Prayer is as truthful as it gets.

Prayer is a form of hermeneutics, which is concerned with seeing, and saying, the truth, even as it evolves, changes, transforms in relationship with its circumstances and our perception of them.

Hermes was the messenger of the Gods in the Greek Pantheon, the master of eloquence, interpretation, translation, explanation, right-seeing-and-saying/right-saying-and-seeing. It is from the word “Hermes” that we get “hermeneutics,” interpreting and making plain the truth. It is worth noting that the Roman name for Hermes is Mercury, which is also known as Quicksilver, something that shifts, moves, changes quickly, such as the interpretation, understanding of truth—and even, truth itself. Now it’s this, now it’s that. Look quickly if you want to see it. It is on the way to becoming something else, perhaps its opposite–because truth is not a steady state of being, but a reflection of our perception of what’s what and how things are, which is constantly shifting and impossible to pin down, or pen up!

We do not think of truth as something that is changeable. We want “the truth, the whole truth, and nothing but the truth!” The implication being that truth will always, and forever, be just what it is. We think Absolute Truth, like God, is “Eternal, Unchangeable, Immutable.” However, this is not the case with either truth or God (And so Meister Eckhart could say, “The final leave taking is leaving God for God”).

Truth is not static, but dynamic, changing, shape-shifting, evolving, emerging, unfolding, becoming. We have to be as quick as truth, as God is if we would keep up, and know in this moment what is trying to be known here, now. “You don’t keep new wine in old wineskins,” said Jesus, because new wine is still fermenting, and will burst the old wineskins that have lost their elasticity and cannot expand to incorporate the new ways of understanding the world, life, ourselves.

Truth evolves. The movement of truth is everlasting and everywhere. “It’s a new world, Golda,” said Tevya. We have to be ready to receive well the world that is changing before our eyes. The way we have thought is not the way to think! Wake up! Wake up!

Things are not what we think they are. This is the nature of truth, which is like quicksilver, turning, changing, becoming more than we ever imagined, something other than we would ever guess. The nature of truth is reflected in the polarities that define existence: This is the way things are and this is the way things also are. But which way is it really? we ask. Both ways! At the same time.

V.

The second greatest commandment is “Love your neighbor as you love yourself.” In the Sermon on the Mount, Jesus espouses the Golden Rule (which was not original with Jesus by a long stretch): “In everything, do unto others as you would have them do unto you.” You think that’s clear don’t you? Well, square these two texts with the parable about the Wise and Foolish Bridesmaids (Matthew 25:1-13). Sometimes we love our neighbor as we love ourselves, and sometimes we say, “Who made me your caretaker?” (cf. Luke 12:14). Sometimes, we do it this way, and sometimes, we do it that way. And, how do we know when to do what? We take our chances and learn from our mistakes.

The polarities are evident throughout the Sermon on the Mount. After the Beatitudes, which themselves are polarities in opposition to the apocalyptic and messianic expectations of Jesus’ day, Jesus says, “Don’t think I have come to abolish the Law and the Prophets! I have not come to abolish, but to fulfill” (Matthew 5:17), then he spends the rest of the Sermon on the Mount setting aside the popular thinking about the Law and the Prophets. “You have heard it said,” he says time and again, “but I say unto you!” (For instance, “You have heard it said, ‘An eye for an eye and a tooth for a tooth,’ But I say unto you, ‘Do not resist an evildoer, but if anyone strikes you on the right cheek, turn the other also, and if anyone wants to sue you to take your coat, give your cloak as well, and if anyone forces you to go one mile, go also the second mile.’”)

All of which is to say that the truth is expanded, enlarged, deepened by what is also true, and that we who want things spelled out, and made plain, have to understand the nature of truth, and the task of hermeneutics, interpretation, explanation. We are dealing with quicksilver here, as slippery a substance as there is in the entire Periodic Chart of substances.

Truth will not be nailed down, codified, defined, locked up, walled in, roped, thrown, tied and branded. Truth is this AND that. Sometimes it’s like this, and sometimes it’s like that. “I did not come to bring peace, but a sword.” “Peace I leave with you, my peace I give to you.” Which way IS it? Both ways at the same time And we live within the polarities, between the opposites, laughing at the very idea of saying how it is really without saying how it also is really. If we strive for consistency and constancy and one-way-only-ness (the RIGHT way, of course), we only show that we don’t have a clue.

Prayer is truth. Truth is contrary. Prayer is the struggle to say what is and also is, to live on the boundary between Yin and Yang, in the tension of opposite truths: This is the way things are and the way things also are and that’s the way things are! Prayer is waking up, squaring up to the difference between how it is and how we wish it were, bearing the pain of that contradiction, and bringing forth who we are as a blessing within the context and circumstances of our lives. That’s what prayer will do for you. It doesn’t end there.

VI.

We feel better when we pray, when we understand prayer as being present with what is present with us. Prayer “works” to calm the spirit, soothe the soul by enabling us to be aware of what’s what and what can be done about it with the gifts of our original nature and the innate virtues/characteristics which come with us from the womb. Prayer renews us for the task at hand. It’s therapeutic to pray, to lay it out, to see and say what’s what, to articulate what is happening, and what we can do about it, and where we need help with it. Just saying, “Help!” helps.

Prayer does not rearrange the universe to our liking. Cemeteries are filled with people for whom prayer did not work. So are mental wards, prisons, nursing homes, and battlefields. We wouldn’t need dentists if prayer worked. Or hospitals. Or carpenters. Or Prozac. It would wreck the economy, if prayer worked. But, we wouldn’t need an economy if prayer worked. The fact that prayer does not rearrange the external world to suit our liking will not stop us from praying. We pray because being here/now is the prerogative of prayer. To not pray is to not be here/now. To not be engaged in doing what is called for here/now.

About those who say they do not pray, I say, they don’t understand prayer as the opening of the spirit, of the self, to that which is beyond us, to more than meets the eye, to that which has been called, among other things, “God.” Prayer is casting ourselves into the Presence, the Mystery, the Wonder of the Mystery, of the Sacred Source of Life and Being—that Numinous Reality which primal peoples experienced and referred to as “God.”

We might think of prayer as communion with the Mystery, the Sacred Source of Life and Being. It is not thought so much as experienced, felt. Prayer is an awareness like the experience of compassion. We don’t think, “Okay. I’m going to be compassionate now.” We don’t say, “Let us bow for a moment of compassion.” We are compassionate, spontaneously, automatically, naturally. That is how we pray.

We are built for prayer, for seeking help, companionship, connection, communion with whatever we envision as being beyond us, yet within us, and capable of helping us, by receiving us, accompanying us, connecting with us. Where do we turn when we have nowhere to turn? Before we reason things out? That would be the unmovable spot, “the still point of the turning world” (W.B. Yeats), the axis mundi, the world axis, that grounds each of us, anchors each of us in the truth of our own being. Prayer is the connection with the source of life and being–with who we are–stabilizing us, restoring our balance and harmony, and positioning us to do what needs to be done in each situation as it arises.

Prayer is also a mirror reflecting how it is with us on the spiritual level. Prayer reveals what is important to us. Prayer discloses what we want, what we fear, and the extent to which we consciously “turn to prayer,” or fervently reject it, exposes our understanding of the nature of the universe and the character of God, and indicates our tendency toward hope or despair. Prayer is a litmus test for our spiritual health, a barometer indicating the degree and quality of spirit within. It is a contradiction in terms to consider ourselves spiritual if we do not pray. It’s like a fish claiming to be a fish without swimming. We pray like a fish swims. It is what we do in response to the circumstances of our life.

And, if we don’t do it, if we are ashamed of it, if we view prayer as superstitious and childish and an obvious waste of time because we tried praying once and our parents divorced, or our spouse died, or any one of ten million other things didn’t go our way, and that just proves that prayer doesn’t work, I’m here to remind you that we don’t pray because prayer works. Prayer is not like a child before a candy counter pleading with her parent for a package of peppermint. We don’t pray to get what we want, or to avoid what we don’t want. We pray like a fish swims. It is what we do in response to the circumstances of our life.

VII.

Formulating verbal prayers, articulating what is important to us in each moment of life, saying what is true and what is also true in the here and now of existence, makes conscious what needs to be made conscious, enables us to see what needs to be done, squares us with what can, and cannot, be done, and helps us make what can be made of things within the context and circumstances of our lives.

Ah but, this is such a hard sell in the western world. We don’t do anything in the culture of the west that doesn’t pay off. We run a cost/benefit analysis before brushing our teeth. If we cannot calculate the results of a potential endeavor in a way that is obviously profitable in a quantifiable kind of way, we don’t fool with it. We don’t do anything that doesn’t “do any good.” And, it is obvious to us that prayer is one of those things.

For some time now, we have been of the opinion that we are on our own in this world. The Holocaust seems to have been the turning point for a number of us. If that is the best God can do, we reason, then we are just as well off praying to the Void, or not praying at all. We gave up on the idea of a God who can deliver a worthy future for the asking, and began to look to ourselves as the responsible agents of creation. We talked of “the courage to be,” and stepped alone into our future as those who knew that what happened there was up to us.

The posture of the Stoic Existentialist (Or the Rugged Individualist) doing what must be done with a granite face and a grim disposition, is not the posture of prayer. It is not a posture that lends itself to warmth, and good humor, and resiliency, or, even, likeability. People who do not allow themselves the privilege of praying from the heart—regardless of whether it is pointless, useless, and a waste of time—seal themselves off from one of the soul’s true joys, and increasingly become less joyful themselves.

I don’t think we can be alive, in the fullest, truest, sense of the word, without praying. And, the point of prayer is not getting anything done, it is praying! We don’t pray because it works, and is an effective way to alter the world of external, physical, apparent reality. We pray because we must, because we can’t help it, because its as natural as breathing, and because to not pray is to be hyper-vigilant and always on guard in order to keep ourselves from relapsing into the superstitious practices of our ancestors—and to become a cold, calculating, heartless, soul-less stone instead of a vibrant human being.

We pray without theology, or belief in God. Prayer is the environment in which the soul thrives, the air the soul breathes. When we consciously open ourselves to, and participate in, the experience of prayer, we nourish that which nourishes us on a level beyond rational comprehension. We pray because prayer grounds us, encourages us, sustains us, and enables us to face what must be faced and do what needs to be done about it throughout the time left for living.

How the Church Changes It’s Mind

The process by which the church forms it’s beliefs can be symbolized by a tent. Isaiah sings a new song in a foreign land: “Enlarge the site of your tent, and let the curtains of your habitations be stretched out; do not hold back; lengthen your cords and strengthen your stakes” (Isaiah 54:2). Our tent is too small.

When Abraham received the holy nudge to leave Haran, and walked away from his country, his kindred and his father’s house—setting forth for the land of Canaan, he was beginning the construction of a new way of thinking about God. He was writing a new theology. He pitched his tent in the hill country of Canaan, with Bethel on the west and Ai on the east, and there, the text says, he built an altar to the Lord, and invoked the name of the Lord. And then, he journeyed on by stages toward the Negeb, which was a tract of land in southern Judah, so that the word “Negeb,” came to mean simply “south.”

The early development of the people’s idea of God took place on the move. The process by which we came to think of God was a living, breathing, dynamic, evolving, unfolding, chaotic, and mobile process. I cannot underscore how important it is to understand that we did not learn to think about God from the place of a rigid, static, isolated, unchanging, stultifying, provincial, narrow, single point in history, or geography. We learned to think about God “on the fly,” over a long period of time, and large expanses of land. We did not think the same thing about God through all that time, over all those regions. We had a larger tent in the early years. Today, our tent is too small.

In the early years, our thinking about God was expanded by our experience. We encountered different peoples with different ways of thinking about God. Their ideas deepened our own. We were broadened by our contact with other lands, cultures and people. We spent long years in conversation with the most unimaginable kinds of concepts, stories, speculations and conclusions. The thinking of the people we encountered influenced ours. The Garden of Eden is a composite story compiled from our journeys through the eons. The Story of the Flood was a popular campfire legend that we told until we thought it was something we thought of, and took credit for.

The conception of the God we came to think about as ours was shaped and formed through the ages of our sojourn as we came into additional contact with other conceptions, other views, other ways of thinking about gods and goddesses. We would walk through a land, hear an idea, and walk on through another land and hear other ideas, and on our journey, we would reflect on what we had heard—without having to embrace any of it. The journey allowed us the freedom of rumination, reflection, contemplation and realization. It was a long, ongoing, walk-a-bout. We could turn ideas over in our mind without being forced to accept any of them, without being told there were things we had to think, and other things that we couldn’t think at all. We could form our own ideas of God, out in the desert, out in the wilderness, with none to condemn or condone, free from the burden of orthodoxy, tenets, books of doctrine, and conventional standards of belief and practice.

In the desert, beyond the jurisdiction of the priestly castes in the city-states, we could see the absurdity of child sacrifice, and decide that any God worthy of our allegiance would be just as happy with a nice fat goat. In the desert, thinking about our contact with such a wide variety of ideas and notions about God, we could connect the similarities among the different ways people thought of God, and could begin to think of ourselves as the connecting tissue, so to speak, with God using us as “a blessing to the nations,” to “draw all people to God,” and to help all the nations see that God is more than any of us can “ask, or think, say or imagine.” In the desert, our tent was expansive, inclusive. Today, our tent is too small.

Our thinking about God narrowed and became restrictive when the politicians won the day, named a king, built a temple, institutionalized religion, codified beliefs, required everyone to think the same way or else. But there were always those who had a different take on things. The Prophets kept the tent flap open, kept moving the stakes, kept loosening the ropes, kept saying: “We have to enlarge the tent! We have to remember where we came from. We have to know that God is not bound by, or limited to, our ideas of God, and that there is more to know of God than is known, or can be known!”

The Prophets were wanderers—mentally, if not physically. They imagined the God beyond the concepts, beyond the theology, beyond the doctrines of the day, any day. And, they called us to expand our thinking, to enlarge our tent, in order to make room for the unheard of, the scandalous, the heretical and profane, as God acted to shake the foundations, and transform our notions about who God is and what God will do.

God is not bound by our views of God, they told us. God is not restricted to what has been thought of God. “The spirit is like the wind that blows where it will.” And God is free to live beyond the concepts of God in order to create an Eternally New God, a God who has never been conceived. About whom Meister Eckhart said, “The final leave-taking is leaving God for God.”

As if to prove their point, “Jesus came from Nazareth of Galilee and was baptized by John in the Jordan. And just as he was coming out of the water, he saw the heavens torn apart and the Spirit descending like a dove on him. And a voice came from heaven, ‘You are my Son, the Beloved; with you I am well pleased.’ And the Spirit immediately drove him out into the wilderness” (Mark 1:9-12).

The wilderness is the birthplace of God. At the very least, it is the birthplace of new ideas about God. As we wander through the wilderness, through the emptiness of the desert, through the silence of the deserted places, things begin to stir. The process comes alive. Thought evolves, unfolds, and one’s tent expands. Jesus was a wanderer. Jesus’ thinking about God was not bound to how he was supposed to think of God. Jesus’ thinking about God was not restricted to what had been thought of God. “You have heard it said,” he said, “but I say unto you…” Jesus thought differently about God. Jesus’ tent was larger than theirs, or ours. Our tent is too small.

The Resurrection experiences ratified Jesus’ expansive approach to theology. There is more to God than meets the eye. Revelation continues. There is more to know than is known. We do not have the last word, or even the next to last word. We cannot freeze the frame and say, “This is it. This is all there is. This is all we need to know.” We cannot stop ideas from evolving, unfolding, expanding. We cannot kill ideas. Ideas will rise from the dead. God will not be entombed in the constructs of the past.

The angel told the women at the tomb, “I know you are looking for Jesus who was crucified. He is not here. He has been raised. Come see the place where he lay, then go quickly and tell his disciples, ‘He has been raised from the dead, and he is going ahead of you to Galilee; there you will see him’” (Matthew 28:5-7). As it was with those who were disciples then, so it is with those who are disciples now. Jesus is ahead of us. If we want to see him, we are going to have to go where he is. Want to guess what that means?

It means leaving what we have become accustomed to, and wandering amid the possibilities. It means leaving our parents’ house (with all the connotations that phrase suggests) and enlarging our tent. We cannot think the resurrection is real without understanding that Jesus has gone before us into Galilee and beyond, into all the world. Jesus is “out there” (with all the connotations that phrase suggests) ahead of us, calling us to follow him. We fold our tents, and step into the world after Jesus, wandering, wondering, evolving.

The process by which the church forms its beliefs, and changes its mind, is symbolized by a tent. Tents are appropriate because thinking about God is a living, breathing, dynamic, unfolding, evolving, chaotic and mobile process. In living out of a tent, we avoid the tendency to lock ourselves into an unchanging concept of God, and open ourselves to new ideas, and new ways of thinking, after Isaiah’s summons to “Enlarge the site of your tent, and let the curtains of your habitations be stretched out; do not hold back; lengthen your cords and strengthen your stakes.”

To say that Jesus is raised from the dead is to say that thinking about God cannot be confined to the concepts of the past—cannot be codified—cannot be frozen in place, unchanging, and unchangeable, forever. The world that stretches out before us is nothing like the world our ancestors knew. We cannot hope to do it the way they did it, and find our way. If we are going to take seriously the possibility of a spiritual journey, we are going to have to wing it into Galilee, and into all the world, in the spirit of the disciples, not knowing what we will find there, or what will be asked of us, or how we will respond, but trusting ourselves to the spirit that is like the wind blowing where it will, and to the path that opens before us as we step into the Mystery and all that lies Beyond.

Community and Chaos

We cannot do it alone. However, together we can create an environment that enables us to do just about anything we can imagine. As members of communities of innocence, we come together to spark within one another the creative response to life. We come together to nurture that spark into a flame, and to sustain the flame in the gale force winds howling up from the Void. Our place in a community of innocence enables us to bring forth the best within us in the engagement with chaos and evil.

Joseph Campbell said, “It took the Cyclops to bring out the hero in Ulysses.” Just so, it takes the chaotic disruption of our lives to awaken the creative genius within each of us, a genius that stirs to life in the company of those who know how to provide a space for the miracle of creation.

Life can be overwhelming. Living can take the life right out of us. Yet, in the presence of the right kind of community, we have what we need to find our way to the way that is The Way for us within any context or circumstance of life. One of the 10,000 spiritual laws states, “Anything can look good to those who aren’t clear about what is important. And everything can look hopeless to those who have given up hope—who see no reason to live in the service of hope.”

The right kind of community can remind us of the 10,000 spiritual laws and help us figure out what is important—and help us remember to live in the service of hope “anyway, nevertheless, even so.” A community of the right kind of people is good for emotional and spiritual support, for comfort and encouragement, for caring presence, for listening us through confusion to clarity, balance, sanity, and peace.

Our overall guiding strategy has to be putting ourselves in the position of making the best possible decision about what to do in each situation as it arises. A community of innocence can help us stay grounded in, centered and focused on, that goal.

We have to live to make the best decision possible regarding what to do in each situation as it arises. We do that best when we live in accord with our life, no matter what that might mean for us. Our task is to align ourselves with our life in the time and place of our living, and see where it goes. When we are fighting our life, resisting our life, opposing our life, we are not listening to our life, we are not seeking the gift to be found here and now, in the time and place of our living.

And, here we have to be clear about the two lives we are living. There is the life we live to pay the bills, and there is the life we pay the bills to live. One life is contrary to the other life, and we have to live in accord with both lives! We do this by walking two paths at the same time. And we do that by keeping an eye on the other path while we are walking on this path. What we do to pay the bills often takes the life right out of us. And what we do in the service of life often cannot begin to pay the bills. And so, the contradiction. The cross! In bearing this cross, we die and are raised from the dead again and again. And for this to happen, we have to be conscious of the two lives and bear the pain of their contradictions.

Things have their own rhythm and flow. We are to read the situation, and assist it toward its natural and preferred outcome. In order to do that, we have to stand aside, step back—get out of the way with our preferences, desires, fears, wants, dreads, will and opinion—and see what needs to be done, and what we can do about it. When we do it that way, we open the way to seeing, hearing and understanding—and to living appropriately in response to the moment unfolding before us.

We have to put our agenda away, and simply receive the moment, step naked, so to speak, into the situation as it arises, look around, see what is there, what is happening, what needs to happen, and what is being asked of us—what needs us to do it with our “skill set,” with the gift, talent, art, genius that identifies us as unique and individual, and makes us preeminently prepared to grace this particular situation with exactly what it needs in order to move toward “its natural and preferred outcome.”

When we get out of the way, by having no expectations, no agenda, no plan and no opinions, seeing, hearing and understanding happen automatically, and result in knowing. Knowing spontaneously, naturally, spontaneously becomes doing. Which transforms us and enhances our being. Our situations do this for us when we step into them innocent of all intentions and purposes, receive well what is there, and offer to it what we have to give. All of this works smoothly if we stay out of the way, and don’t try to exploit the situation to our perceived advantage and benefit—but trust the situation to be exactly what we need it to be, in spite of all appearances to the contrary.

Joseph Campbell said, “The hero always gets the adventure he/she is ready for.” And, “Where you stumble and fall, there is the treasure.” The adventure we get is never the one we have in mind. We don’t want the treasure where we stumble and fall, but the treasure up the way, over there, in far and distant lands, with all of the incumbent fortune and glory that we have in mind. In other words, we insert ourselves into the situation, and interfere with the natural unfolding of life there, looking for the way to the particular ending we have in mind. We have no business looking for endings. Our place is to look for what needs us to do it, and do it. We have an idea of how we want our life to be, and the more we operate out of what we think would be good for US, the farther we are from the adventure that is ours.

When we go looking for help with our life, seeking advice from friends, and therapists and self-help books, we are looking for a way to the end we have in mind for ourselves: How to get what we want. Or, we seek ways to avoid what we don’t want. Either way, the help we seek for ourselves is not help with the life that needs us to live it, but help escaping, avoiding, that life and the adventure that is to be had there. We don’t want help living that life. We don’t want that adventure.

And so, Joseph Campbell said, “That which you seek lies far back in the darkest corner of the cave you most do not want to enter.” What does wanting know?

Let’s say our parents divorce when we are 15. We don’t want our parents to divorce. We want our life to be rosy, smooth and easy. The life we would prefer is not always the one that has our name on it. Will we live the adventure that is ours to live? Willingly? Cooperatively? Will we put ourselves in accord with our life, and see what we can do with it? Will we seek the treasure where we stumble and fall?

What does the phrase, “Thy will, not mine, be done,” mean to you? With the “Thy” being the life that is yours to live?

Let’s say a war comes along and sweeps us up into the army, or sweeps all our belongings and possessions away. Or sweeps us into a POW camp, or some variation of a Gulag Archipelago. How do we respond? Do we say Yes! or No! to the adventure at hand?

The adventure we get is always the one we are ready for, and always the one we don’t want anything to do with. We grow up against our will, remember. What will we do? Will we show ourselves to be worthy of adventure? Or, will we pass on it, and wait for one more in keeping with our idea of how such things ought to be? One that does not require us to grow up at all? Will we seek the treasure where we stumble and fall? Where our life goes off the tracks? Where there is nothing but nothing as far as we can see?

When we put ourselves in accord with our life, and seek the treasure where we never thought there would be a treasure, things shift in an imperceptible, yet undeniable, way.

We find doors opening where we didn’t know there would be doors at all. Help that, before, we wouldn’t have recognized as being helpful, comes to our aid. Bill Moyers asked Joseph Campbell (In The Power of Myth), “Don’t you feel sorry for people who have no invisible means of support?” “Invisible support” comes to those who trust themselves to their adventure. But. There is a catch.

The catch is that we cannot exploit the support that comes to us on our adventure, and use it in the service of our personal advantage. There is a divide, a chasm, between our adventure and our advantage. Our adventure is not for our benefit, not for our gain, not for our advantage. We do not benefit in any personal way from the adventure at hand. The Hero serves the community. The individual serves the whole. The boon is for all humankind. And Jesus actually dies on the cross.

The Buddha did not live for the aggrandizement of the Buddha. Jesus did not live for the prestige and renown of being Jesus. Stat sheets and personal records of achievement are meaningless on the journey, on the adventure, that is ours to undertake. Help is available, but not for our personal advancement—only for the work that is ours to do, for the completion of our journey, our adventure, for the sake of a good that is greater than our personal good.

We may find that the help may come to us from outside of us, and it may come from inside of us in the form of dreams and realizations, nudges, hunches. We have to be quiet and perceptive in order to evaluate whether something is helpful or not. It may look good, but is it? Sit with it for a while. The rush to judgment is always a slippery slope. “Time will tell” whether something is helpful or not, so take your time evaluating the value of the help that comes your way. The Shel Silverstein verse is beautifully said and to the point: “Some kind of help is the kind of help that help is all about, and some kind of help is the kind of help we all could do without.”

An AA slogan is exactly  what we need at this point: “Take what you need, and leave the rest behind.”

When we put ourselves in accord with our life, we have an attitude of openness that receives and perceives each situation as it arises, sees what is happening there, what needs to happen, what is being asked of us and decides what to do in response. In order to know what is being asked of us in a situation, we have to be able to view that situation without prejudice, that is, without fear or desire. We have to be free of self-interest on any level in order to evaluate the situation, and determine the appropriate course to take.

This is where the help we need is to be found–in emptying ourselves of everything, even the desire to be empty. The right kind of emptiness, stillness and silence is the source of “a very present help in times of trouble.” The right kind of emptiness, etc., is found in the space between breaths. There is nothing there. No thoughts, no emotions, nothing. Practice being there in stillness and silence, waiting and watching for what occurs to you “out of nowhere,” and see where it leads.

When life goes to hell around us, it is to be at the center point of the normal distribution curve to ask, “What the hell?” and go to hell with it. To ask, “Why try, if this is all the good it does?” and quit. We quit trying. We quit working at our life. We opt for whatever is convenient, “smooth and easy,” and contribute to the madness, by not caring, not noticing, not waiting, not watching–and losing ourselves in a wasteland of addiction/distraction and denial.

It is precisely when life goes to hell around us that we need to stand up, step forward to meet Hell coming at us–and make our best decisions–the first being for emptiness, stillness and silence. We have to exercise our best judgment, and choose our best choices, when life goes to hell around us. That is when it matters most what we do.

At precisely the moment we are most tempted to give up is the moment when we are most needed to get to work in our behalf—in behalf of all that is right and good—and in behalf of all living things. We have to be strong in our own cause—strong in our own behalf—and strong in behalf of life itself, at the moment our cause looks most hopeless, and it seems to all concerned that nothing matters.

Nothing matters more than living like everything is riding on what we do, when it seems as though nothing we do matters.

We have to believe in ourselves and our life—and in life itself—and live as though we do, in each situation, and every circumstance, that arises. Always. No matter what. We step into the situation, and go meet what is coming to meet us. We make our best possible response to it. And do it again in the next in the next situation that comes along, and in all those after that.

We are going to be challenged again and again to forget our life, to give up, to not care, to not try, to quit. This is the Cyclops’ way. And it takes the Cyclops to bring out the hero in each one of us.

The right kind of community reminds us of this, and calls us to square up to the truth of how things are—to reconcile ourselves with the discrepancy between how things are, and how we wish they were. This is the work that grows us up, and brings us forth—the labor pains of our own becoming are brought on by encounters with evil. Evil is the cradle of good. Evil is the servant of good. Good is turning the light around, flipping evil and bringing good to bear upon here/now. It is the struggle to square ourselves with things that ought not be that marks our turn toward the good—the good that we are capable of creating by the way we live in the world. This is soul work, assisted by communities of innocence at all the different stages and places in our lives.

Together, we are good for the things each one of us needs in order to live the life that is ours to live in the world of chaotic encounters. We gather to help one another decide what’s important. We gather to help one another develop our individual sense of who we are and what we are about. We gather to help one another become aware of what is deepest, best, and truest about us as individuals. We gather to remind each other of the importance of living toward the best we can imagine in each situation as it arises, and doing what we love with the gifts that are ours to give. We gather to help one another laugh and cry in the presence of the truth that awakens and sustains us all.

There are two things that are true about truth: Laughter and tears. In the presence of truth, we will laugh or cry. We can gauge the quality and depth of truth by the degree to which we do one or the other. There are things that are true that never bring us to tears or laughter. For instance, the sun is 96 million miles away. Or, the speed of light is 186,000 miles a second. Which is moving, but it doesn’t move us.

The kind of truth that moves us connects us with the Source of Life and Being, and sustains us in the swirling center of chaos. If we can bear the pain of the encounter with chaos, and look into the face of evil, we will see that it is the mechanism by which life is laid bare. Evil reveals what is truly important. Evil is good in that way.

When Adam eats the forbidden fruit, his eyes are opened, and that is not a bad thing. It is the essential thing. Everything hinges on that, flows from it. Spirit, character, heart, and soul depend upon our eyes being opened so that we know what is important. Evil is the slap that wakes us up, brings us to life, and enlists us in the service of what matters—if, and this is where we all come in, if we are surrounded by a community of the right kind of people.

The primary social unit has never been the individual acting alone. We have been tribal from the start, and that has as much to do with our emotional and spiritual needs, as our physical needs. We cannot manage alone. We need one another to have a chance. But it is not just any other who will do. It takes a community of those who know what they are doing to provide what we need to deal with the malevolent intrusions of life. It takes a community well-practiced in the art of survival to save us. In a culture like this one, our best chance at finding that kind of community is to create one.

It starts with three, or five, or seven of us coming together with the purpose of creating a respectful, safe space without answers, willing and able to listen one another to the truth of how things are, and also are—to the truth of what is important, of what is happening, and what needs to be done about it. The community can become too large “like that,” and the “I” becomes lost in the “We,” and the community develops a sense of its own identity and importance, and begins to think about renting, or buying, a place to meet, and putting in parking lots, and a sound system.

Keep it small, with the focus on the individuals and the central theme of finding our own life and living it. In this way, we mold ourselves into the kind of community that saves our souls—not from the eternal fires of hell when we die, but from the turbulent waters of chaos right now. We work to become the kind of place that provides all of us with what we need to take chaos on, and bring order and meaning into the here and now of our life together.

We can create a Community of Innocence by inviting a few like-minded friends to talk about their experience in seeking out the life that is seeking them, and see where it goes. If you happen to be a part of a local Jung Society, you already have the connections in place, and only need to ask two or three friends from that group to join you in talking, not about Jung, but about yourselves and your own experience with living the life that needs you to live it.

The world will be transformed.

Perfection

There is a practical test for every form of spirituality that has nothing to do with professed statements of faith. Does it work? Does it enable us to live well? Does it provide us with what we need to live our lives? Does it sustain us for the long haul? Does it bring us to life, connect us with the deep values, and the true goodness of being alive? Does it make us better people than we would be without it? Does it allow us to live with joy and passion? Does it enable us to say “Yes!” to life just as it is right off the shelf?

Don’t give me a spirituality that takes the life out of me; that burdens me with guilt and shame and makes me wonder if I’m doomed from the start—that keeps me afraid of God’s wrath, and going to hell, and therefore, afraid to be alive. That’s just death dressed up in a white suit trying to slip one over on us. Life doesn’t threaten us with death, doesn’t talk about death, doesn’t terrify us and keep us from going anywhere but to church where they talk to us about death and hell. Don’t give me that kind of spirituality. I’m going to be dead long enough. I’m for living while I can.

Give me a spirituality that talks about life, and living, and being alive. Give me a spirituality that is about loving life, dancing, singing, and being really good company. Give me a spirituality that knows how to laugh. That doesn’t care who’s looking, or what its chances are. That knows how to play. That can have a good time. Throw me in with the people who are a good place to be—who are home for my soul.

The primary rule guiding the development of spirituality as it ought to be is: The soul knows. The soul knows what is good for us and what is not, what nurtures life, and what kills it. Jesus came that we might “have life and have it abundantly.” The soul perks up upon hearing that and pays attention.

It’s amazing, don’t you think, that the church of our experience used the occasion of Jesus’ words about abundant life to talk about death? Jesus didn’t say, “I have come to give you life, and if you don’t do it exactly as I tell you to do it, I will give you death—No! I’ll give you worse than death!” But, the church of our experience said that. The church of our experience told us we would die and go to hell if we didn’t come listen to the preacher tell us we were going to die and go to hell if we didn’t come back and listen to the preacher tell us we were going to die and go to hell… Jesus talked about life, the church of our experience talked about death, and our souls suffered. Dried up. Began to shrivel and waste away.

Jesus took on the religious authorities by saying, “I am the way, the truth, and the life, and no one comes to the Father but by me.” The Pharisees and Sadducees had their way of getting to the Father—the way of being descended from Moses and the way of keeping the law. Jesus looked them in the eye and said, “I have my own way, thank-you.” Imagine that.

“The law is the way!” said the authorities. “Moses is the way!” said the authorities. Jesus said, “I am the way!” Where did that come from, his boldness in taking on the authorities, in standing his ground, in being true to his vision, his understanding of, his belief in, how things ought to be? Where did that come from, his being his own authority? So that the people said of him, “He teaches, not like our scribes, but as one who has authority”? What audacity! What faith in one’s own ability to discern what is true, and valid, and real! “I am the way!” We could use some of that confidence in our ability to know what’s what.

Jesus said, “If you want to get to the Father, you have to do it the way I’m doing it, because the Father and I are one,” and radically offended the authorities, who thought Jesus was claiming to be God, which was the highest obscenity, blasphemy, heresy—the greatest desecration of the holy—that could be said. Yet, Jesus was only saying what the Book of Moses said was to be true of everyone. “You must be holy as I am holy,” said the Book of Moses; “You must be perfect as I am perfect,” said the Book of Moses. “You must be,” said the book, “as God is,” or words to that effect. But, when Jesus said, “I am as God is,” or, “When you have seen me, you have seen the Father,” those in power took offense, and had him killed, because he was a threat to their way of seeing and controlling what was seen.

The church of our experience continues the mistake of the religious authorities of Jesus’ day, making Jesus divine in a way that no one else has ever been or will be. In the eyes of the church of our experience, Jesus gets to be perfect because he was God from the beginning, born of a virgin, you know, half God, half Man. No. Fully God, fully man. Make sense of that, if you can. Any way you slice it, Jesus gets to be perfect because he cheated. He was God. He couldn’t help but be perfect.

And his “no one can come to the Father but by me” line was not understood to mean “You have to do it the way I’m doing it, by carrying your own cross, suffering the pain of your own life experience, and living out of your own authority,” but to mean instead, “You have to let me do it for you. You have to believe that I am God, and that I died to save you from your sins, and if you don’t, you are going to hell.”

One of the things we can’t help noticing as we consider the interplay between Jesus and the authorities and the church of our experience is the way the word “perfect” is understood. Jesus is perfect as God is perfect. “The Father and I are one.” The authorities, and the church of our experience, understand that to mean moral perfection. They say Jesus is “without sin.” Morality is the big thing for the authorities and the church of our experience. We have to keep ourselves unstained by the world and be morally pure or we will go to hell. That’s what we have been told by those who missed the point. Morality misses the point.

One of the 10,000 spiritual laws states, “Morality is the best-dressed form of sin.” I couldn’t have said it better myself. Morality lends itself to the posture of the Pharisee in the temple, which is one of the stories that put morality in its place. Another is the story of the rich young man. Morality isn’t what it’s cracked up to be.

But, don’t think I’m hawking immorality here. Not at all. Live the best life you can live, that’s my recommendation, but don’t sacrifice the good for the sake of the moral. Jesus was considered to be highly immoral by the code-keepers of his day. He associated with women—Samaritan women, at that. He socialized with prostitutes and tax-collectors. He was friendly with “the people of the land” (also called “sinners”) who were too poor to pay the Temple Tax, and therefore couldn’t worship in the temple, and therefore were considered to be disgusting and unworthy by the upper strata of Jewish society because they were obviously being punished by God with poverty, so they must be sinners. And, he regularly broke the laws depicting how things were to be done in that day. He was called “a glutton and a wine-bibber,” which is another way of saying he was beyond parental control. He was called a blasphemer and a son of Satan. He was not a shinning example of moral rectitude. But, he was perfect.

Perfection is not a function of morality! You don’t get to be perfect by being moral. Perfection is about integrity, about alignment of being. It is about destiny. Perfection and destiny are about waking up, growing up, squaring ourselves up with our life as it is and as it must be. This is the deep work that is ours to do. The work is difficult—it is so difficult it is called the Hero’s Journey—because we don’t want to do it. We do not want our life as it is or as it must be. We want a different, better, life. We have ideas, aspirations, dreams, goals, ambitions, and neither life as it is nor life as it must be comes close to what we have in mind. The word of freedom and responsibility—the freedom to be responsible—is: Wake UP! Grow UP! Square Yourself Up With Your Life As It Is And As It Must Be—And Get Up And Do What Needs To Be Done!

This is where most people turn around, deciding the Spiritual Journey is not for them. The Wasteland looks better, has more appeal. And this is where we are.

Our life as it is consists of the context and circumstances within which we live. We live where we live. We do not live next door, or down the street, or across town, or in another part of the country or world. Our life where it is, is different than it would be if we lived somewhere else. We have different choices. Different options. Different opportunities. We were born when and where we were born. Our parents were our parents. All the facts that have governed our life constitute our life as it is. They are our facts to square ourselves up with. They are different from anyone else’s facts, but we all have the same work to do: Squaring ourselves up with the facts that we have had to work with, deal with, all our lives long. We never complete that work. It is always to be done.

To not do it is to spend our life in the Wasteland of denial, diversion, distraction, escape into addiction and entertaining pastimes. These facts of our lives, the time and place of our living, our choices and opportunities, etc. are our fate. They are the things we were born into. The things we cannot help, or change, like the color of our hair or the size of our footprint, or how fast we can run the hundred meter dash. We have to square ourselves up with them because they are what they are and together they form the context and circumstances of our lives. To choose the Wasteland is to choose to live out our life in the land of our fate. And to say, “No thanks,” to our destiny.

Within the context circumstances of our life—within the fate that is ours—we are called to live out our life as it can be, ought to be, must be. This is our destiny. Our destiny is who we are called to become. Our destiny is what we are capable of doing with our fate, with the facts that determine so much of our life. They don’t determine all of our life, unless we let them, unless we cave into the facts and give into our fate and surrender hopelessly to the context and circumstances of our living in a Wasteland of “Who cares? Why try? What difference does it make?” kind of way.

I am here to remind you that the Source of Life and Being—that which has always been thought of as God—is with us within the context and circumstances of our lives, within the fate that defines our living, the facts that limit our lives, to enable and assist us in embracing and serving our destiny, and becoming who we are capable of being within the limits and boundaries of the time and place of our living. Our destiny is recognizing and bringing forth into our lives, the gift, the genius, the daemon (Sounds like “diamon”) that is ours—that is peculiar to us, that makes us different from any other human being to ever live.

To use Carl Jung’s term, individuation is what sets Jesus apart. This is what his “no one can come to the Father but by me” means. When we are who we are the way Jesus was who he was, “The Father and I are one.” Our call is to become who we are asked to be within the context and circumstances of our life. This is our work. And we are not alone in that work. That which has always been called God is with us in that work to help us do it.

The Spiritual Journey brings us into the presence of The Source of Life and Being, which is with us to do the work of fulfilling our destiny—which is the work of self-realization, of bringing forth our gift, our genius, our daemon—as boon and blessing to all who inhibit this place with us. The Source is not with us so that we might have it made, live any way we choose, and have all our dreams come true—so that we can fritter away our time in trivial pursuits and entertaining pastimes, and hang out at the mall, or take trips and cruises, until we die. The Source is with us for the specific purpose of doing the work that is ours to do, becoming who we are to be as a blessing to all—to give our life in the service of life.

This is the Hero’s Journey, the hero’s task. Abraham leaves home in search of home. He leaves his physical home in search of the home of his spirit, his soul. He goes in search of where he belongs, in search of what he belongs to. Where we belong—what we belong to—is the Promised Land, which is also called the Kingdom of God, and The New Jerusalem, The Farther Shore, Nirvana, which is also the work that is our destiny where we and God are as one. This does not exist in some far off distant future, or some far off distant place, but is right here and right now when we take up the search for the gift we have been given, for our original nature and the innate virtues that are ours from birth, for the life we are called to live, for the work that is ours to do, for where we belong, for what we belong to. To take up this search is to, in Jesus’ words, “have life and have it abundantly.” It is to live the life we are called to live, being ourselves—the self we are created to be—and going forth into the world of normal, apparent reality, where no one can “come to the Father” except by being this kind of “me.”

We take up the Journey by being true to ourselves within the context and circumstances of our life. Perfection is integrity, integration, synchronization, oneness of heart and being—living in ways that are integral with what is deepest, truest and best about us, where word and action are one thing, where external and internal are one thing. “I Am Who I Am,” says God to Moses. Jesus is one with the Father, not because Jesus is God, but because Jesus is one with himself—because Jesus is Jesus, and Jesus is “of God” the way you and I are “of God.”

The heart of spirituality is to be who we are in loving relationship with those about us. If you think that is easy, give it a spin. But, when you get it down, you will have achieved perfection. The trouble is that we are divided within. I want to be the best father in the world, and I don’t want to be a father at all. Try integrating that division if you have the heart for it. That’s only one of the warring opposites I have within. The work of integration, of perfection, is a life-long undertaking—and it is the spiritual task, the heart of what we are about.

We are divided at the level of the heart. We want mutually exclusive things. We are Adam and Eve in Eden and Jesus in Gethsemane. Here is another place of the cross in our lives. When Jesus says, “If you want to be my disciple, pick up your cross every day and follow me,” he’s saying, “Don’t think this spirituality stuff is easy. It’s hard work being whole.” Our everyday cross is the work of realizing and integrating the conflicts and contradictions at the center of ourselves—of facing and reconciling who we are and who we also are. We cannot become the unique individuals we are alone. It takes the right kind of community to bring us forth into the life that is ours to live.

The right kind of community, what I call a community of innocence, is a theme that I will return to over the course of this book. It is central to the work of being human—of being true human beings, fulfilling our destiny, realizing our gift, our genius, and offering what we have to give to each situation as it arises. For now, I will remind you that the work of spirituality is the work of coming to terms with who we are and who we also are—with how it is with us and with what we are about. It is the way of finding our way back to Eden—to ourselves via the way of integration, integrity and wholeness of being. It is the way of knowing what is important, what has true value, and living in light of it for the rest of our days.

This is the work of individuation, self-realization, which Carl Jung recognized as the real work of being human. It is the work of awareness—the work of attention, which is the work of articulation and sincerity-—the work of conversation, the work of talking together about the things that matter. In order to do this work, we need a community of innocence-—innocent in that they have nothing to gain by being present with us for our good and have no interest in exploiting us for their advantage-—to listen us to the truth of who we are and also are and help us decide what that means for us in the here and now of our living.

A community of innocence is glad to listen to us, help us bring ourselves into focus, and help us live toward ourselves within the context and circumstances of our lives, with grace, mercy, peace, hope and compassion. A community of innocence brings us to life, encourages us to live, enables us to be alive by providing us with a good place to be while we do the work of becoming a self in loving relationship with other selves. As we do this work, we take our place in the community by bringing forth the gift we have to offer and sharing who we are with everyone, within the community and beyond it.

The Two Things

The first thing is this: I am capable of living in ways which are good for me and that I am capable of living in ways that are not good for me. I can give myself to that which is “me,” and I can give myself to that which is “not me.” I can surround myself with toxic personalities, and I can search out the people who are good for my soul—who reconnect me to that which is deepest, truest and best about me—who provide me with an environment which enables me to be true to myself within the context and circumstances of my life.

The second thing is this: I am capable of living in ways which are good for those about me and I am capable of living in ways that are not good for those about me. I am capable of influencing the lives of others for good and for ill. I can live with them as a toxin, or as a purifying, cleansing, agent of grace and compassion.

These are the two things. I can live in ways that are good for me and I can live in ways that are good for you. And I can live in ways that are bad for me and I can live in ways that are bad for you. How much for me and how much for you?

Where do I stop and you start? When my good becomes your bad, what do I do? When your good becomes my bad, what do I do? How do I live with good and bad on the line? What guides my living when I have to choose between you and me? How do I decide what to do? How do I know what to do? Who is to say?

All the religious edifices in all the cultures that ever have been or will be exist in part to answer the question about my good and your good. Morality is about the difference between my good and your good. All the real conflicts are values conflicts—conflicts over whose good will be served and whose bad.

We have to learn about sharing, about empathy, about compassion, about compromise, about giving up this to get that, about delayed gratification, about sacrifice, and self-denial, and self-surrender. We also have to learn about self-assertion, and self-reliance, and self-direction, and self-protection. We have to lean how to take care of ourselves at the expense of others, and how to take care of others at the expense of ourselves. How much for me, how much for you? Where do we draw the line?

Fraser Snowden said, “The only true philosophical question is ‘Where do you draw the line?’” Who is to say? We are. There is no one here but us. We decide. We choose. We say—with everything on the line. How do we know? We don’t know. But. It is our call to make. We bear the weight of our decision throughout our lives, perhaps eternity. How much for me? How much for you? How much for us? How much for them?

This question about your good and mine is the proper place of the cross in human living. We stand squarely between self and those who share the world with us and experience the tension of “my good” vs. “the good of the others” and we bear the pain. We carry we weight of the anguish of choosing between self and others. Our place is to bear the pain—to bear the cross—of the tension. Our place is to remain in place, to refuse to take refuge in some sheet of “rules to live by”—some “policy statement”— and make a decision, and bear the pain of deciding and living with the consequences of our decision.

Nothing is more important on the Spiritual Journey than bearing the pain of the conflicts that come our way along the way. Conflict is the nature of the path. The Spiritual Journey is really nothing more difficult (or different than) growing up. And there is nothing more difficult than growing up. And we all grow up against our will.

Growing up is talking how things are in one hand, and how we want things to be, wish things were, in the other hand, and, that term again, bearing the pain of the full, conscious, realization of the conflict, discord, opposition, dichotomy, enmity and antagonism between the hands–and getting the two hands together. This is integrating Yin and Yang, balancing the opposites, harmonizing the polarities that constitutes the ongoing, unending, work of being alive.

Things are conflicted to the core. Even with God, or so it is said, with God’s justice not knowing quite what to do with God’s love. Thus, the work of growing up, and the gist of the Spiritual Journey, is reconciliation, integration, harmonization through compassion coming to life in us, and through us, as we step into the conflicts on every side and do the things that make for peace.

Carl Jung said that there are no solutions to the real problems of human existence. Those problems, he said, are not to be solved but out-grown. We grow up through the agonies that have no solution. There is no balm in Gilead, or anywhere else, to protect us from the pain of seeing, hearing, understanding, knowing how things are, and doing what needs to be done about it, in each situation as it arises. This is the Spiritual Journey!

“No one can be my disciple,” said Jesus, “without picking up their cross every day, and living as they have seen me live, facing what must be faced, and doing what needs to be done about it (Or words to that effect).” And, what that means will be something different in each situation as it arises!

Sometimes we will sacrifice ourselves for the sake of others, and sometimes we will sacrifice others for the sake of ourselves. On the basis of what? Maybe, on the basis of nothing more substantial than our mood of the moment. Maybe, it just hasn’t been our turn for a while. Maybe, it’s nothing more reliable than that.

We have to adjust ourselves to the fact of the wholly arbitrary. Our lives are judgment calls all the way. The laws upon which society are based keep us from having to worry with whether to stop on red and go on green, but when it comes to the important matters, we are on our own. We make it up as we go every day. How do we know what to do? We decide without knowing. We may decide differently next time, in the next moment, and we might live tomorrow trying to redeem how we failed today.

At times, we act with the good of ourselves in mind, and at times, we act with the good of others in mind. We cannot always sacrifice ourselves for the sake of others, or others for the sake of ourselves. Sometimes, we do it this way and sometimes, we do it that way. We have to live knowing sometimes us and sometimes the others. We live between our good and the good of those about us, and we choose with everything riding on the choices we make—bearing the pain of having to choose, and the pain of having chosen.

Such is the nature of life on the Spiritual Journey.