The Mystery at the Heart of Life and Being

Something larger than we are flows within us, through us, around us. The connection is stronger, clearer, deeper, in some times and places than in others. In some times and places, there is a veritable YES! coursing through us in response to our life experience. It may be the birth of a child, or making love with your life’s true mate, or walking through a foggy morning in wet woods… An encounter with some form of goodness, beauty, and/or, truth will do it every time (and, the truth doesn’t have to be either good or beautiful—the awesome, destructive terror of an earthquake, or volcano, can work as well).

The shift from “here” to “there” can happen anywhere, any time, but not everywhere, all the time. While transcendent reality is never more than a perspective shift away, some life experiences compel/enable us to make that shift more easily than others. The sense of holy presence—the encounter with numinous reality—is occasioned by experiences that bring us fully into the present moment, and focus us intently on this time, this place. James Joyce referred to this experience as “aesthetic arrest,” and Joseph Campbell talked about the event occasioning the experience as being “transparent to transcendence.”

The transcendent is concealed in, and revealed by, the imminent. Whatever awakens us, and enables us to be fully, deeply, alive, opening us to the wonder of the moment of our present experience, connects us with the divine. If we want to “find God,” we can do no better than by exposing ourselves to the goodness, truth and beauty of our life experience—or, as some have said, by giving ourselves an experience of beauty through art, music and nature.

Another avenue into the presence of That Which Has Always Been Called God is the contemplation/exploration of symbols that are alive for us, connecting us with metaphors that suggest/imply more than can be told of what words cannot say. One way of working with symbols is to place a frame around anything. People use photography to frame various aspects of lived experience, and that is one approach to take: Take a picture!

Or just pretend to have taken a picture! Imagine setting a rock, or a tree, or a person apart for your own personal engagement, and open yourself to the full experience of what you have framed as “That Which Has Come (like the Buddha) Thus So.” Everything so considered connects us with everything. There is something and not nothing! The astounding nature of that realization opens the way to our own experience of “aesthetic arrest” before the mysterium tremendum–the awe-inspiring mystery beyond the grasp of logic and reason.

A second way of using symbols as the connective tissue with the divine is to explore which symbols have the ability to stir something within us–what is symbolic to us of more than words can say? Joseph Campbell suggested that when we have found a symbol that moves us, or calls to us, we should live with it seeking to realize “Of what is it the metaphor?” To what does the symbol refer? Campbell said, “You need to find what the reference of the symbol is. When that is found, you will have the elucidation.”

When we begin seeking the source of our own inner stirring, we will be setting ourselves on a path in which, using the words of the old Alchemists, “One book opens another.” We will think we are looking for a symbols reference, and we will be led into the Field of Wonder where everything is  doorway to something else, and we will discover the amazing truth that Heraclitus articulated centuries ago: “Traveling on every path, you will not find the boundaries of soul by going, so deep is its measure.” And the game is on!

A third approach to symbols is to simply sit quietly and see what arises in the silence. The silence is an ever-present contact point with amazement in that our Unconscious Mind (So called because we are not conscious of it) has access to us there because we are free from “the noise of the 10,000 things,” and can be open to the world seeking us just as we are seeking it.

Sit quietly, watching, waiting, for the things that come to us unbidden in the silence. They might come as images, impressions, urges, occurrences–inviting reflection/realization or serving as calls to action, perhaps with an urgency about it that cannot be denied or ignored–leading us into adventures we would never think up on our own.

Parker Palmer calls these places of encounter with more than words can say, “thin places,” where the invisible world shines through into the visible world of normal, apparent reality, and illumines those with eyes to see in a way they never forget. The knowledge of God, to the extent that the unknowable can be known, begins with the experience of God—and how can we live without experiencing God? That Which Has Always Been Called God is hiding in plain sight, on every side, all the time!

To experience God is to know God, but in a way that cannot be communicated. We cannot explain what we know, or say what we have experienced. Yet, the experience of God, of knowing God through direct, personal experience with transcendent reality, can lead to the alignment of our life with God, to living the life of God, so that, along with Jesus and Paul, we can say “The Father and I are one,” “It is no longer I who live, but Christ who lives in me”–with “Christ” understood, not as the literal, unique, one and only, “Son of God come to atone for the sins of the world,” but as the God-within-us-all.  The God we experience as being “out there,” can, with that shift in perspective, be understood as the source of life, and light, and peace, “in here” and, through the way we live, “out there,” coming to life by the way we live in the world, being incarnated in our lives as was the case in Jesus’ life.

We need to spend less time talking about theology, debating the doctrines and studying the Bible, and more time placing ourselves in the path of experiences of numinous reality through art, music and nature. That is the surest path to knowing God, and living as God in the world, because the knowledge of God is hardly an exact science. Theologians like to speak with the voice of absolute authority, but we all feel our way along here. We say more than we can possibly know. We engage the Mystery, and then proceed to explain it—or, more likely, we never engage the Mystery, someone explains it to us, and tells us to believe what they say.

Someone catches a glimpse of the transcendent source of life, being and value, and draws up a chart of the organizational structure of the universe in outline form, including a time line for handy reference, and hands it out to be memorized, and recited to all people as the way of saving the world. A 3.5 second experience of holiness is good for a lifetime of logical extrapolation and rational deduction. Never mind that God is quickly lost in our explanations of God. The two are one in the minds of those pushing their idea of God, and they will be glad to tell us that it is so.

The first thing we can say about the Mystery is that it is impossible to say anything of substance about the Mystery. The second thing we can say is that whatever we say has to respect and maintain the mysteriousness of the Mystery. We don’t know anything of it beyond our experience of it. How it is structured, whether it has preferences, if it has a plan, and what it does on its days off, we don’t know. Beyond the experience itself, we make it all up.

If we are going to make it all up, and it would be helpful to do so from as broad a base as possible. It would be helpful to acknowledge that we have no business making it all up on our own, alone, cut off from all the others who have made, and are making, it all up. No one has the last word. One person’s guess is as good as another’s. That being the case, lay all the words, and all the guesses, from all the traditions through the ages, out on the table, and get as large a picture as possible regarding who we all think, and have thought, God is. Listen to the traditions, and let each person be drawn to that which rings true to them.

Listening to the traditions led Aldos Huxley to formulate “the perennial philosophy,” a compilation, of sorts, of the common points of a wide number of views of God—but, there is nothing sacrosanct about Huxley’s list. Different writers emphasize different things. The important point is to have a view of God that takes into account other views of God, and sees that our view of God is not to be confused with, or taken for, God. Our idea of God is not God, and Meister Eckhart said, “The highest, greatest, and final leave-taking is leaving God for God”!

God is beyond all views of God. Mystery is the ground of life, being and value. The source is essentially unknown and unknowable. And, yet, there is the ache, the urge, to draw close to God, to live aligned with the way of God, so that our heart beats in sync with the heart of Mystery, and our soul is at-one with the Soul of all that is, and has been, and will be, visible and invisible, worlds without end.

We live with the Mystery, and with the yearning for the Mystery, knowing that we do not know what we long to know, yet, living toward our best guess regarding who God is, and who God would have us be in each situation as it arises. In this, there can be no separation between knowing, doing and being.

As we live toward what we think we know of God, we incorporate God-like-ness into our way with life, and deepen our knowledge of God. We live into the Mystery of God—we do not think our way there. And, when we talk about what we know of the Mystery, our words sound like nonsense to those who don’t know what we are talking about, who have had no experience of the Mystery, and do not know whereof we speak. We can but speak in paradoxes and riddles, and are of no help to the unknowing ones.

“Take up your cross,” says Jesus, “and follow me.” That’s the directive. That’s the map. That’s the explanation. Dying to our idea of God even as we strive to follow God. As Martin Palmer would say, “The path that can be discerned as a path is not a reliable path! And, the God that can be discerned as God is not a reliable God. If we want to know God, we have to live in ways that are as God-like as we can manage, and the Mystery will unfold before us, one step at a time.

Of course, this is the hardest thing we will ever do, because we cannot be “born anew” without dying. Resurrection hinges upon our willingness to die. We die literally when we cease to breathe, and that happens only once. We die metaphorically when we move beyond one way of life into another–beyond one idea/realization to another. I expand Meister Eckhard’s insight quoted above to say, “The second highest, greatest, and next-to last leave-taking is leaving our life for our Life!

How we work that out tells the tale. But, we don’t get to the final chapter without passing through the next-to-last one, and the one before that.

Living Our Life

Jacob Bronowski said, “If you want to know the truth, you have to live in certain ways.” He meant you have to live truthfully. You can’t know the truth if you are kidding yourself about wanting to know the truth, if you aren’t willing to look the truth straight in the eye. If, in the words of Col. Nathan R. Jessup in the movie A Few Good Men, “You can’t handle the truth,” you’ll never know the truth.

We cannot say we are seeking the truth when we are seeking only to confirm our convictions, whether those convictions pertain to the superiority of the Caucasian race, or to the superiority of orthodox Christian dogma. If we live in the service of truth, we have to be open to what our explorations uncover, to what our experience shows us to be true, no matter what our preferences might be. We have to stand apart from our assumptions and prejudices—our prejudgments—in order to know the truth. We have to take the blinders off and live in ways that are truthful—in ways that do not deny or hide from any aspect of truth—if we want to know the truth.

The Bronowski principle applies to knowing God. If we want to know God, we have to live in certain ways. If we want to know God, we have to live a godly life, but. This does not mean what you think it means.

You think a godly life is morally pure. Not so. Jesus was called a glutton and a winebibber, and a son of Satan. Jesus was accused of blasphemy, heresy and sedition. Jesus was out of accord with every Book of Order of his day. Jesus was as far from the traditional understanding of moral purity as a person could be (“You have heard it said…But I say unto you”). The scribes and Pharisees, on the other hand, were morally pure to the core—“as to keeping the Law they were perfect”—and they knew nothing of God.

A godly life has nothing to do with moral purity. A godly life has everything to do with living so aligned with the life that is truly our life to live, with the life that needs us to live it, with the life that only we can live—so intent on doing what truly needs to be done in each situation as it arises—that God couldn’t live it any better than we are living it, couldn’t do it any better than we are doing it. When we live like that—living the life that is our life to live, and doing what truly needs to be done in the situation as it arises—we say along with Jesus, “The Father and I are one.” We are one with “the Father” when we are one with the life that is our life to live–when we are living life the way life needs to be lived in each situation as it arises.

When something helps you live the life that is your life to live, it helps you with your relationship with God. When it helps you with your relationship with God, it helps you with the life that is your life to live. Our life flows from our relationship with God, our relationship with God flows from our life. The two things are one. But, there is a problem.

The problem is that the life that is our life to live is not the life we have in mind for ourselves. This was Adam and Eve’s problem, and it is our problem. We suffer from a conflict of interests at the core. There is the life we are built for—the life that needs us to live it—and there is the life we want to live, the life we dream of living, the life we wish were our life to live. Which life will it be? Whose side are we on?

This is a tough one, this, whose side are we on question, If we get it right, it’s smooth sailing all the way (If we don’t take the Golgothas and the Calvaries seriously). But, it’s a hard one to get right, because we think we know what we are doing. We think we know best. We think we have our true interest at heart. All of this in complete denial of the evidence to the contrary, which establishes without the slightest doubt that fooling ourselves is what we do best, no, telling ourselves what we want to hear is what we do best, no, letting ourselves off the hook is what we do best, no, shooting ourselves in the foot is what we do best…

If anything is clear about us it is that we do not have our own best interest at heart, but we are sure that we do. It is hard for us to give that up, to hand that over, to say, along with Jesus, “Thy will, not mine, be done.” This is the hardest thing. We need help with it. And that’s exactly what we get, the help we need—if we have what it takes to take what is offered.

Carl Jung says, “In every one of us there is another whom we do not know.” I call this other within our “Invisible Twin.” Our Invisible Twin knows who we are, and who we are to be, what the life is that is our life to live, and what kind of help we need to live it—and is there to offer it, but. We want nothing to do with this invisible other. We want what we want and not what we ought to want. This is my definition of sin, by the way, wanting what we want and not what we ought to want. I have another definition of sin that means the same thing: Sin is being wrong about what’s important. We think the wrong things are important. It takes a lot of living to get all of this straight. We are stubborn to a fault, and are sure that what we want IS important, so it takes a while.

And all the while, our Invisible Twin knows what’s what—what we ought to want, what’s truly important, what we ought to be doing with our lives. But, we’ll have none of it. We know what we want and we will have it or else. This makes the transition from the life that we want to live to the life that is truly ours to live like dying. It is a terrible thing to get to the point of saying along with Jesus, “Thy will, not mine be done.” We have to be at the end of our rope, to say that, to hit bottom. We have to die, to say that—not literally, but metaphorically. It is a handing over of ourselves, of all that we have thought was important. It is a surrender, a recognition that we aren’t all that smart after all, and need help with our lives. It is at this point that our Invisible Twin provides us with exactly the help we need.

Who is this Invisible Twin? You could call him Jesus, the Son of God, the Christ within. Or you could call her Mary, the Mother of God. Or you could call this Twin the Holy Spirit that blows where it will. Or you could call our Twin, as Jesus did, “the Father.” Our Twin is as close to God as we can get, and is as much of God as we may be able to know. Our Invisible Twin stands ready to help us with all that we need to live the life that is our life to live, to do what needs to be done in serving what is truly important in each situation as it arises, all our life long. “In each of us there is another, whom we do not know.” And it is our responsibility to know her, to know him, to know what she knows, to know what he knows, and, with her help, with his help, to find the life that is truly our life to live, and live it.

Now, the life that is our life to live may have nothing to do with what we do to pay the bills—but, it is what we pay the bills to do. We may pay the bills with one life, and live the life that is truly our life to live with another life. We pay the bills with our day job, and do the work that is truly ours to do on the side, after hours, as we are able. We have to work it out, when to do what. Working it out involves integrating the opposites, reconciling the contradictions, managing our responsibilities, coming to terms with how things are, and how they also are, living in accord with the Tao by balancing/harmonizing Yin and Yang… This is not easy. This is the Hero’s Journey, the Spiritual Quest—not a soft stroll through the flowers of spring.

All of the epic hero stories are about this very thing. They are about us, the life that is our life to live, and the life we wish were ours to live. We stand between the lives, which do we choose? Whose side are we on? The struggle here is with ourselves. This is Jesus in the wilderness struggling with which life he is going to live, and again in Gethsemane, same struggle. Which life is it going to be?

Joseph Campbell said, “It took the Cyclops to bring out the hero in Ulysses.” The Cyclops has many manifestations. Deciding which life we are going to live in the moment of our living is one manifestation of the Cyclops in our life. Struggling to live the life that is our life to live within the terms and conditions of our life is another manifestation of the Cyclops. We have no reason to expect it to be easy. Luke Skywalker against the Dark Side, Harry Potter against Voldemort, Frodo against Sauron, and you against all that is not easy about your life. This is how things are. Do not let it get you down.

You have all you need to do what needs to be done in each situation as it arises. You have an Invisible Twin who is quite able to help you in the work that is yours to do. You can rely upon her, upon him, entirely. Jesus said, “I came that you might have life and have it abundantly.” And he said, “I will not abandon you or leave you desolate.” Jesus came to connect us with the life that is our life to live by living out before us the life that was his life to live, trusting us to get the idea. True life, abundant life, is found in living the life that needs us to live it, the life that we are built to live, born to live—the life that only we can live. Our work, the Hero’s Journey and the Spiritual Quest—all these are the same thing—is to find our life and live it. No other life will do.

Jesus does not offer us abundant life so that we can go our merry way, doing the things that are important to us. Those who would be his disciples must pick up their cross daily and follow him—and their cross is the burden of living the life that is their life to live, not some other, better, brighter, shinier life. Our cross is bringing forth the life that needs us to live it within the terms and conditions of life as it is. The cross is a metaphor for how difficult it is to integrate the opposites, and reconcile the contradictions, and work it all out. The help that we get from the invisible world does not make things easy—it enables us to do what is hard.

Your parents divorce, or your job is outsourced to India, or the lab report confirms a malignancy. Makes you want to quit. Makes you want to take off your glove, and slam it into the dust and say, “If you don’t stop hitting me these hard ground balls, I’m done with this game!”

Look, this is heroic stuff that we are doing. Frodo felt the same way we feel. So did Harry Potter, and Luke Skywalker, and Jesus. But, when we put on the uniform, and pick up the glove, and step onto the field, we have to expect hard ground balls, and be ready for one right after another. When we get out of bed each morning and step into our lives, we have to expect it to not be easy. This is hero’s work we are doing. Of course, it will not be easy!

James Hollis said that his experience playing tackle on his high school football team taught him that no matter how badly he got run over by the opposing lineman on the last play, he had to get up and get ready for the next play. This is how our life is. This is the way things are. It isn’t fair, and it isn’t fun much of the time, but this is it—we have to live the life that needs us to live it within this context and these circumstances. And do it every day for the rest of our life. The good news is that we have all we need to do it if we will believe that we do, and trust it to be so, and act like it is.

Joseph Campbell said, “We know when we are on the beam and when we are off of it.” That’s all we need to know. When we are living the life that needs us to live it, we are on the beam. When we are doing what truly needs us to do it in each situation as it arises, we are on the beam. When we are on the beam, we find what we need to live the life that only we can live. We may not find more than we need, but we will find what we need. This is the lesson of the manna in the wilderness, and of Jesus’ promise, “I will not leave you desolate.” It does not apply to us when we live any old way we want, only when we step on the beam and say from the heart, “Thy will, not mine, be done,” and live to align ourselves with what our Invisible Twin knows is the path with our name on it.

If you are going to believe in anything, believe in the beam, in the life that needs you to live it, in the path with your name on it, and in the “invisible means of support” that is always with us to assist us along the way. Trust that you will have all you need as you work to find your life and live it—to stay on the beam. Your life may not be easy, but the world will be transformed by your work, and your life will be interesting and meaningful all the way—which would never have been the case if you had lolled poolside the whole time, drinking fruit smoothies.

The Heart of What Matters Most

The word “God,” is among the most useless of words because its meaning is lost on us. Whose God are we talking about when we talk about God? Whose idea of God is under consideration? Fundamentalist Christians have an idea about God. Fundamentalist Muslims have a different idea about God. Reformed Jews have a different idea about God. Who is right about who God is? Can you imagine a convention of all those who have deep-seated and heart-felt ideas about God coming together to decide the right way to think about God?

The word God means too much to mean anything. The word conjures up for some of us old memories, old wounds, bad experiences—and some of us want to run when we hear it. It reflects a world-view and a thousand theologies that are no longer sustainable, much less, helpful. We have lived beyond the way our ancestors thought about God, and, to use the word faithfully, we have to spend so much time saying what we don’t mean that no one can be sure of, or remember, what we do mean.

Doctrinal definitions are “noisy gongs and clanging cymbals.” To say who God is and who God isn’t just adds more ingredients to a stew we cannot stomach, adds more confusion to our lives, and keeps a harangue going that outlived its usefulness long ago. To replace an old doctrine with an updated doctrine merely perpetuates the practice of creating a swirl of words without referents. We debate the doctrines, and lose the center, and treat those who oppose us in ways that are not God-like regardless of how well we articulate our view of God.

We don’t need another Doctrine of God to add to the pile. We need to torch the pile. We need to learn to live aligned with the center of what matters most. We need help connecting with the heart of highest value, with the essence of what is essential, with the core of what is crucial, with the soul of life itself. With the bedrock, the rhizome, from which we all come.

If we lived out of that connection, it would be a different world. Because we cannot do that, because we cannot live aligned with the center of what matters most, we hate each other, and blow each other up, and live in ways that refuse to take the best interest of the other into account. A life lived out of the center of what matters most is the thing the world is starving for. The world does not need another idea of God. It needs people who are living God-like lives.

Who is the most Godly person you know? Why isn’t it you?

In light of what do we live? What makes us think that is worthy of us? What are we doing to see into the heart of highest value? In what ways are we endeavoring to experience, connect with, and express that which is truly important?

To begin to answer these questions is to live toward the heart of what matters most. It is to listen for what is being asked of us, to search for what is of highest value. It is to live organically, dynamically, creatively, in relationship with the moment of our living, unfolding there that which may never have been expressed anywhere ever. It is to live without a script in the service of the good. It is to live connected at the level of the heart with all other hearts, and with the heart of life itself, with the heart of the process that is the foundation of life and being.

The miracle, the wonder, of life is the process by which we come to life, and are alive. This process evolved the gene, and the gene evolved consciousness, and consciousness impacts both the gene and the process, in a feedback loop that creates turbulence, chaos and more possibilities than there were at the beginning, which, itself, is an amazing thing to consider.

Not only that, but consciousness also intuits, glimpses, hunches, suspects, feels, a world–or worlds–beyond consciousness, a world–or worlds–beyond the world of normal, apparent, tangible reality, a world which is—or worlds which are—also a part of the process. Or perhaps, how’s this for an idea, is responsible for the process. Consciousness apprehends a heart at the center of the process, or beyond it; consciousness apprehends love at the center, or beyond it, compassion at the core, or beyond it. Whether at the center, or beyond the center, matters not. Apprehending the heart, wherever it is, and living aligned with it is what matters most. This is also living in accord with the Tao of life and being, and fully aligned with God’s will for our life.

Through consciousness, through awareness, we are involved in a relationship with a process which deepens both us and the process—which brings both us and the process—into greater harmony with each other, and enables the recognition and expression of values that are at the heart of life and being. “Values at the heart of things—lived out in our lives.” Consider that, if you will. Ponder that. Imagine that. It’s a different way of thinking about God, and about Incarnation.

The process creates the means of its own evolution, of its own realization. The process evokes its own becoming. Through the long years of the process, of life living toward itself, toward the realization of itself, the values at the heart of the process are perceived, what is truly important is clarified, what matters most is envisioned, identified, and served.

We advance the process toward the realization of the good that is at the heart of the process. We become one with the process in the service of the good of all of life. In living without a script in the service of the good, in the service of life, we produce—we participate in the production of—a wonder we could not begin to imagine before experiencing it.

If this doesn’t do it for you, come up something that does! We have to represent our experience of reality to ourselves somehow. We have to say something about how we think things are, or might be, and where we think things are going, and what part we might be playing in The Whole Show. We have to make sense of things as well as we are able. That much is certainly part of the process, that much certainly cannot be denied, this sense-making, order-finding, pattern-seeing, structure-producing, relationship-creating, capacity that is our gift—the gift of conscious awareness—to creation.

And the development of consciousness past the point of simply passing the genes along—to the point of being able to set self aside in the service of that which is perceived to be greater than self, greater than survival, greater than life—this, too, cannot be denied. The process has carried us beyond where the process needed us to go if genes making more genes were all the process had in mind. Evolution continues. The movement is toward the world that is beyond the ordinary world of normal, apparent reality. The process is a thoroughly spiritual enterprise, carrying us into the realms of mystery, wonder and awe—into the heart of goodness, beauty and truth—and the Source of Life and Being.

The Holy Mother

The Feast of the Assumption doesn’t get much press—good or bad—these days. It may have received such little press in your lifetime that you would be hard pressed to say what it is. It is the celebration of the day the Blessed Mother was gathered to the Eternal Habitations. Holy Mary, Mother of God.

Protestant Christians don’t have much to do with the Holy Mother, and many Roman Catholics distance themselves from her because they can’t believe the stories about her, and are somewhat ashamed to be connected through her to such a superstitious past. Here is, perhaps, the clearest, most wonderful imaginable example of how the insistence on a literal understanding of the tenets of religion destroys the heart of religion. The stories of Mary are not believable, we say, because they cannot be true. What we mean is that they cannot be true because they cannot be factual. That last sentence represents the sad loss of imagination for those of us who are children of the rational, intellectual, culture of the west. It represents, as well, the loss of heart and soul. And, we think we have what it takes to be spiritual.

We do not have what it takes to be spiritual as long as we insist that in order for something to be true it has to be actual, tangible, factual, and, hence, real—and that something symbolic, mythological, or metaphorical, cannot be real, or true.

We do not have what it takes to be spiritual as long as we insist that in order for something to be true it has to be historically verifiable. The truth of the matter is that truth has no necessary connection with that which can be observed, weighed, measured, counted, and independently corroborated by expert witnesses. For example, is the moon a white marble floating on a black velvet sea, or not?

But, I digress. I wish we could get together each year to celebrate the Feast of the Assumption for at least three reasons. One is that it would be good to spend some time with all of you, to listen to one another’s stories, to talk about the path that led us together. I would enjoy that. Getting to know you, getting to know each other, the highs, and the lows, the lessons learned and the discoveries made, the joys and the sorrows of our life to this point. The simple act of sharing time with people who may be enough like we are to listen with understanding to what we have to say, and to trust us to hear with understanding what they have to say—I’d like that.

The second reason is that if anybody has a chance to celebrate the wonder of the Holy Mother, it is the people who have made it to this point in this book and are still reading. We can be trusted to know that the real Mary was no more a virgin than any of us are, and that Jesus’ conception was no more immaculate than our own. Yet, we can in all candor, honesty, truth, and sincerity say, from the heart, “Hail Mary, full of grace, the Lord is with you. Blessed are you among women and blessed is the fruit of your womb. Holy Mary, mother of God, pray for us sinners, now and at the hour of our death.” We can with complete integrity, celebrate the Mother, the Birth, and the Son, because we know the deeper truth revealed in, and symbolized by, these images.

The third reason is that we can acknowledge along with that of Mary, the Assumption of all of those who have lived and died in the service of that which was greater than they were. In remembering and celebrating Mary’s dying, we remember and celebrate all those whose life made a difference-for-the-good in our lives, and in the life of the world.

The Holy Mother is the mother of us all, in a spiritual sense, and a physical sense. And we are all Mary, the Mother of God, in a spiritual sense, and a physical sense. Mary is at once external to us and internally of us. Mary is external to us in the sense that we cannot do it alone, and in the sense that we are not alone. Mary is externalized in the form of the community, in the persons of those who reach out to us, who birth us, nurture us, swaddle us, and bring life and hope to life within us. Mary is personified in the presence of those who are our life, and light, and peace.

Mary is internally of us, is within us, in that we are the ones who say, “Yes, may it be so!” We are the ones who hear, and hearing, do not scoff, or cynically denounce, or turn and run. Mary is experienced internally as courage, and wonder, and trust, and love. The Mary within is the creative openness to experience, the capacity to see beyond the ordinary routines and the hopeless drudgery of our lives into the heart of life, and behold the astounding marvel of being alive.

When we find, and align ourselves with, the Mary within and the Mary without, we have what it takes to be spiritual. We are not alone. And we know our calling, our purpose, is the same as that of the Blessed Mother—we all are the Mother of God. God is coming to life in us, and through us, into all the world.

Every birth in the spirit is a virgin birth, every coming to life in the spiritual sense of the term, is an Immaculate Conception. We are, in the words of Jesus to Nicodemus, “born from above.” We are not responsible for our own birthing. It is a miracle, every time.

With each of us, there are two births: Our physical birth and our spiritual birth. Everyone is born “of water and blood”—that would be the blood of the delivery room, of our physical birth, and the water of life flowing up from the wellspring of living water to bring our physical body to the fullness of life in the spiritual sense of our having life and having it abundantly.

We can live without being alive. Just because we are living doesn’t mean we are alive. Just because we are 98.6 and breathing, just because we are upright and intact, just because we can “sit up and take nourishment,” just because we can walk to the post office and to the bank, doesn’t mean we are alive. Being alive in the fullest, deepest, surest sense of the term is the essence of spirituality, and it is a gift “of the spirit,” a gift “from above.”

It isn’t about believing anything. It’s about a shift in perspective. It’s like an optical illusion, except that it is as real as it gets. You look one minute, and there is life, and you look the next minute, and there is being alive. You walk over to the crib and pick up the baby, or the grand-baby, and it hits you, and you will never be the same. You go to the dairy section of the grocery store and, reaching for a carton of eggs, your eyes catch the eyes of the person next to you, and there is an experience of seeing and being seen that is remembered forever, and changes everything, though no words are ever spoken, and you never meet one another again—yet the memory is a source of life and goodness for the rest of your days upon the earth.

You see the same old thing that you have always seen, yet you see it in a way that exposes, reveals, discloses, more than you have ever seen. You hear the cows coming to the barn again, yet, you hear it for the first time ever, and are reborn into a world of amazing wonders. It happens in a million ways, and none of them have to do with doctrine, with catechism classes, with being instructed in the creeds and the confessions of faith, or with memorizing the Books of the Bible in order. We are living, and then we are alive, and like that, we see, and hear, and know, and understand, yet, we can’t say what we do to effect the seeing, or hearing, or knowing, or understanding.

This is an Immaculate Conception! An experience of Grace! A Virgin Birth! Ave Maria! We are all Mary, the Mother of God, God being born in us and through us as a blessing unto all the world.

The Wall of Death

There was nothing about being born from above, or toeing the straight and narrow, or minding your P’s and Q’s when Abraham was taking God up on the deal for progeny and promised lands. It was just a straightforward “I’ll be your God, and you’ll be my people” kind of understanding. There was nothing about keeping the law, or believing everything in the Westminster Longer (or Shorter) Catechism, in order to get—and stay—right with God. In the beginning, things were not as they came to be. It is a principle that is valid and true everywhere in our lives.

Today, the world is different from the world we were born into. Tomorrow, the world will be different from today. It may well be different enough for us to notice the difference immediately. “Hey!” we may say upon getting out of bed, “Who changed my life over night?”

Streets are re-routed, baseball stadiums are built, and old ones become parking lots, new housing developments crop up where woods and pastures once were, our hearts quit working, cancer is diagnosed… The list is long. We cannot count on anything staying the same very long. You might think we would get used to it. We don’t. We buck and snort at the very idea every time. Change that is thrust on us without our permission is one of the things we hate most about our lives. We grow less tolerant of it as time goes by.

We become accustomed to the way things are. It becomes exactly our idea of how things ought to be. Our expectations are often disheveled by a simple unannounced turn of events. This isn’t what we are looking for! This isn’t how things are supposed to be! Where are the monkeys? Where are the clowns? What kind of circus is this, anyway? Once we begin to impose our idea of circus on the experience at hand, we cut ourselves off from the experience, and wander lost among the ruins of what once was our life.

When the map we are using no longer fits the territory, we have to update the map. We have to let go of how it used to be, and accommodate ourselves to how things are. There used to be a dairy farm where the shopping center is, and a feed and seed store where the exit ramp is—or, maybe not. There were hills here then, everything has been leveled, and it’s hard to know where anything was. The trick is to stop trying to orient ourselves in this world based on our fond recollections of that world. To have a chance in this world, we have to let that world go.

If we were space explorers stepping into the landscape of a new planet, we would not be disturbed to find that things were different than they were in the world of our origin. We would expect differences, embrace them, experience them, wonder about them, open ourselves to them, and see what we could learn from them. The truth is that we are explorers, getting out of bed each morning, stepping into the landscape of a new world. There is much to be learned in it—much to be gained from it. Life is unfolding before us, opening up, waiting for us to open up in return, so that it might show us unexpected wonders, and introduce us to magnificence beyond imagining.

We are looking for the monkeys and the clowns, and our life is tugging at us, trying to get our attention, so that it might take us through Tomorrow World and beyond—and perhaps give us a spin on the Wall of Death.

The Wall of Death, made famous by the song with that title by Richard Thompson, is a motorcycle ride that is a step or two beyond carousels, guaranteed to provide you with thrills and chills, and maybe, spills, aplenty.

I’m using the term, “Wall of Death,” as a synonym for being “born from above”—because the new life “from above,” will eat your old life alive. Or did you think the metaphors of Gethsemane, and Golgotha, have nothing to do with you transitioning from your old life to your new life?

Death is the prerequisite for life. In dying on the cross, Jesus is saying, “This is the way it is done! Come, follow me!” Somehow we missed that in all of the Bible studies, sermons and Sunday school lessons. The Spiritual Journey is a remedial course in how thing are. First we die, to how we thought things are, then we live, going, “Ohhhh… So this is how things are!”

This is a good place to recall Joseph Campbell’s words: “That which you seek lies far back in the darkest corner of the cave you most don’t want to enter.” We have to die in order to live.

Nicodemus went to talk to Jesus at night, perhaps to keep from being seen, and  is startled to hear that his old, comfortable, staid religion has been superseded by a lusty, young, start-up faith of the streets and market place. We are always stunned and undone to discover a new world has replaced the old one overnight. However, once we understand the Bible as the history of the evolution of the idea of God, it all begins to fall into place. Jesus stands before us all and says, “What you seek is in the back of the cave.”

The God the writer we call Second Isaiah perceived was radically different from the warrior God of Moses. The God Jesus called Father, was radically different from the God who sent Elijah to destroy the prophets of Baal. Nicodemus has to confront the fact that what he has always thought has to be re-thought, re-formed, transcended, in order to keep pace with the power of life that is always breaking out of history to transform the world again, with the spirit that is “like the wind that blows where it will.”

Jesus tells Nicodemus he has to take his chances in a world that is different from the world he has always known. God is up to something outside of the Temple! Outside of Jerusalem, God forbid! Out there in the wilderness of Galilee, of all places, and beyond!

God is stirring things up and making all things new! There is a fresh, innovative spirit blowing over the face of the deep, and Jesus is the harbinger of things to come, the merchandiser of new wine skins, the ticket master of the Wall of Death.

Being born from above means taking our chances. It all starts with being open to the moment, with our being alert to the nuances of the time that is at hand. Jesus’ indictment was that the people did not know “the time of their visitation.” They were looking for something else. They were looking for the comfortable old depictions of the Messiah to be unfolded before their eyes—but the Messiah wasn’t who they thought he would be.

Fred Craddock said the message of the Messiah is: “There is no Messiah!” There is no one to do for us what we must do for yourselves! And Meister Eckhart said, “The final leave-taking is leaving God for God.”

We all have to “take our chances on the Wall of Death.” We each must make our way to the back of the cave we most don’t want to enter! What we want is not what we get. The first thing that has to go is our idea of how it ought to be—and, that’s generally the last thing that goes.

We like our little nests. We like our comfortable constructions regarding who God is, and how the church is supposed to be. When it doesn’t feel like “church” to us, we blame the liturgy, or the hymns, or the sermons. We don’t allow our resistance, our objections, to show us anything about ourselves. We don’t open ourselves readily to new experiences that are capable, if we let them, of leading to surprising reversals, inexpressible wonders, and amazing revelations.

We cannot look at the world in the same way we have always looked at the world and see how the world has changed. We have to see the world with new eyes if we hope to see a new world, if we hope to see the world that is blooming, budding, and unfolding before us. To have a chance of seeing more than we have ever seen before, we are going to have to expose ourselves to new ways of looking, new ways of perceiving, new ways of experiencing—all of which are part and parcel of knowing “the time of our visitation,” and being “born from above,” and going for a life-long ride on the Wall of Death.

Will we do it, is the question. Can we do it, is the other question. Can we die to one way of life in order to live to another? Will we?

Will we set theology, and doctrine, and dogma aside, and embrace full emptiness, step into the silence, sit quietly in the stillness, and wait to see what emerges? And follow where it leads? And go where it sends us? And become who it asks us to be?

It would be like dying to be empty, quiet, and still, long enough to hear, would it not? To reflect on “the cave we most don’t want to enter” long enough for new realizations to arise? To look, and keep on looking, long enough to see?

Who has time for that? “Just tell us what to believe, Preacher, and make it short, I tee off at 12:15!” There’s no time for dying in that frame of mind!

An empty chair in the silent stillness can be the cave we most don’t want to enter. The Wall of Death has few takers. The Way waits for a traveler with what the journey requires: “Sit down, be quiet. Wait in the stillness to see what emerges, for as long as it takes.”

The Source and the Void

We have exactly the same access to the Source of Life and Being, to the presence of the sacred, to the Numen, as anyone ever.

They weren’t closer to the Source in the old days—they weren’t holier than we are, or wiser. Their only advantage over us was that they had fewer illusions/distractions/escapes with which to contend. They were more dependent upon their connection with the Source than we are. We have MasterCard, and 401-K’s, and all the other cushions we have created to protect us from the encroaching terrors. We have buffers standing between us and the Void. We have Global Positioning Systems to direct our steps. They only had what they knew of the numinous reality–for the mystery–that has always been called God.

There is much to be said for being stuck with only the Numen for a resource. It sharpens our intuitive powers, and heightens our feel for things. We can much better read the signs pointing out the way—we can much better sense the divine flow—we are much better oriented toward how things are, and how things truly ought to be—when we actually need to know those things, and don’t have anything else to divert our attention from the fact of our need for them, or offer competing directions or inauthentic pulls and pushes.

When we don’t have much in the way of personal resources, we don’t waste time trying to bring our will to bear upon the world of space and time, to have our way realized upon the earth. When we are helpless, and know we are helpless, we are much more likely to cooperate with what has need of us. The more power we think we have, the more our own needs and interests come into play, and we spend our time trying to effect our will for how we want things to be, and are not interested in a will that might be different from our own.

On the other hand, the percentage of those who were attuned to the presence and direction of the Source of Life and Being among the ancient population was probably no greater than the percentage of those so attuned among the present population. They had their own distractions, and their own ideas about how their life should be—and kept Shamans on hand to tell them what would please the invisible forces, and keep their food sources close at hand.

Whether then, or now, the proximity of the Source to both populations is exactly the same. The experience of the numinous reality that has always been called God is no farther from us now than it was then. The only thing that has ever been standing between us and the experience of that reality is ourselves. We only have to get out of the way, and we find the invisible world where it has always been: Right There!

It simplifies things if we understand there is only one thing about ourselves that we have to give up: Illusion. We have to hand over the illusion of power, the illusion of independence, the illusion of self-reliance, the illusion of control, the illusion of knowing where we are going, what we are doing.

No power, no control—that’s the reality. Here’s the illusion: I’m in charge. I’m in command. I’m the Master of my own fate, the Captain of my own destiny. The illusion is a tough one to hand over—it’s generally the last thing that goes, but, we aren’t going to know the Source until we know in our bones that apart from the Source there is nothing.

“Nothing” is another name for the Void. There is the world of normal, apparent reality. There is the reality of the invisible world—the experience of the numinous, the Numen, the sacred Source of Life and Being. And, there is the Void. That’s it. That is absolute, total, complete, final, real, ultimate reality. There is nothing between Us (That would be the visible world) and the Void, but the Source (That would be the invisible world).

This is the knowing that makes the Source, the invisible world, real in our lives. And, you can imagine, if you let yourself, how awful it is to come to the place of that knowing. To do that, we have to be stripped of all that we place between ourselves and the experience of the Void. The great mass of things we have gathered around us to protect us from the awareness of the Void is also what keeps us from the awareness of the Source. It’s what we depend on to make life grand—to make life fun, meaningful, enjoyable and worthwhile.

We see life-as-we-have-constructed-and-know-it as providing protection from the Void. We wrap it around us, we immerse ourselves in our relationships, achievements, possessions, acquisitions, and think, “Now we have it made! The Void can’t get us now!” Yet, it only takes one little something—say, the physicians telling us that our child has a month to live—for all of it to mean nothing. All that we place between ourselves and the Void is actually emptiness just waiting to be recognized. It doesn’t protect us from anything. It’s an extension of the Void. It’s the Void in disguise. It’s the Void setting us up to be totally devastated when it becomes apparent to us that there is nothing to any of it.

From one point of view, to say that there is nothing to any of it, suggests that the Void is everywhere and that it is hopeless, pointless, and makes no sense to go on. From another point of view, to say that there is nothing to any of it is to say that, nestled in the wonder of numinous reality, we know that the Void is there, and from the standpoint of our presence with the Presence, we know that, guess what, there is nothing to it. There is nothing to Nothing! That’s what we know in the presence of the Source of Life and Being. We have nothing to lose, and nothing to gain. We have it all, and can lose none of it, because it is all right here, wrapped up in being present with that which can be sensed, and known, but not said, and explained, or understood.

This isn’t to discount our losses. It isn’t to say they aren’t real, or that we shouldn’t do what we can to avoid tragedy, calamity, and hard rows to hoe. We should do everything we can to make things as good as they can be for ourselves and others, using the things at our disposal to do that. The ethical principle is to live as extensions of Numinous Presence in the world, using what we find there in the service of those ends.

We bring the values at the heart of life and being to life in the physical world. We live to express the amazing wonder of life within the world of space and time. And that means bearing the pain of the tension between worlds—between conflict and disparity between worlds—between what needs to happen in this world of space and time and what is actually possible here. This is the agony of God that we bring forth in our own life, much as Jeremiah did in his life (“O land, land, land! Hear the word of the Lord!”), and as Jesus did in his life (“How long am I to bear with you? How long must I put up with you and your hard-headed refusal to care or to understand?”). We live caught between what needs to be done, and what can be done, and do what we can.

Joseph Campbell summed up the Bhagavad-Gita as saying, “Get in there and do your thing, and don’t worry about the outcome!” This has to be our response to the clash between worlds—between realities. We get in there and do our thing, and let the outcome be the outcome!

We come into the world as a bundle of libido—life energy—dying to be expended before we die. Expended in the simple effort to meet our life straight on, and do our best with what confronts us in each day!

But, instead, we dodge all that can be dodged, and escape the rest, frittering life away on trivial pursuits, looking for smooth and easy, avoiding life’s pain and troubles (And denying what cannot be avoided), as libido waits, panics, seethes and schemes to find ways of expressing itself while there is yet time.

Time is life’s only hope. Time is all life has. If time isn’t spent living—in the fullest sense of the word—time is lost, never to be regained. The unpardonable sin is life un-lived.

Carl Jung said, “It is the sole purpose of the libido to strive forever forward—to lead a life that willingly accepts all dangers and ultimate decay” (or words to that effect).

If we refuse to cooperate with life’s purpose to be lived, if we hold back, hide from the terrors of the night, fail to sail into the heaving waves of the wine-dark sea, and have nothing to do with the dreaded responsibilities and duties incumbent upon those who would find their own way and pay the price—if we say no to life, life says no to us, and we die dreaming of a life we never lived, because we didn’t have the courage to meet the day’s demands, and take our lumps, and rack up our losses—laughing and loving it all, every bit, every day—life, just as it is!

Our place is to wake up to all of this and say, “We have done what we have done, and here we are.” We have to make our peace with that, and do what needs to be done in this moment, as well as we can make that out, and do it as well as we can do it, and let that be that—and go on doing what needs to be done in each moment, as well as we can make that out… For the rest of our life.

We live what remains of our life consciously, mindfully, as expressions of the values at the heart of life in the world of normal, apparent reality. In the world of normal, apparent, reality there is good and there is bad, there is gain and there is loss, there is advantage and there is disadvantage. In the physical world, our losses are real losses. We cannot discount them, or deny their impact by saying that in the invisible world there is nothing to be lost, and nothing to be gained. Here our losses are real, and must be mourned and grieved as such. Here our losses have to be feared and, to the extent possible, prevented. And here, perspective and orientation come into play.

We can live to insulate ourselves against the intrusion of the Void, or we can live to celebrate, experience, and express the reality of the presence of the sacred in the shadow of the Void, without being obsessed with the Void, or terrified by it. Living as expressions of sacred presence implicates us in the service of the good. We live to deepen the experience of the good in the lives of all people. This is fundamentally different from living to deny the reality of The Void, to avoid the experience of emptiness and loss, and to keep the truth of sorrow and suffering away.

To serve the good, and live as extensions of sacred presence, is to step into the heart of the Void with those whose life experience takes them there; it is to live with the Void as those who know there is nothing to it; as those who know it is not the ultimate reality that it pretends to be. It is to live as those who know that beyond the Void, at the heart of the Void, there is sacred presence, and goodness, and life.

It is to live in the world of physical reality as those who understand there is nothing to lose and nothing to gain—and as those who do not say that because of the ease with which that is misunderstood as discounting the reality of pain, suffering, loss and sorrow, which are very real in the Physical Realm and not to be denied. But, they are also not to be feared by those who know there is nothing to the Void, because the ultimate truth is the presence of the Source of Life and Being, where we find what we need to do what needs us to do it, moment-by-moment-by moment.

Ten Short Thoughts

1. The “Other World”

Primal peoples always believed that the visible world is grounded upon the invisible world. The invisible world is the world of the unconscious (because we are not conscious of it), and it is the source of consciousness and life. It is the spiritual world, and the ground of the physical world. Of course, I have no factual, rational, basis for alleging these things. I cannot prove it. Nothing we say about the invisible world can be ruled valid or invalid. We don’t know if such a world exists. It has always been thought to exist. But it is easy to start with the fact that the invisible world has always been thought to exist, and move into fantasy in an “if then, therefore” kind of way.

The unconscious world does not operate according to the laws of reason and logic, but we treat it as though it is just like this world of normal, apparent, reality. Motives that operate here, operate there. All of the emotions that hold sway here, hold sway there (God is a jealous God, you know, wrathful, angry and loving). We simply will not have a world we cannot see, hear, touch, taste, smell, understand or comprehend. We will make one up and say that’s it.

People talk about “extrasensory perception,” and say they talk regularly with the dead. Well, maybe. I know fooling ourselves is what we do best, and we can imagine the realest kinds of things. Whether anyone has ever actually talked with the dead, or had a legitimate out of the body experience—where they were able to read the title of a book, say, on a slip of paper placed on the top bookshelf by one of their friends—I don’t know. For all the reports of telepathy, and telekinesis, and teleportation, there are a greater number of studies debunking each one. As long as people have been claiming to have talked with the dead, they haven’t heard anything that has made much difference for the good in the way the world works, so we have to say, at the very least, that the dead aren’t much to talk to. They don’t appear to know any more than the rest of us, and if they do, they keep it to themselves.

If there is another world beyond this one, or another entire universe of worlds beyond this one, there is nothing in this world that would allow us to know anything about it. That hasn’t stopped us. We’ve been imagining worlds beyond this one for as long as we’ve been here. We generally populate those worlds, or that world, with supernatural beings, with gods, who have an unaccountably intense interest in this world—an irrepressibly compulsive stake in our lives—and who seem to be a lot like we are, only bigger, and, sometimes better, sometimes worse.

It may be supernatural, and God may be Omni-everything, but everything in that world seems to hinge on how things go in this world. God can’t be happy and at peace if we aren’t minding our P’s and Q’s. God’s mirth depends upon our obedient and faithful service. We may be little squirmy nothings, but we have the power to make God boil, seethe, and punish us with lakes of lava, and fire and brimstone everlasting—or reward us with blessings and glories beyond imagining in a world without end amen.

So go the stories.

Is there a bit of compensation going on here, in these stories we’ve made up about the other world, to console ourselves about the life that is forced on us by this world? Quite possibly. What we do know is that we have always told ourselves stories about the world, or worlds, beyond this one, and in those stories, we always play the central role. The gods revolve around us. They can’t get us out of their minds. We are the sole focus of their lives.

Which leads one to wonder, what would the other world be like without us, without this world? We are always looking to the other world as an escape from this world, but if this world is the primary concern of the powers that hold sway in the other world, what’s in the other world for us except more of this world? And, what exactly is it about this world that rankles us so? That warrants escape? That lends itself to fantasies about UFO’s, and the internal structure of the spiritual realm? From what are we trying to save ourselves? From what do we need to be delivered? What is so bad about this life in this world that we have to distract ourselves with imaginative speculations about life in the other world? What does thinking about that world keep us from thinking about in this world?

What do we not like about our lives in this world? Suffering and pain and things not going our way? Except for that, is everything fine? Life on terms not our own sends us right up the wall. You would think that we would be better adjusted to that by now. Better adjusted to the idea that this is it. Why hasn’t time developed a peace and tranquility gene? What’s the evolutionary advantage to maladjustment, to discontent? Could it be that Neanderthal had a knack for settling for the way things are, and lacked the internal dissatisfaction, the resistance, the “No!” that pushed Cro-Magnon out of the caves and into the high rises? Is a too-easy acceptance of “the facts,” death to the species? Is the curse of disgruntlement the secret to our success? We’ll probably never get to the bottom of it.

Suffice it to say that the other world has a remarkable degree of entertainment value for those of us eking out an existence in this world. We have no idea if any of the stories we have concocted have any correlation with what, if anything, lies beyond. But, if we are going to make up something, if we are going to believe something, it may as well be helpful. We may as well believe the other side is interested in helping us. We may as well believe that the idea, the organizing principle behind all of it, is something like integrity, or alignment-of-being, and that the interest of the other world, the investment of the other world, is in the expression of beauty, goodness, and truth in this world—that this world exists to give tangible existence to the intangible spiritual values of the other world, and that our cooperation is essential in that enterprise.

I don’t know if it’s true, of course, but it does no harm to think so, and it is a comfort to me to believe it—much more so than thinking that the other world is about revenge and vindictiveness. There is enough of that just down the road.

2. Help With Our Life

Where is chaos erupting in your life? Where has change become unmanageable? Where are the barriers protecting you against the forces of turbulence and upheaval beginning to crumble ? Not to worry. It’s nothing we haven’t seen before. It all starts with chaos, you know.

Carl Jung said, “There is no coming to consciousness without pain.” We do not grow up in a life that is exactly like we want it to be. The path through “the heaving waves of the wine-dark sea” is laid out nicely for us in all of the myths and legends of the ages.

All of the old creation stories begin with a chaotic, unstructured, unformed, swirl. None of them start with nothing. “Creation out of nothing” was a uniquely Christian, and late, formulation. The Bible never says there was nothing. Nothingness was not a concept the ancient ones could entertain. “In the beginning, the earth was without form, and void, and darkness covered the face of the deep.” That’s the way the Bible describes it. There is always something. And, it’s a mess.

The creative act is not bringing something out of nothing. The creative act is bringing order to chaos. The creative act is structuring the mess. It is what every newborn has to do upon entering the world. We meet chaos, and have to make sense of it, have to order it. We are greeted by a terrifying swirl of colors and sounds. It’s up to us to do something with it. We have to find the patterns, impose structure, separate foreground from background, create order, and discover ways of making our experience meaningful. That remains the task of life throughout life.

We are always coming upon something that throws everything out of kilter. The harmonious pulsation of the womb is shattered by lights, action, cameras, nurses, blankets and someone saying, “I’m your mommy.” Home is gone forever, and we have to make our peace with that—and find our way in a new world that we hate, and want nothing to do with. About the time we get comfortable there, it happens all over again. “This” is snatched away, and “that” is handed to us. Chaos is always “right there,” ready to break into our lives and destroy everything, laughing.

To make it bearable, we structure our lives in ways to keep chaos at bay. We develop systems, rituals, and routines so we don’t have to wake up every morning and start the day with what we are going to do to maintain life that day. Of course, this only gives chaos something else to play with, and “like that,” a hurricane, earthquake, or tsunami comes along to destroy our routines and regimen—and, we are lost, undone, traumatized and disoriented, and have to reorder our lives, again.

“The whole catastrophe,” to quote Zorba the Greek, amounts to intrusions into our ordered universe. Tornadoes, death, marriage, divorce, disease, job loss, the baby going to kindergarten, or graduating from college, or marrying and moving away from home, or divorcing and moving back home, are all places where it seems as though “the rug has been yanked from under our lives.” Some of us never recover.

Recovery is a matter of coming to terms emotionally with our loss, and finding the wherewithal to impose new patterns on our lives. In order to regain our stability, we have to regroup, revive our sense of purpose, reorient our lives, and reorder our world. The creative act of structuring chaos is ongoing and unending. We live, you might say, to create small islands of stability and sanity within a great sea of rolling madness—and the work is never done.

When the dike that is holding back the chaotic forces begins to leak, and the turbulence becomes unbearable, and the forces of upheaval and destruction sweep over the landscape, where do you go to breathe, regain your composure and your perspective, and map out a plan, in order to step back into the action? What are your resources for dealing with the turmoil? What do you rely on when you have nowhere to turn?

In order to tackle chaos, it helps to have a community of the right kind of people—people who understand—or, at least, understand that they don’t understand—and care about each other. Creation is a team sport. Artists talk with fellow artists. Poets have coffee with other poets. Inventors call up inventors. Scientists hang out with scientists. Composers have lunch with composers. We cannot manage our lives alone. People who are working to be awake, aware and alive have to spend time in conversation with people who are working to be awake, aware and alive—about the things that are essential to their work.

We need a community of like-minded people who recognize and embrace the importance of listening one another to the truth of who each is. We need a community that makes understanding each other the core of their life together—in the belief that being understood is all we need to understand ourselves, know who we are, and live in ways that align us with ourselves and put us in accord with our life, in service to our life.

We need a community for dialogue, for conversation, that comes out of an affiliation for, and time spent regularly and routinely with the right kind of emptiness, stillness and silence. The noisiest place in the world is where we are sitting quietly, and all the noise is in our heads! The right kind of emptiness, stillness and silence empties all the noise out, and is empty even of the desire to be empty.

When we clear out the noise and reduce the complexity, we open ourselves to the presence of the resources of the unconscious world, which is the source of all of out dreams and visions, and is that “very present help in time of trouble” upon which we all depend, whether we know it or not.

3. Blurring the Line Between Ourselves and God

Jesus had a unique perspective of God which stood apart from the quid pro quo, tit for tat, “you scratch my back and I’ll scratch yours,” way of thinking about God that was the prevailing view among the people and the religious authorities of his day—and is quite the rage in our own day. Before the Babylonian Captivity (when the army of Israel was defeated and all of the people who mattered were led along their “trail of tears” to Babylon, where they lived for about 70 years), the popular view was that of God as Champion and Deliverer who rescued Israel from oppression in Egypt, and established them in an everlasting covenant as the Chosen People of God in the never to be repossessed Land of Promise.

Babylon put an end to that happy fantasy, and the people and priests had to re-think some very fundamental matters. After their release from captivity, and in the process of rebuilding the destroyed temple in Jerusalem, an old text containing the Law of Moses was discovered (Or planted, and “discovered”), and an “Aha! Moment” occurred. “Of course!” they said, “That’s it! Now we see!”

What they saw was that they hadn’t properly kept the Law all those years, and Babylon was the result of their failure to walk the straight and narrow! Their idea of God then evolved to allow God’s Covenant with Israel to be contingent upon their faithful obedience to the divine commandments and ordinances! In order to get something from God, they had to give something to God. If they wanted God to protect and defend them, they had to be really, really good. From Babylon on, God becomes Watcher and Judge, and the people have to live carefully pleasing lives, in every respect, or else.

Jesus stepped into this framework and trashed it. He healed on the Sabbath, associated with the disenfranchised, the outcast, and the unclean. He presumed to speak for God, but said the most outlandish things, and greatly offended the religious sensibilities of practically everyone who mattered. His behavior was seen as a threat to the people. If they didn’t deal quickly with him, God would surely be incensed. How they responded to Jesus’ blasphemy and irreverence was a test of their own faith. If they didn’t shut Jesus up the whole nation would be obliterated: “It’s better for one man to die than for the whole nation to be destroyed!” said the High Priest, as they consulted one another about the “Jesus Problem.”

Jesus’ crucifixion was nothing personal. The Jewish authorities were simply acting out their idea of God—in accordance with their deeply held beliefs about God, and what it took to please God. They were certain that if they didn’t keep God Very Happy with them, a repeat of Babylon, or worse, would follow. Even in Christian circles, in the Book of Revelation, Rome was considered to be the modern—for those times—equivalent of Babylon. The Jews knew they had to be ever so careful.

Jesus, of course, didn’t see it that way, and that is the reason for his death. Jesus saw God, not as a vengeful, revengeful, Killer God, but as compassionate as the prodigal’s father, or a kind Samaritan. God, from Jesus’ viewpoint, was gracious, generous, and very present for good in the lives of the people, all people, no matter what. Jesus saw himself as an extension of the qualities of God in his own relationships, and lived with the people as God would live in his place. Jesus reflected his idea of God—his understanding of God—to the people, and said, boldly enough, “The Father and I are one,” and “If you have seen me, you have seen the Father.”

That’s what we all should be saying, “The Father and I are one.” We all should be living so that the line between God and us is blurred—so that no one can be sure where we stop and God starts. It isn’t a morally pure kind of life that blurs the line, but a compassionate life, a kind life, a gracious life, a generously loving life that sees into the heart of things, and offers exactly what is needed to each moment as it unfolds. This is the Categorical Imperative: If we have what is needed in the situation as it arises, we must offer it, no matter what, or, to put it a bit differently: Those who can help must help, and whose who need help must be helped!

Our lives have a way of asking for exactly what we have to give. What is needed is always the gift—the genius, the art—that is latent within us waiting for an opportunity to come forth and grace the world. It is our place to offer ourselves to the moment, to the time of our living, to each other, to the situation as it arises—when and where our gift, and the need of that here and now, meet.

It’s easier to hide out in the Law and the Prophets than to put ourselves on the line in each moment, bringing forth what is ours to give for the good of the moment. We can do that only out of an orientation of heart and soul that cares about other people, and the world in which we live, as God would in our place, so that it could be said of each of us: “The Father and I are one.”

4. The Quest for God

The quest for God requires specific things of us. We don’t just roll over, and there’s God. Well, actually, we do just roll over, and there’s God, but in order to recognize God when we roll over, we have to be at the place of readiness to recognize God. Readiness comes about mostly through our handing over (or having stripped away) our ideas about how life should be, and who God is. This reflects another of the 10,000 Spiritual Laws: “The only thing standing between us and God is us.”

Our ideas about how life should be, and who God is, keep us from perceiving God. We cannot know the God Who Is as long as we are attached to Who We Think God Ought To Be. One of the functions of the cross in the lives of the disciples (And in our own lives, if we could step away from everything we’ve ever heard about the cross, and confront in it the vulnerability and helplessness of God) was to separate them from their idea of God and of the Messiah. This is the “scandal of the cross.” The Coming One is not supposed to die at the hands of his enemies! What kind of sense does that make? None whatsoever. And, that’s exactly the point.

The God Who Is makes no sense. It’s utter nonsense to think God is the way God is. God, by our definition, is bigger, better, finer than anything we can imagine, but somehow always manages to be exactly what we imagine. God is Almighty, Omnipotent, Omniscient, Thoroughly In Charge, and Completely In Control. We will not have it any other way! We must have a universe in which everything that happens, happens for a reason—happens because God makes it happen, or, because God allows it to happen as a part of the Plan. Our God has a Plan, and a fine Plan it will prove to be! We are convinced of it. We believe more in the Plan than in the Planner.

This is the idea of God, or one of them, that we have to hand over (or have stripped away), if we are going to perceive God, apprehend God, know God. Our idea of God disintegrates in one of two ways. Life can take it from us by exposing its inadequacy, or we can recognize its shortcomings by thinking about it until it becomes absurd. I recommend thinking about it.

Thinking about our idea of God immediately places some distance between God and our idea of God. Once we recognize that everything we hear about God, including what I’m suggesting here and now, is just someone’s idea of God, and not God, we put a bit of space between what is said about God, and God. Or, to come at this another way, we might say that everyone knows what they are supposed to think about God, and everyone knows what they do, in fact, think about God, but, not everyone knows what to do with the discrepancy. It is when we think about the discrepancy that new ideas of God come into being. Among those new ideas is the idea that the ideas are only ideas—they have nothing to do with the God beyond all ideas of God.

At the point of knowing that God is beyond knowing, we enter a level of openness to the paradoxical nature of truth, which includes what is true to our experience, and what is also true to our experience (which might contradict what is true to our experience), and what is beyond our experience. This reflects another of the 10,000 Spiritual Laws: “Truth is found between the hands,” that is, “On the one hand, this, and, on the other hand, that and on some other hand that over there!”

This openness to the paradoxical nature of truth lends itself to a state of mindfulness, and playfulness, that is more intuitive than rational—that knows without knowing how it knows—without being able to articulate what it knows. Sheldon Kopp said, “Some things can be experienced, but not understood; and some things can be understood, but not explained.”

God is everywhere. There is no distinction between sacred and secular, between holy and profane, between God and Not-God. God is all, and in all, and through all, and beyond all. God simply IS. Everything is a doorway into God, an avenue to God, a path to God. Or, can be if approached in the proper frame of mind. That which is Not-God can lead to God. So, there is a sense in which Not-God is God.

But. Even though God is everywhere, it takes a unique perspective to see God anywhere—a peculiar openness, a radically present presence. We have to be God to see God, or on our way to being God. We cannot sit back, looking for God at a distance, through binoculars and telescopes, concepts, doctrines and discussions. We know God by living Godly lives. And, we are back to the fundamental spiritual law, “In order to know God, we have to live in certain ways.”

We cannot know God if we do not live compassionately. Association with God, awareness of God, leads to, is exhibited in, is expressed by, and flows from, a life which radiates the high (or deep) values, such as love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, generosity, gentleness, mercy, justice, hospitality, grace, etc. Association with God does not lead to careless, reckless, dispassionate living. God is everywhere, yet, the only life that leads to God is lived toward goodness, love, kindness and peace—toward the best we can imagine. We cannot expect to find our way to God by living just any life at all—The wedding guest is cast out of the banquet because he wasn’t dressed appropriately, and the “Evil doers” are turned away because “In as much as you did, or did not do, it to one of the least of my brothers and sisters, you did it, or did not do it, unto me.”

The way we live is of God, or not. The quest for God that finds God is the life of God. We have to be what we seek. The life of godliness, of goodness, of compassion and peace cultivates godliness, goodness, compassion and peace. It enhances life, deepens our connection with God, and honors the reality of God within us and all people. Joseph Campbell said, “The influence of a vital person vitalizes.”

We honor the reality of God when we exhibit the high/deep values, treating one another, and all people, with honor and respect—loving one another, and all people, for who we/they are—and creating a community of presence, the membership of which is not based upon agreement, or conformity, or mutual allegiance to a common creed, or system of beliefs, but upon mutual esteem and reverence for the person of the other, for the perspective of the other, for the aspects of God that are hidden in, and revealed by, the other.

We create the God we seek in the way we live while seeking. And Zen is like a man sitting on his ox, looking for his ox—like a woman holding her car keys, looking for her car keys. And heaven is where we laugh at all of the things we thought were important that kept us from seeing and doing what was important.

5. God is the Stream of Life

The most recent old idea of God has carried us as far as it can. We are at the point—and have been for some time—of re-imagining God, of understanding “God” in a way that squares with all that we know about the physical universe, and what we can intuit of the spiritual/invisible/unconscious (Because we are not conscious of it) universe. We can take up the process of re-imagining God from within the Bible itself, and carry it forward in ways that are compatible with what else we can know, and intuit.

In the Bible, we find a wonderful old hint about the nature of God in a text that is lost in the mass of texts with a different, more Godly view of God in mind. In that ancient passage, the Israelites are making good progress in their conquest of the Promised Land, when they come upon a group of Philistines who have chariots and horsemen. The text (in Judges 1:19) reads, “The Lord was with Judah, and he took possession of the hill country, but (he) could not drive out the inhabitants of the plain, because they had chariots of iron.”

As the story plays out, God comes up with something, and sends the rain which creates the mud, which mires the wheels of the chariots, removing them from the equation and making victory possible. But, the opening has been created. God can be, at least, temporarily, stumped. Even God has to find a way. God cannot merely will iron chariots out of existence. But. What kind of God is that?

We are always having to come up with a God we can believe in.

The destruction of Jerusalem in 586 BCE by the Babylonians, and the deportation of a large portion of the Jewish population to Babylon, resulted in a theological crisis typical of all encounters with a devastating reality: What can we believe now that our beliefs have been invalidated, and our God has let us down? The religious leaders of the Jews in Babylon put together an idea of God that took the defeat of the nation into account, and saved the religion by giving it a foundation that could withstand any shock.

They said, in essence, that the God of Abraham, Isaac, Jacob and Moses was not defeated by the army of Babylon, but used Babylon to punish the people of God who had been shamefully faithless and disobedient. If the nation repented, good things would come its way again. But, if it persisted in its pattern of behavior, it would be lost forever.

The idea of God as “a very present help in time of trouble” that was operative prior to the fall of Jerusalem, had to be re-imagined by those whose task was to give the people a God they could believe in—and they gave them the God we are at the point of re-imagining today.

The God who came out of the Babylonian Captivity, was very different from the God who went into Captivity. The spin doctors took the experience of God’s failure to be the God the people believed God to be, and said, “God is Almighty, Omnipotent and Stupendously Awesome Beyond Measure, but. Only in the service of those who are utterly obedient in every way.

This is the same theory of God that resurfaces following the crucifixion of Jesus to declare that Jesus lives, and that God blesses those who believe it with life that will never die. God, it was said, used the Romans and the Jewish authorities as pawns in the Almighty’s Plan of Salvation, so that Jesus could die as a sacrifice acceptable to God, and all the world could be saved if it repents and believes. If it doesn’t, then, just like the theorists in Babylon suggested, there is going to be hell to pay—and the Book of Revelation emphasizes just how terrible hell will be.

Missing both in Babylon, and in the aftermath of Jesus’ death, is the idea that God is as vulnerable and helpless as a stream on parched ground. The text in Judges hints at this possibility, and the birth and death of Jesus shout it from the housetops.

The Messiah, the Coming One, the Christ, the Anointed One, is born in a stable, wrapped in swaddling cloths, and laid in a manger. God, we are told, comes to us as a baby in a manger and dies as a man on a cross. The Babylonian theorists would have been appalled at this turn of events, but, in Jesus, we get an image of God that is quite compatible with that of the God who is confounded by iron chariots.

In Jesus, God is impotent, powerless, “up against it,” and dependent upon us for sustenance and support. God is not powerfully apart from us, but one-with-us, one-of-us, in the work toward the good. God is a partner with us in doing what needs to be done—and needs our total participation and collaboration in effecting God’s will upon the earth. It is a full partnership, a joint effort, a coalition of mutual support from start to finish.

God is the Stream of Life flowing through us, around us, within us, calling us to wake up, and live in accord with the Stream of Life.

God is the Stream of Life flowing downhill, dealing with beaver dams, landslides, fallen trees and droughts—finding a way to deal with everything that comes its way—flowing on, drying up, and flowing on again, without ever losing its “stream-ness,” giving up or forgetting its purpose.

God is the Stream of Life, as helpless and vulnerable, yet as unrelenting and eternal, as water flowing downhill in its search for a way to the sea.

The Stream finds a way. The Stream is one with us, one of us, in the mutually dependent dance of life with life. The Stream needs our willing participation, cooperation and collaboration to deal with iron chariots, crosses, and the harsh facts of life in the world of physical reality.

The Stream flows through us and with us to help us imagine the way forward—to encourage us and sustain us in the work of preparing its way in the wilderness, in the work of serving and establishing the high values of Life upon the earth, and is the expression and exhibition of the art of life, living and being alive.

6. Good Faith Is the Best Kind of Faith

You have heard this already, and, you are likely to hear it again: Truth is found between the hands. On the one hand, it’s like this. On the other hand, it’s like that. Socrates said at his trial, “The unexamined life is not worth living.” That is certainly true as far as it goes. Sheldon Kopp said, “The unlived life is not worth examining.” The circle is complete. There is the way things are. And there is the way things also are. And that’s the way things are. This is symbolized neatly in the yin/yang of Taoism. Yin is the way things are. Yang is the way things also are. And the circle containing them is the way things are. Reality, you might say, is one in its duality, in its polarity.

William Blake put it beautifully: “Without Contraries, is no progression” (The Marriage of Heaven and Hell). This means our work is “working it out.” We are always and forever “working it out.” We integrate the opposites, reconcile the contradictions, live between the polarities, and maintain the tension between disparate truths. We go too far in one direction, and have to be reeled in, called back, by the forces contained in the opposite direction. This is “finding the center” or “walking the straight and narrow.” We live on the boundary—on “the razor’s edge”—between yin and yang. We have to be “rounded out” by the opposition in order to “square ourselves with” that which is true, and that which is also true. We find our way forward in a conversation with the contraries within and without. The opposites do not cancel each other out, but open each other—and ourselves—up to worlds, to possibilities, we could not imagine, or enter on the strength of one point of view alone.

This opening is enabled by the right kind of conversation with the opposites, between the opposites, among the opposites. The right kind of conversation enlarges, deepens, transforms, integrates, reconciles, unites, makes whole. The right kind of conversation is the way to the Way, individually and collectively. The kind of community that is required for living properly aligned with Inner and Outer Reality, centered, in sync, and on the Path, is a community of opposites, of polarities, where all persons take each other seriously, treat each other with the deepest respect, honor each other’s perspective, and allow conversation with one another to expand, deepen, and enlarge one’s own sense of how things are, and what needs to be done in response.

In this kind of community there is not one way of seeing, thinking, believing and doing. There is no sense of “our way” being the Right Way and “their way” being the Wrong Way. The right kind of community is not “one big happy family” in firm agreement about what to think, feel, believe and do. It is a community that values contrary views, and finds the way to the Way by taking all pertinent perspectives into account, and allowing them to inform, and guide, the development of each participant in the community, and each participant is responsible for determining, and doing what she, what he, thinks needs to be done in each situation as it arises.

The heart of the kind of community that is necessary for the development of individuals who are living lives aligned with the Way, and who are bringing forth their gifts in ways that serve and save the world is, what Rumi calls, “good faith.” He says, “If you are not here with us in good faith, you are doing terrible damage.” Good faith is the key to our life together.

“Good faith” describes our commitment, our covenant, to each other to do right by one another, to be with one another in ways that are good for the other, to offer the right kind of help in the right kind of way, and to help others help us by not being too needy or too dependent ourselves. It also recognizes the old truism that “good fences make good neighbors,” and carefully observes the Old Testament commandment (One that did not make—but should have made—the Top Ten): “Thou shalt not remove thy neighbor’s landmark!”

We do not do violence to our neighbors’ boundaries by offering them the wrong kind of help in the wrong kind of way, and we trust our neighbors to do right by us, as much as they trust us to do right by them. And we live to not let each other down.

7. The Doctrine of The Two Ways

The Doctrine of the Two Ways—the Right Way and the Wrong Way—has been the central religious view in the Near East and the West for thousands of years, and is the predominant religious outlook today. We are seeped in the Doctrine of the Two Ways. We believe deeply that the way we believe (and think, and do) is the Right Way to believe (and think, and do) and that all other ways of believing (and thinking, and doing) are the Wrong Way to believe (and think, and do).

It gets worse. We believe that if we believe the Right Beliefs, we will go to heaven when we die, and that if we believe the Wrong Beliefs, we will burn in the everlasting fires of Hell. The idea of heaven as a reward for Right Belief, and hell as a punishment for Wrong Belief is the fundamental religious curse that people carry with them throughout their life—and with which they infect all who come their way.

Because we cannot risk being wrong, and going to hell, we cannot question what we have received as Right Belief, and have to believe what has been believed unquestioned through the ages. In so doing, we create a hell on earth populated by the walking dead—empty-eyed and soulless—talking about the joys of Eternal Life as compensation for the life they are not living, and never have lived, thanks to the Doctrine of the Two Ways.

Darkness and Light, Good and Evil, Right and Wrong, Truth and Error, the Way of Life and the Way of Death, etc. are set out before us, and the wise among us choose well, and the foolish, or evil, among us choose poorly. Believers are urged to pray, therefore, that they will choose well in order to be ushered into the Kingdom of Goodness and Light with the accolade: “Well done, good and faithful servants!”

There is, of course, a different way of looking at things—if you dare!

Good, at some point, goes over into evil. Evil, at some point, goes over into good. Not only that, but from some point of view, good is evil and evil is good. Floods, for example, that destroy homes, lives and livelihoods, also fertilize the land to produce the crops that feed the people. Are floods good or evil? Both! What’s good for the fox is evil for the hen, which raises the question: Whose good is the good we call good? And, “How good id the good we call good?” As the old saying goes, “There is so much good in the worst of us, and so much bad in the best of us, it doesn’t behoove any of us to talk about the rest of us.” Absolute Good, and Absolute Evil, are theoretical concepts without precedent in the lived experience of human beings. Given the truth of the relative nature of the options set before us in the Two Ways, we can’t long avoid the realization that it is not as simple as we have been led to believe. It is nothing at all like we have been led to believe.

Think not of living a morally pure and upright life, and deserving heaven when we die. Think instead of living aligned with the Way of Life, and living the life that is our destiny–our life to live—of being properly engaged with inner and outer reality, and offering what is needed out of what is ours to give to each situation as it unfolds. It is not a matter of matching our behavior up to some ancient standard, or code, but of responding appropriately to the moment, in each moment of our life, doing what is needed there, never mind what our parents, or preachers, declare ought to be done.

If we are wrong about what needs to be done? Shake it off! Get up! Get ready! Get back in the game! The next moment is on the way!

The beauty of The Doctrine of More Than Two Ways is that getting it wrong is just a step on the way to getting it right. The meandering of the river is no threat to the sea. The roots of tomorrow’s Right are firmly grounded in yesterday’s Wrong.

Learn from your mistakes. Learn from your successes. Learn from everything. Living is the lesson and life is the teacher. We have a lifetime in which to learn what being alive is all about. Wake up! Pay attention! Be alert! Take a chance, and another one after that! There is life to be lived! We are not dead yet, and we must not live as though we are! Do not die before you are dead! Live with all that is within you for as long as life is possible no mater what! That’s the way that is the Way of Life for us all! Step into your life with your eyes open, and see where it goes! Moment-by-moment-by-moment! What’s hard about that?

8. Destiny

Destiny is not the same as fate. Our fate consists of the givens present in our life situation—the time and place of our living, our genetic make-up, who our parents were, what is available for us to work with, how things are with us across the board, around the table. Our fate is also what becomes of us, what happens to us—what we are left with—if we reject, deny, or ignore our destiny. We either embrace, and serve, our destiny, or we succumb to our fate. There is no third option.

Our destiny is what/who we are called to become within the time and place, the context and circumstances, of our living. Destiny is what we do with our fate, what we construct with the materials that are available for us to work with, who we show ourselves to be through the process of living our life. We are called to a particular destiny in exhibiting the gifts that are—the genius that is—uniquely ours within the circumstances of life, which are generally the same for a large number of our contemporaries, though our destinies are quite different.

You can think of destiny as “God’s will for our lives,” or “the way of Tao.” What is called “the will of God,” or “the way of Tao,” is the same way. It is the same as the destiny that is ours to live out within the fate that is ours to deal with.

When we live aligned with our destiny, and live to bring ourselves forth, we also bring what has always been thought of as God, or the Tao, forth in our life and into the world of normal, concrete, apparent reality.

Here’s the problem: We are conflicted at the core. Our heart’s true desire is to be one with its destiny and we have eyes for a life of our own, with lights, glamor and action. The work of maturity is connecting with, and living aligned with, our heart—and dying to our idea of what is important. We embrace our heart’s idea, our soul’s idea, of what is important, and let our idea go. This is the conscious ego becoming conscious of its role, and playing it out, exactly as it needs to be played out: “Thy will, not mine, be done!” “Those who would be my disciple must pick up their cross daily and follow me.” The conscious ego submits to a will and a Way greater than its own. Our cross is the difference between our soul’s idea of what is important and our conscious ego’s idea of what is important. Our cross the price we pay for doing what is ours to do within the context and circumstances of our life.

The heart knows its true joy/love–its destiny–and it is our place to align ourselves with the drift of heart/soul toward its sense of where it belongs, and what it needs to be about. This is going with the flow in the deepest, truest sense of the term—and going against the gain of our own idea of how things need to be.

In living this way, Jesus is the “first born of all creation,” calling everyone with his “come follow me!” and his “No one comes to the Father but by me—no one comes to the Father but by dying like me!” We have missed the point of these sayings, thinking that Jesus was talking about himself. Jesus was talking about his perspective, his orientation, his attitude, his point of view, his focus on living out his destiny within the context and circumstances of his life, his refusal to let anything deter him, untrack him, in the work to bring forth his genius, his gift, in doing what was called for by the situation as it arose before him. This is bearing our cross. This is what he calls us to do in our own life.

This is the work that always been called salvific. Salvation is restoration, being restored to, being aligned with, that which is our destiny, our true life. It is the work recognition, realization, awareness, understanding, enlightenment. It is the work of maturity—and of grace. Maturity because no one can do this work who is not growing up, and grace because no one can claim any credit for the growing up that we do.

Our life’s work is awakening to our heart’s true joy—its love for, and affiliation with, its destiny—and letting that become our life. We are here to live the life that is ours to live in serving our destiny within the context and circumstances of our life (Our fate). As we do that, we become who Jesus was, who God is, and live at one with ourselves, and with the Source of Life and Being.

9. Directing Our Lives

As things currently stand in the culture, getting, having, owning, possessing, consuming, controlling, amassing, achieving, accomplishing, succeeding, winning, defeating, conquering, and the like direct our living. We live to get these things done. We do what we do with these things in mind. Our living is governed by things outside of us which we hope to get, have, own, possess, etc., and what we do is determined by what we want our doing to do for us. We live to have our way done on the earth. Ours is a getting, owning, acquiring, having, etc., culture. We live to get what we want, and have it made, and bask in the wonder of having done it. Everything serves that end.

Education is not about knowing, thinking, comprehending, feeling, intuiting, expressing or understanding, but about positioning ourselves to succeed, basically, by being gainfully employed. A good job has nothing to do with the goodness of the job, but everything to do with how much money we are paid for doing it. Ask any child or adolescent what they want to be when they grow up, and see how many of them say “kind,” or “compassionate,” or “generous,” or even “honest.” They might say “rich,” or “independently wealthy,” but they would most likely talk about the kind of job they hope to have. The want to be doctors, lawyers, teachers, nurses, firefighters, engineers, accountants, or astronauts. They already know that what counts is “out there,” and that what really counts is how much of it we can get before we die.

A spiritual orientation calls this cultural assumption into question, and places us on a different track, a different path, than the one the culture would have us walk. Spirituality is counter-cultural. It is a radical departure from the way we think we are supposed to be. We cannot be spiritual without raising questions about the way life is being lived around us.

Jacob Bronowski said, “If you want to know the truth, you have to live in certain ways.” He said that we don’t find truth the way we find the checkbook, or Yankee Stadium. We don’t get directions to truth, or receive instructions. We don’t knock on the door of the wisest person in the neighborhood, with a pad and pencil in hand, ask questions, and take notes. We do not think our way to truth, or believe our way there. We live our way there. Knowing the truth is a matter of direct, personal experience.

You eat an apple, and you know the truth of that particular apple. The truth of a Granny Smith apple is somewhat different from the truth of a York apple, or a Red Delicious apple. There is a wide variation of apple truth, which has to take into account ripe apples, green (in both senses of the word) apples, and rotten apples. All of which you have to experience firsthand in order to have anything like a working knowledge of the truth of apples. As it is with apples, so it is with love, money and life. We live our way into the truth of all these things. How we live determines the truth we perceive, the truth we understand, the truth we know. “If you want to know the truth, you have to live in certain ways.”

We have to live with our eyes open. We have to live with our mind open. We have to live open to the experience of our life. We have to live with a little of that Missouri “show me” spirit in hand. We have to ask questions, and ask questions generated by the answers to our questions, and wonder what the questions are we haven’t asked. We have to poke, prod, investigate, wonder, imagine and explore, and we cannot ever, under any circumstances, take anyone’s word for it without asking what makes them think that they know what they are talking about. We have to know what we know, think what we think, feel what we feel, see what we see, hear what we hear, and sense what we sense—without buying into what anyone may tell us about the right way to do any of these things. We have to know what we know to be so because we have lived it, experienced it, and not because someone else told us it was so.

Got it? Then, here’s one for you: What do you know to be true about God that no one told you? That you didn’t get from the Bible? How long is your list? Live to lengthen it!

We have to understand that what we do, and how we do it, are properly directed by our being, by who we are, by who we are endeavoring to be, and not by our having or getting, or by what we are endeavoring to have or get. The question “What do you want to be when you grow up?” has to be understood in light of the qualities and characteristics we want to exhibit—in light of the life that we want to have lived—not because we expect it to pay off in some way, but because these ends are simply good in themselves.

When we fail to act in ways that are commensurate with this vision, we have to realize it, and take a deep breath, and place ourselves back into the practice of being the kind of person we want to be. Michael Jordan at his best would let himself down on the basketball court, and he would have to go back to practicing, working, striving to be the kind of basketball player he had it in him to be.

What do we want to be when we grow up? We have the rest of our lives to answer that question. We begin living toward the answer by having a vision of the kind of person we would like to become before we die—practicing every day to incarnate the vision, and become the person.

10. The What and the How

Distractions abound. I am continually amazed at, and dumbfounded by, how little it takes to switch me from the main track into the trackless wasteland. We have to be mindful of the distractions swirling around us, avoid those that can be avoided, wake up quickly to those that blindside us, and bring ourselves back to the task at hand: Being who we are, doing what we are about—what is ours to do—in the time and place of our living.

We work with the day everyday. In each day, we have to remember what is important, what we are doing, as we step into the day, and allow the day to bring us forth in meeting the day while remaining true to ourselves. The day brings us into focus. The day clarifies for us the things we need to be clear about: What are the gifts and characteristics—the qualities of heart and soul—that we are working to bring to life in our lives? The day enables us to see how we are doing, and where improvements and alterations need to be made.

The day provides a steady stream of encounters and information that we can use in making mid-course adjustments on the path to wholeness. The day shows us where we are in relation to where we have been, and where we need to be. It may start with oversleeping, or with the dog throwing up on the carpet. We come into focus in the smallest details of living.

The spiritual life is lived between the What and the How. We feel our way to What, we think our way to How. The What is about what is happening and what needs to be done about it. If we miss the bus, we may have to find a taxi. The “Now what?” brings the present moment into sharp focus, demanding that we assess the situation, and come up with a plan of action for dealing successfully with it—using, relying on, the gifts, preferences, interests, enthusiasms, aptitudes, talents, etc., that come with us into the world.

The stream feels the sea and has to think its way around the obstacles in its path, but it knows where it is going, and trusts itself to think what to do to get the job done.

We are born as a bundle of latent abilities. As we grow up, the hope is that we will gravitate toward what we do best, and that our lives will be proving grounds—where we experiment with who we are, and develop an increasingly clear notion of what is “us” and what is “not us.” We aren’t born knowing what that is, but there is a homing device, of sorts, within us, and we know “when we are on the beam, and when we are off of it,” when we are on track with our lives, and when we are off track, where we belong, and where we have no business being. We feel our way to all of these things.

Writing has always been “it” for me, and I have fought my way through a lot of internal resistance, and a pronounced lack of external encouragement, to write no matter what. I can say now, after all these years, that writing is one of my “things.” I couldn’t have said that at twenty, or thirty, or forty. I certainly couldn’t have said that at fifteen, or eighteen. I did not grow up in one of those loving, attentive spaces without answers. There was not much in the way of listening beneath the surface in my experience, of inviting to the table what else is there. If you were a boy in the deep south, you did the things boys in the deep south were supposed to do. And, you pretended to like it, because there would be something wrong with you, if you didn’t do it and like it.

So, it’s been a long and curious route that has brought me to the place of writing no matter what. The process could have been assisted, and shortened, with the proper mentors, coaches, advocates, listeners, encouragers, and friends, but the process was going to unfurl somehow, some way, over time no matter what.

Carl Jung said, “We are who we always have been, and who we will be.” Who we are born to be is always a part of who we are, and will be, and is waiting to be seen, recognized, received and loved into being. It takes a lot to block the process of our growing into the person we are to be in the world. That process is life itself. It’s the dandelion growing through the asphalt. Our lives are about being who we are no matter what. If we live long enough, we will get there. It only takes living to figure it out. We all learn to listen over time.

The What also requires us to know what behavior is being asked for in each situation that arises. “Here we are, now what?” What is called for here and now? Anger? Grace? Kindness? Willful insistence? We feel our way to the answers.

What kind of spirit, attitude, demeanor are we being asked to exhibit in doing what we do? The manner, the shape and form, the style and tone, etc., that we exhibit in doing what we do are all feeling questions–we feel our way to the answers.

We think our way to the airport, to the motel, and to home. Logistics and directions are good thinking questions. How do we treat a sprained ankle? How do we mix a proper ratio of rubbing alcohol to water in making an ice pack in a plastic freezer bag? These are thinking questions.

What now? is about the qualities and characteristics of heart and soul, and the sense of what needs to happen in the moment of our living. What here? deals with generosity and compassion; grace, mercy and peace; awareness, and mindfulness, and attention; love, joy, hospitality, kindness, gentleness, and a propensity for justice and doing what’s right, to mention a few, are essential requirements of the spiritual life–and timing is essential for all of them. We feel our way into “What here? What now?”

The work of doing what is called for in each situation as it arises requires us to go against the grain; to swim against the current; to do what’s hard; to be generous when it would be easier to be greedy and self-centered; to be compassionate when we want to tell them a thing or two. The spiritual journey is a walk toward who we are called to be. The Promised Land is a metaphor for what we are here to do, and the spirit with which we are to do it. We live toward that every day of our lives. The days are filled with opportunities to assess how well we are doing, and places to practice doing it as we work to get it down.

The Six Statements

There are six statements, which cannot be denied, yet cannot be affirmed without transforming Christianity as we know it. They are:

  1. Our Idea of God Is Not God.

This is as self-evidently obvious as any statement ever. I don’t know of anyone who would dispute it. It flows from the Bible. “My thoughts are not your thoughts,” says the Lord in Isaiah 55:8,9 “Nor are your ways my ways. For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so far are my ways higher than your ways, and my thoughts than your thoughts.” And, Paul joins in with: “O the depth of the riches and wisdom and knowledge of God! How unsearchable are his judgments and how inscrutable his ways! For who has known the mind of the Lord?” (Romans 11:33-34A).

Ah, but. What we don’t know, and cannot know, has never kept us from acting as though we know.

The church is always speaking as though it knows as much as God knows, as though it is the spokesperson for God, as though its ideas of God are God. Some church condemns homosexuality in the name of God. Some church proclaims the value of Creationism in the name of God. Some church declares this, and denounces that, and tells all comers that if they don’t do it the way that church tells them to do it they are going to hell, all in the name of God, in the place of God. It is as though the church is God. Certainly, it is as though the church’s idea of God is God.

Although the church’s actions belie its confessional stance, the church can, and does, proclaim in principle that God is beyond all concepts of God, that our idea of God is not God. However, the church will not entertain any new ideas about God. No fresh ideas about God have been allowed into the church since the Protestant Reformation. There have been a number of fresh ideas—Process Theology, Liberation Theology, and Feminist Theology, to mention three—but they haven’t found denominational sanction.

If you are going to think, and talk, about God in the church, you are going to have to stick with the concepts of the Westminster Confession of Faith, and the Apostles’ Creed—nothing more recent than that is permitted. Our idea of God may not be God, but it’s the only idea you’ll hear anything about in the church. If the church actually lived out of the realization that our idea of God is not God a number of things would change dramatically, instantly.

  1. The Church Was Before the Bible.

Abraham was before the Bible. Moses was before the Bible. The prophets were before the Bible. Jesus was before the Bible. The Apostles were before the Bible. The early Christian Church was before the Bible—and produced the Bible. The books that are not in the Bible are not in the Bible because the church decided that they should not be in the Bible. The books that are in the Bible are in the Bible because the church decided that they should be in the Bible. The Bible is what it is because the church decided that’s what it should be. The church created the Bible. The Bible did not create the church.

The Bible reflects the theology of the church—the thinking of the church—at the time the canon was closed (More on that in Statement 3). The Bible says what the church of that day thought the Bible should say. The church calls the Bible “the Word of God,” but the Bible is the word the church says God says. The church filtered the words of the Bible, and only the agreeable ones passed through. When you read the Bible, you read what the church of the fourth century wanted you to read. What the church did not, and does not, want you to read is called heretical, but that is the church’s idea, just like the Bible is the church’s idea.

The Bible is the product of the church. Without the church, there would be no Bible. We think of it in reverse. The Bible gets the credit for the church. The fact is that the church had decided how it thought things should be before it came up with the Bible. It helps to keep these things in their proper order. First the church, then the Bible.

Understanding the Bible as the creation of the church takes it out of the arena of Unquestionable Holiness and makes it accessible to our questions, our imagination and our creativity—which is exactly where it came from! And now, we can acknowledge that, examine its path through history, and come up with an entirely different assessment of the process from the one we have been handed and told to embrace.

The church writes the Bible, and what it says reflects the church’s ideas of what God would say if God were speaking. We can follow the evolution of the idea of God over the course of the 66 books that compose the Protestant Bible. Different Gods peer out at us from different parts of the Bible. We can’t square the Parable of the Prodigal, for instance, with the idea of a bloodthirsty God who requires our belief in the atoning death of Jesus before we can be received into the eternal habitations. Which way is it? The problem disappears once we understand the Bible as representative of different perspectives within the church that produced the Bible.

Understanding the Bible as the product of the church also provides us with the freedom—and offers us the invitation—to place our present-day understanding of God alongside the understandings of God that are presented in the Bible. The idea of God continues to evolve! All that can be known about God is not known! We are capable of perceiving God in ways that Paul, for instance, could not have imagined. We have a holy obligation to envision God as clearly as we are capable of envisioning God, and to live toward that vision, as we pass along the tradition of probing the Mystery of God to coming generations.

Understanding that the church was before the Bible shifts the foundation of authority from God to us. We are the authority who determines what we will believe and do! From this standpoint, when the church says, “The Bible says,” we can understand that to mean, “The church says that the Bible says.” Of course, the church will say that God was using the church to select what was to be in the Bible, just as Paul can say that God gives us the government, so we shouldn’t complain about the way we are ruled. Neither argument bears scrutiny. Crooked politicians aren’t given to us by God, and the church served its own interests in composing the Bible.

Now, when we hear, “The Bible says,” we can ask in all seriousness, “But what should the Bible say? What would the Bible say if it were being written today?” Because people much like us put the Bible together, we are fully capable of reevaluating the Bible in light of all that is known now that wasn’t known then, and choose, much like the fishermen in the parable of the net of fishes, what is to be kept and carried forward, and what is to be tossed aside and left behind. Of course, to talk like this is to dive deep into the waters of heresy, and that being the case, let’s go for a swim in the next Statement:

  1. Every Step Forward Is a Step into Heresy.

Every doctrine that we embrace with such fervor, espouse with such rhetoric, and believe with such conviction was, at one point in the history of religion, rank heresy. Jesus was called a blasphemer and a heretic by the religious authorities of his day. The Apostles, and followers of Jesus, were persecuted by the Jews in Jerusalem for continuing, and deepening, the heresy of Jesus. Rome considered early Christianity to be heretical and dangerous. The Roman Catholic Church saw the Protestant Reformation as blasphemous and heretical (and Protestantism returned the favor). Heresy is our heritage—and our hope.

We cannot think a new thought about God without thinking a heretical thought about God. We cannot deepen our understanding of God, expand our vision of God, or grow in our knowledge of God without changing how we see God—without seeing God differently. Seeing God differently is heresy. Spiritual formation and faith development are possible only for those who can be heretical, who can stand apart from the way God has always been seen, and see something different—perhaps something that calls into question everything that has been seen, as in a God who would have us love our enemies, and heal on the Sabbath, and honor the least of those who live at the margins of society.

Heresy is essential to the process of aligning our life with the Stream of Life and Being, and it was outlawed by those who committed the greatest heresy in the book of heresies when they closed the canon. The canonization of the scriptures froze the idea of God that prevailed at the time. It would be very helpful if the Bible had moved on, and included the reaction of the people to their idea of God, and the experience of their lives, at the time of the collapse of Rome, and the Crusades, and the discovery of the New World, and the World Wars, and the Holocaust, and landing on the Moon… The idea of God that was sacrosanct through all those events was the idea of God that was operative at the time of Jesus’ death. That is the idea we still have of God, two thousand years later.

But, there are a lot of us who don’t share that idea. Just as the people moved past, moved beyond, the idea of God liking the pleasing odor of the sacrifice of bulls and goats, or of God needing a Temple in order to be properly worshipped, so some of us have moved beyond first century ideas about the end of time, and angels and principalities, and God being in complete charge, and tight control, of everything that happens—just to highlight the tip of the ice berg.

Yet, where do the people who have an idea of God that is different from the popular idea go to be recognized as having the right to think the way they think of God? We cannot think differently of God without being relegated to the trash heap of religious oddity. The orthodox tradition does not permit thinking differently about God, but—to the chagrin of traditional, orthodox Christianity—the heresies will not die. The heresies persist, with modification—which is the hallmark of evolution—and that suggests to me that there is something to them. The fact that they are still with us suggests the church has been, and continues to be, remiss in dismissing heresy as without value, and a threat to true belief.

The idea of God will continue to evolve despite the church’s best effort to squelch it, kill it, stuff it, and hang it on a wall, or put it behind glass, for all to worship and adore. The heretical is not the creation of the heretics. The heretical did not burn at the stake. The heretical will not die. It represents the continuing evolution of the idea of God, and lives outside the camp, in the wilderness, ahead of the church, preparing the way of the Lord, as light in the darkness, leaven in the dough, salt in the soup—in the fine tradition of the Heretic of the Ages, Jesus of Nazareth.

  1. The Garden of Eden Did Not Have Latitude and Longitude.

The Garden of Eden was not an historic, literal, actual fact. There was no time of perfect obedience, of perfect innocence, of moral perfection. There was no before and after. There was no primordial Paradise from which we were expelled for disobeying God—and hence no Original Sin which requires the atoning death of God’s only Son Jesus Christ our Lord to patch things up with God, and get us back into God’s good graces if we confess, repent, and believe. There was no Fall. There was nothing to fall from. It’s been a mess from the start.

Even as a metaphor, the story of the Garden of Eden overstates its case. The implication in the story is that Adam and Eve are representative of men and women everywhere throughout history, and that everyone would do as Adam and Eve did, and sin by disobeying God, and eating the forbidden fruit from the Tree of the Knowledge of Good and Evil. I have two objections to this presentation. In the first place, I don’t think everyone would make that choice. Elijah wouldn’t have done it. Jesus wouldn’t have done it. The Buddha wouldn’t have done it. Gandhi wouldn’t have done it. The Dali Lama wouldn’t have done it. And my Aunt Lois most certainly would not have done it. I think a large number of us would not have done it.

In the second place, the metaphor declares that it is evil to know the difference between good and evil. That it is evil to be in position to make up our own mind; to decide for ourselves, what is good and what is evil, what is right and what is wrong. That it is better just to take God’s word for it. Better, how? Whose idea of The Good is mindless innocence, unthinkingly following instructions, and blithely taking somebody else’s word for what should be done and left undone? Eternal childhood, with no cares, no responsibilities beyond being obedient, no questions, no conflicts—who thinks that is Good? Always being cared for and taken care of, without having to choose our own course, make up our own mind, decide for ourselves, and suffer the consequences—who says that is Good? It sounds to me as though the story was crafted by someone who wanted to be taken care of, or by someone who wanted to be obeyed, as if to say, “If you people would only listen to me, and do what I tell you, things would be fine!”

Once we remove Original Sin from the picture, we remove the necessity of the atoning death of God’s only Son, and have to rethink who Jesus was, and what the meaning is for us of his death and resurrection appearances. Everything changes when our idea of Original Sin changes.

  1. We Are the Ones Who Say So.

We decide. We choose. We say. We believe what we believe because we believe what we believe is worth believing. How do we know? We take it on faith. Why do we take what we take on faith and not something else instead? We just do. We decide. We choose. We say.

We say, “The Bible is the Word of God, and the absolute authority in faith and practice.” Who says so? We do. We say so. We are the authorities who declare the Bible to be authoritative. How do we know? We take it on faith. Why do we take that on faith and not something else in stead? We just do. We decide. We choose. We say. We believe what we believe because we believe what we believe is worth believing.

That being the case, you would think that we would believe things that help, not hinder, us along the way. You would think that we would believe things that create community, deepen connections, foster compassion and justice, make for understanding and peace, and bring into being a better world. We certainly have that option. We would be wise to choose it.

And, that being the case, we are certainly free to choose it! Free to make up our own minds—or bound to! Free, or bound, to come to our own tentative conclusions about how to live our life, and free, or bound, to revise them in light of our lived experience, and come up with different tentative conclusions to carry us forward into the unfolding wonder of our life.

This approach would give us a different kind of church—one that would be able to equip us for the task of listening to ourselves, and divining the path from among all of the paths that open before us along the way from where we have been to wherever it is we are going. A community like that would be a good thing to have around!

  1. Ants Find the Picnic, Flowers Turn to the Light.

We think that without some external standard of moral rectitude we would be lost in a morass of decadence, depravity and abomination—that without being made to be good, we would be evil—never minding the fact that Christianity launched the Crusades, justified slavery, burned the heretics at the stake, drowned witches, and committed all manner of atrocity on its way through the world. We believe without hell it all goes to hell. We believe we cannot do what is good without being threatened, cajoled, and coerced into doing it.

Yet, we are perfectly capable of doing what ought to be done because it ought to be done. We only have to see the need to meet the need. Perceiving the evil, we produce the good. Perceiving the good, we serve the good. The awareness of how things truly are is the foundation of transformation. Seeing into the heart of things, we act out of our heart for the good of all.

Eyes to see, ears to hear, and hearts that understand are not the result of indoctrination, and do not flow from keeping the rules. Seeing, hearing, and understanding lead to lives that are well-lived in the fullest sense of the term. The task is not to obey without question, but to see, and hear, and understand—and live lives aligned with the deepest, truest, and best that we can perceive and imagine.

That’s it. We cannot embrace these six principles without transforming the church of our experience into the church as it ought to be. The ninety-five theses need be only six—which leaves us at the place of wondering, “What now?” When we throw six hundred years of orthodox, Protestant theology out the window—what shall we put in its place? Part of our work is discovering what shape our idea of God will take, and how our lives will develop around that idea.

The Evolution of the Idea of God

One of the 10,000 Spiritual Laws states, “Our idea of God is not God.” The Bible can be seen as the history of the evolution of the idea of God. If you read the Bible carefully noting inconsistencies, contradictions, incompatibilities, discrepancies and divergent views, you will come across a number of different ways of thinking about God—many of which are mutually exclusive, and can be squared with each other only after several rounds of single malt whiskey straight from the bottle.

Old Testament scholars have long talked about the JEDP threads in the first five books of the Bible (which is referred to as “the Documentary Hypothesis”) as a way of explaining the early differing views of God, but without squaring any of them. They are simply different ways the people of biblical times thought about God.

“J” is for the writers or compilers, who used the consonants “YHWH” (Hebrew has no vowels) for the name of God, and is called the “Yahwist” (“J” is derived from the German spelling—Jahwe—of the divine name). “E” is for the writers or compilers, who used the word “Elohim” for the name of God. “D” is for the “Deuteronomic” writers or compilers, who thought keeping the law, and living righteously, were the heart of what is pleasing to God. And, “P” is for the Priestly writers or compilers, who put stories together from a priestly perspective with the liturgy, proper worship, and right sacrifice constituting the core of what is pleasing to God.

In addition to these groups, the Prophets had their own (often divergent) views of what is pleasing to God, and called the people to look beyond the law, and beyond proper sacrifice, and to honor the idea of social justice—which includes all people, even foreigners, and widows, and those “outside the camp,” and requires everyone to live “from the heart” in “letting justice roll down like waters and righteousness like an ever-flowing stream”—as the essential foundation of relationship with God.

The Wisdom writers had their idea of what is pleasing to God, and offer a practical, down-to-earth, early version of a “self-help” orientation to achieving divine sanction. The Psalmists had their ideas (often divergent) of what is pleasing to God. In the New Testament, the Jesus Movement offered still another view of what is pleasing to God, saying, basically, “Love one another,” and “Do unto others as you would have them do unto you,” meaning, “all others,” in the prophetic tradition.

In the first century church, views of God were as different as the “Christianities” that espoused them. Things began to narrow things down with heresy trials and burnings at the stake—nothing like a few burnings at the stake to secure widespread agreement about the nature of God.

The New Testament was written and compiled by those who were either of Gentile origin, or by Jews who were sympathetic to Gentiles. These writers/compilers did not include in the New Testament writings that may have been more Jewish in scope and direction. However, for about two generations after the death of Jesus, the followers of Jesus, and the new converts to the Movement, would have gathered regularly together with worshiping Jews in the synagogues to worship—in addition to house gatherings for prayer and discussion. It is only after it became unpopular—and unwise—to associate with Jews, because of the Jewish rebellion against Rome, that Christians separated themselves from Jewish worship practices, and began to consider Christianity as a separate religion.

Jesus did not intend separation, or see himself as creating a new religion. Jesus was not the first Christian, and it is not clear that he would be a Christian today. His intent was to reform Judaism by modifying the institutional idea of God that was popular among the Jewish people of his day.

The idea of God in the mind of the people of God has continued to be modified through the centuries following the creation of the Christian Church. God’s position on war, conscientious objection, slavery, women, abortion, birth control, alcohol, science, medicine, etc. has been carefully plotted and re-plotted by the theologians and leaders of the Church. Disagreements over the idea of God has created a proliferation of churches, with each new denomination professing to possess true belief, claiming to own the Right Idea of God, and accusing all other denominations of being deluded in the service of a false gospel, or Wrong Idea about God.

Today, religious pluralism has become a dominant force in the construction of the people’s idea of God, and the prevailing trend is the “honey bee approach” to spiritual development, where individuals “visit” different “flowers,” taking what they need from each religion, or denomination, and formulating a view of God that is consistent with their own sense of what is good, true and beautiful. The questions “Who is God?” and “How can we know?” are increasingly answered with the Taoist teaching, “The Tao that can be said is not the eternal Tao.” That being the case, the question then becomes, “What can we know of God with any degree of assurance or certainty?” And, the answer seems to be, “Live toward as much as you think you know of God, and allow the path to open up before you”—with “for better or worse,” unstated but implied.

Of course, this approach is much too vague to be comfortable for large numbers of people who want to know exactly what to believe, and how to live, and what the payoff will be. Thus, religious fundamentalism is increasing in popularity, and the return to orthodoxy is experienced in all the major religions of the world. “Just tell us what to believe, and don’t ask us what we think!” is the rallying cry of those who have had their fill of options and choices, with too many brands of shampoo, orange juice, and everything else on the market—who are “decided out” by the end of the week, and simply want to sink into the blessed assurance of age-old certainty, reassurance and conviction on Sunday morning.

What this all means is that the idea of God is continuing to expand, deepen, develop, and evolve. People coalesce around an idea, or perspective, that makes sense to them. God, then, is as much a reflection of our own need and imaginative capacity as an objective other “out there,” who can be known in the way we might know a Bentwood Rocker, or a vintage T-Bird, or a humpback whale.

The God we embrace, believe in, and serve is the God we find to be embraceable, believable, serve-able. We are the doorkeepers of our brand of religion, letting in the God we approve and find to be acceptable, and worshipping that God, until we grow into another view, another version, of God. As our idea of God expands, the God we worship changes, and we find ourselves, even in fundamentalist and orthodox circles, worshipping a God Abraham, Isaac and Jacob—or Peter and Paul—would not recognize, or approve.

As we move away from the traditional, orthodox, fundamentalist view of God as a living being apart, a Person, a Thou of cosmic proportions, the Wholly Other, to a more nebulous and inconceivable Ground of Being, or Essence of Life, or Heart of the Universe, or, my fave, The Source of Life and Being, we will need to clarify for ourselves, if not for others, our understanding of the difference between Non-Theism and Atheism. If we don’t believe in a God who stands apart from us, who sits on a Heavenly Throne, and has a specific Plan, and Will, and is working God’s “purpose out as year succeeds to year,” through all the events and occurrences of historical time, do we believe in a God at all? And if we do, how do we conceive of the God we believe in? What is our particular idea of God? It is easy enough for us to talk about the God we don’t believe in. What shall we say about the God we do believe in?

The best I can come up with is to say Atheism posits no God, and Non-Theism posits an unknowable God. And the difference between God-as-such and “What has always been called ‘God’,” is impossible to pin down, or pen up. God is beyond knowing and beyond talking about. The most we can say about God is “We cannot say anything about God.” God-as-such transcends thought and is beyond experience, like a sound at too high or too low a pitch and cannot be heard.

We can posit a source for life, but there is no reason to think life has to have a source. If God can be without a beginning, life itself can be without a beginning. Life as eternal energy seeking a physical form/expression/existence, seeking consciousness, particularly self-consciousness, is a perfectly good God-alternative as far as I am concerned, and that kind of life seeking expression would not have to send anyone to hell, but would just keep recycling everyone, like a cosmic green power.

Virtues and values could be a spin-off of self-consciousness, with intelligence creating its own design for itself and brains adding levels of complexity to life over time with soulfulness and wisdom working their way into the matrix of our development and evolution taking on a life of its own, and we get an idea of soma and spirit, of body and soul, of physical and spiritual, of the material universe and the Psyche/Soul, where the boundary line is blurred and no one knows where physical ends and spiritual begins, or what may lie beyond the two. And, beyond this, the Mystery!

We recognize “The Holy” as a manifestation of heart/soul. The holy people among us are the people who have heart/soul, who live with heart/soul, and from heart/soul–and they have vitality, life. They are alive. They are much more than 98.6 and breathing, and their spirit is infectious. They bring to life those about them. They live lovingly on the earth. They know what they love, and they love it, they do it, with all their heart, mind, soul and strength. Those people exhibit the essence, and the presence, and the realness of The Holy, The Divine, and what that is, is the Mystery!

Influencing What Can Be Influenced

One of the things I like most about life is that we never know what’s coming. The universe is full of surprises. Who knows what tomorrow—or the next five minutes—will bring? Turn a corner, and life changes forever. We can’t count on anything. We spend all our time getting our ducks in a row, and they fly south for the winter. We build the Great Wall of China, and the Empire still collapses. What a world. You can’t beat it anywhere. I love it. I’m being completely serious. I love the whole show. I love not knowing from one minute to the next what will be waiting on us when we get there—what we will have to deal with—how we will deal with it—where it’s going.

Fran Tarkenton, a former NFL quarterback with the Minnesota Vikings and New York Giants said, in an interview with ESPN, that he missed everything about his career in football. The sacks, the completions, the scrambling for first downs and touchdowns, the hits, the fumbles, the rain and mud, the snow, the wins and losses. “I loved it all, and miss it so.” There you are. We have to be able to say that about our life: “We loved everything about it, and miss it so.”

Two things are true, and wonderful: “You never know what’s going to happen,” and, “The response determines (or at least, strongly influences) what follows.” The future hinges on—and flows from—how we respond to what happens in each present moment. Yet, nothing we do will control any outcome, or guarantee any result. We have no control, but we exercise considerable influence, and we don’t know where things are going, or what will happen next. Now, that is worth getting out of bed for every morning!

This is the kind of thing we go to the movies to watch: The day has a mind of its own and we can influence the day! The day has a life of its own and we can bring to life in each day things that would not be alive without us. We work with what the day gives us to guide the day toward the best we can imagine within this context, these circumstances. And, we do it again tomorrow, and the day after that, every day for as long as there are days. This is as much of a long-range plan as we can hope for! If you want a more specific plan than this for your life, the days are going to collapse in a gasping heap, laughing.

The best we can do is to be relatively clear about the best we can do. What is the best we can imagine? What do we wish for ourselves, those we love, all living beings, the entire planet, and the cosmos as a whole? What is worth our life? What would we go to hell for? Toward what are we living? These are the questions we must be answering with our lives. We cannot be too clear about them. And, we cannot arrive at clarity without thinking about, and talking about, what is happening, and what we are doing about it. We don’t engage enough in that kind of conversation.

Dialogue that enables/demands reflection is largely missing from our lives. We spend our time talking about news/weather/sports and other people. If we talk about ourselves, it is to complain about the 10,000 things. When is the last time you talked to someone about your last night’s dream? When is the last time you talked to someone about your work to find your life and live it? When has anyone ever talked to you about those things?

When do we explore together our experience of our experience and its impact on our life? When do we say where we find meaning in our life and how we live to serve it?

We all need a sounding board–NOT someone to tell us what to do, but someone to listen as we talk about what is happening in our life and what we are doing about it, and what we can imagine doing about it, and where we might find the resources for doing it. We need someone to listen us to the truth of our life, of our lived experience–not to tell us anything!

The days come at us too fast to allow reflection. We don’t have time to think about what we are doing. We’re too busy dodging, ducking and jumping out of the way to worry about anything beyond survival. The only thing we are clear about is that we need a break. We need to tag out of this round. We need help. We need someone to talk to. Who will listen us to the truth of what we have to say. And, thereby, enable us to hear it ourselves.

The bad news is it isn’t going to get easier. We only have the time between now and the next thing—which is no time at all—to “recover from the past and store up for the future,” decide what we are going to do about the future when it arrives, think about where we are going with our lives, and what we think ought to happen, and how we ought to assist its happening, and evaluate what we are doing while we are doing it.

James Hollis, the Jungian analyst and author, says his high school football experience taught him that no matter what happened on the last play, he had to get up and get ready for the next play. That’s life for you. Here it comes, ready or not. We’ll have to invent our response on the run. We don’t have time to sit for days, weighing our options.

But, we get all the practice anyone could possibly want! Our lives are proving grounds, which produce, over time, the kind of life that life is all about—if we pay attention! If we are aware! If we are awake! The good news is that we don’t have to know what we are doing. We don’t have to have it figured out. We don’t have to be clear about anything. Our lives are self-correcting, self-guided, self-propelled, learning environments. All we have to do is keep our eyes open in order to figure it out. We only have to live with our eyes open—and bear the pain!

We cannot live with our eyes open without bearing the pain. The pain is the pain of seeing how it is and also is—knowing, feeling, experiencing how it is and also is. To be aware is to be aware of the contradictions and conflicts—to be aware of living in the tension between how things are and how things ought to be, and how we wish things were. This is not easy. The more aware we are, the more we will have to manage the pain of being alive.

The human predicament is that we can imagine a better world than the world we live in. We have to bear the pain of the discrepancy between the world of our dreams and the world we wake up in every day—between the world as it could be and the world as it is—between the way things are and the way we want things to be. It is an agonizing discrepancy. We bear the pain of realization, of enlightenment. And, we do that best in the company of those who are doing it themselves.

We cannot grow toward how things ought to be without coming to terms with how things are, and how things have been, and how things can be. How things are, and how things have been, provide us with the corrective insight required to live toward how things can be. But, that means bearing the pain of knowing how things are, and how things have been, and how things can be–which includes how things cannot be!

Part of our work is to live with our eyes open, and bear the pain of living with the awareness of how things are, how things have been and can be/cannot be. Part of that pain is the pain of what has been done to us. Part of that pain is the pain of what we have done. Part of that pain is the pain of what has happened to those about us. We cannot live with our eyes open without knowing that things are not what they might be—what they should be.

The church of our experience has attempted to handle the discrepancy between how things are and how things ought to be by dismissing, discounting, denying or ignoring it. Or by saying that it’s all our fault, and that if we weren’t sinful our lives would be grand. Or by saying that it isn’t really all that bad, and it all happens for a reason, and all we have to do is have faith and everything will be fine. We can do better than any of this.

We can start by saying that our pain is real, and that it must be witnessed. We cannot bear unacknowledged pain. We can’t even be aware of it. Pain has to be recognized in order to be borne. We have to say what is true to those who can listen with understanding, acceptance and compassion to all we have to say, and we have a lot to say. What we say has to be heard, understood, received, accepted, witnessed. That’s the first thing.

The second is that we have to grieve what is to be grieved, mourn what is to be mourned, feel what is to be felt, object stoutly to what is to be stoutly objected to, and do what can be done in response to what has happened/is happening, and allow the intensity of our agony to diminish over time. If we have objected properly our agony will diminish, and it is our place to permit that. We are not here to agonize endlessly over the discrepancy between the world we can imagine, and the world we can live in, but to step into this world, and live as well as life can be lived within the context and circumstances—within the possibilities and necessities—of life as it is.

The third thing is that we have to realize that things are not right with this world, and that’s just the way it is. That is where we come in. The question is, what can we do about that—how can we work with it. We have to bear the pain of life, and do what can be done about it. And when nothing can be done about it, we have to acknowledge it, mourn it, and allow it to diminish over time. We have to bear it over time in the company of the right kind of people.

Bearing our pain in this way enables us to live with our eyes open, and practice the art of living toward the best we can imagine no matter what. What is the best we can imagine? What do we wish for ourselves, and those we love, and all living beings, and the entire planet, and the cosmos as a whole? What is worth our life? Toward what are we living? We practice answering these questions with our eyes open, living with the idea of making things more like they ought to be than they are, and making things as good as they can be for ourselves and those about us. The trick is to remember what we are about, so that we can practice being about it, and influence the world toward the good of all.

One way of thinking about the work that is before us is to call up the image of Jacob wrestling through the night by the stream called Jabbok with “the angel of the Lord.” You’ll remember that the angel had to depart before dawn, and Jacob wouldn’t let the angel go, even though the angel had dislocated Jacob’s hip, until the angel had given him a blessing.

Rachel Remem says that the trick is to take what comes as graciously as possible, and refuse to let go until we mine it for whatever good may come attached. The angel of the Lord dislocated Jacob’s hip; Jacob held on, demanding the blessing.

You know how you are rocking along, things are fine, all is well, you’re on cruise control, clicking off those personal goals and objectives, realizing those lofty ambitions, with the world on a string, sitting on a rainbow, smiling like a Cheshire cat in the cat bird’s seat, saying “Ain’t life grand,” when you hit the wall? You know how out of nowhere comes the news about the blockage, or the malignancy, or the job loss, or the divorce, or fill in the blank from your own life experience. You know how it is to be smashed between the eyes by life at its harshest and worst. You know how we can’t run far enough fast enough, and we just try to bury it, get busy, refocus, and refuse to think about the awful thing. That’s what it is like when chaos comes for a visit.

Life gives us things we don’t want, and we try our best to give them back, to give them away, to get rid of them any way we can through denial, diversion, distraction, evasion, escape, avoidance, addiction. We R-U-N-N-O-F-T any way we can, every way we can, every time we can. And we miss the blessing. Every time life whacks us a good one right in the chops, or plants a big, juicy wet one right on the kisser, the potential for a blessing exists, and we let it go because we are so busy trying to get back to normal, so busy trying to find the life we once had, so busy trying to bless ourselves by getting rid of the dreadful thing, whatever it is, and give ourselves what we want instead. It doesn’t work that way.

We aren’t in control. We don’t drive this thing called life. It’s immune to our directives, ignores our orders, and whacks us a good one ( or a big juicy wet one) from time to time, right in the chops (or the kisser). When that happens, we have to remind ourselves of Jacob, and grab the thing, whatever it is, right back, and grind our face right into its face, look it squarely in its ugly red eye, and say something on the order of, “I’ve got you now you stinking angel of the Lord! And, I’m not letting you leave without the blessing!”

Sometimes, we have to work for our blessings. Sometimes we have to wade right into what looks to be completely devoid of blessings of any variety, and slog around in the slime, until we are sure we have extracted every bit of the good that is to be found there, and come away with the blessing it brings, after what may seem to be an endless struggle through the dark night of the soul.

And, this kind of work in the service of the blessing is made possible by being in the company of the right kind of others. We come to life in the company of those who are coming to life themselves.